Drastically Falling Apart

Sometimes life brings you to a point where you are stuck, you can't move ahead or back out and the only reason it happened with you is for you to analyse yourself about what good and bad you've done so far. 

I'm not sure to call this situation fortunate or unfortunate. Of course, self-reflection is necessarily important and one shouldn't wait for a moment to arrive and make them self understand but I was one of those unfortunate people who were perhaps too late to realize it on their own. 

For my desires, I had come so far that there wasn't any way back and nor any light ahead, I was stuck in a dark abyss and left to think alone until some miracle happens and I'm saved. 

"Over my dead body!" My brain had yelled but all that came out of my mouth was a mumbo jumbo.