Dust of the Saturn

Danny could so many things he had done wrong throughout his life, and it made him so miserable because he had so many chances to redeem himself and he didn't bring himself to even take the effort to improve himself and now he was being forced to bare out his broken, shattered soul to twelve strangers in hopes of them even listening to his story. Danny was in the middle of doing paperwork when his phone suddenly rang from Eli Manning and he picked up and the ADA seemed so frantic sounding when Danny said 

"Hello? Counselor?"

"Captain Danny, there has been a problem, a massive, huge, logistical problem that's probably gonna piss you off, so please sit down so I can tell you."

Danny was suddenly concered as he added 

"Wait, slow down right there, calm down Counselor, breathe, now, tell me what is it that has you in such a hurry right there?"

"Lewis...Lewis fucking skipped on the cops that were supposed to keep an eye on him until the indictment hearing, he's on the loose and now FBI Special Field Agents Robert Goren and Alexandra Eames are on his tracks, we can promise you that he will not escape our grasp for long Captain, I can assure you of that."

Danny wanted to yell and scream, but Eli soon continued

"Captain, I also am notifying you due to a clause in New York law, I am recusing myself from this case. ADA Rafael Barba will take over for first chair, I am so, so sorry Captain, I didn't want to have to tell you this but this has happened and it is a serious technicality against me, it is in now way, your fault whatsoever. I just can't take on the case. I am so sorry."

The other end soon clicked and Danny slammed his phone down on the cradle, he bitterly observed that he was doing that a lot now a days as well, he was angrier, more bitter and more harsh on his officers and was a suspension happy officer, he was more authoritative and ready to yell down any detective who dared challenge his position of power and he was throwing up as well, his nausea especially around coffee was not letting him go and he hated throwing up so much. He was moodier and eating strange foods such as nachos with ice cream dumped straight on top of the melted nacho cheese and he just crunched his way through it all, as he ate and ate, while waiting and seeing in anxiety, his heart beat in terror each time he left his house and each time he came back home, he was extra paranoid of his surroundings. He sighed as he gagged again and threw up in the sink as he sighed, he flopped on the couch as he watched the news programs and he sighed as the world passed him by and he felt as though he was a mere observer to a film like version of his own life. 

Barba called soon afterwards and he picked up and answered

"Captain Reagan here."

Barba icily responded 

"Well then, if it isn't the Captain Reagan who has made a splash in the news frequently for misconduct. At any rate, this is ADA Barba and I'll be taking over first chair and I will be questioning you on your story, I will need to meet up with you at One Hogan place, make yourself familiar with that address because I won't do it for you."

"All right then."

"Jury selection is almost complete, I just need to go over a few dozen more potential jurors and I think I have a couple that might be sympathetic to our side, so that might be some good news for you Captain Danny."

Danny sighed "Okay and when is the date and time?"

Barba gave him one and Danny bid his farewells and hung up, he sighed bitterly as he rubbed his hands over his face in severe distress and mental exhaustion.