Ignorance is eating me alive

Danny felt guilt over Alexandra Eames's death, apparently she and Goren had spotted him there at the gas station making a purchase of gas and some snacks, as if he was prepared to leave for a long road trip to never return, to hunt down more victims and to continue his rampage unabated. Eames had engaged first after calling for backup as Goren tried crossing into another aisle of the food mart section to try and flank Lewis from the back while Eames would distract him from the from the front. Goren could hear gun shots ring out as he ran through the aisle and he heard a woman's scream ring out, they sounded too much like Eames as he tried to make it into the aisle, he saw Lewis walking over, cradling her dying face and then grabbing the cashier, who screamed in terror, her shrill screams grabbing his attention as he demanded.

"Let the woman go! NOW! You don't want things to turn ugly now, do you?"

Lewis cruelly smiled and shot back 

"I already made things plenty ugly enough for your partner right there, didn't I? You could easily empty your clip in me right now, knowing that you could easily justify it as self-defense and people will look the other way. You would have a sympathetic jury that would easily find me guilty several times over, isn't that true? Isn't it not?"

Goren smiled as he aimed at Lewis's knee and fired into it, shattering the kneecap and severing several ligaments as it caved under his weight, the woman ran over to Goren sobbing loudly and he held the whimpering woman, and reassured her softly

"You're okay, you're safe right now, the man is going to jail for a very long time."

He then cuffed William Lewis and handed him to Anthony Renzulli who read out the Miranda rights for him and then took him to the squad car, while Goren ran over as he held pressure on her wounds, she was alive but barely, she was gasping for air as her eyes remained firmly closed, there was so much blood all around her, it was frightening to see so much of it surround her in such a way, he wasn't prepared to see his partner hurt this badly he cared very deeply for her and his heart was beating with terror as he screamed 

"I NEED A BUS! AGENT DOWN!"

He shook with barely repressed anger and fury as he wanted to punch that bastard over and over as the medics ran in and professionally rolled her onto the backboard and then lifted her onto the stretcher and then wheeled her away as he was told they would be going to St Victor's hospital and he grabbed his carkeys and drove as fast as he could with his sirens on, blaring loudly and the lights flashing, following the ambulance as the cars pulled over to give the ambulance room to zoom by, his heart beat like crazy from anxiety as he started stress eating, he soon arrived at the hospital with the ambulance and he quickly parked in the car garage as he ran into the hospital and went to the lobby area where he spoke to the nurse at the desk and she smiled 

"Hello there, how may I help you today?"

"I need to see FBI Special Field Agent Alexandra Eames. I'm her partner Robert Goren."

For good measure he showed his badge to her so that she would understand that this was urgent and he was a federal agent.

She quickly typed through the computer as she found out 

"Alexandra is now in recovery, her injuries are that of two gunshot wounds to the upper left side of her chest, severe bleeding. She isn't looking good."

Goren was guided to her recovery room where she lay sedated and there where bags of saline and machines beeped and hummed steadily and he was given a gown, gloves and a hair net to prevent his hair from shedding on her, he blinked out tears as he held her hand and prayed, he knew that the doctor would only let him in, there was a chance she wouldn't even make it through the night, her wounds were too grievous for the doctors to do any more extraordinary measures to save her. The whole room was covered in sheeting to protect her from germs and viruses. He watched as the beeping became rapid and the doctors ran in, trying to do CPR, but she had flatlined and the doctor called out

"Time of death 10:22 PM."

Goren broke down when he was notified, he noticed cops, agents and his own boss were there and he hadn't noticed at all as the man laid his hand on Goren's shoulder, he hadn't even begun to confess the depths of his love for her when she had died.