VII: Drunk

Her POV

It's already 10 pm. But he's still not home. I am silently pondering if he will come and take me home. Not that I am hoping. I still have to please him with a that I could. I remember what we talked about a while ago.

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[Flashback about 3 hours ago]

"I thought of something." Selena said.

Alina kept staring at the sea. Their shooting ended early about 7 pm. Her friend decided to bring her there because she knows that by the time she was in that house, she felt suffocated. The sounds of the waves crashing at the shore is calming enough. The silence between the both of them lasted for an hour before they decided to talk.

"Why can't you give him a chance Ali?" she suddenly blurted.

The one she's asking kept silent. Staring at the moon. The sky is dim. It is dull but the thousand stars are making it bright and colorful. The moon stood there in silence.

"I don't know. He doesn't tell me anything. He spoke too little. He doesn't talk to me by will. He doesn't tell about himself. He's too mysterious. And it felt like... He doesn't love me. That he just married me for the sake of business." she smiled at the moon while saying those words.

"Just because you don't see it doesn't mean it isn't there. Ask him..." Selena told her and she looked at her straightforward friend. Should she heed her advice?

"Ignorance is bliss." she answered.

"But ignorance could be cured and things would be better." Selena answered.

"He's very hard to read... I don't know what he likes, what he don't like... I feel stupid and senseless around him." she said with a melancholic smile.

"Every single day... I wish that it was all a dream. I, marrying him... Everyday I hope that I would wake up and realise it is all a nightmare. I feel so lonely and sad. I wanna see my parents because I want to but I can't... Its so hard. Suffocating and depressing."

"Your husband is so odd you know. Too silent. I often see him. In high class restaurants and hotels when he attends gatherungs and business meetings. He's to quiet and calculative. He's a cruel and ruthless director at young age but sometimes, he is pitiful." her friend smiled at her meaningfully and she tried to think of why is Selena telling her those.

"How is he pitiful?" I asked her.

"He's very powerful and rich. Think of it. He is only 22. Too young but the whole Andromeda Corp. is his responsibility. I know he manages it with his father but he's too young to be cage to that huge responsibility. He doesn't have time to do what he wants. He can't control his own fate." Selena heavily sighed and her vision drifted unto the horizon and the thousand tiny lights flickering there.

"If it's true that he only married you for business... Then he really is pathetic. No one knows if he liked what he's doing because they didn't asked or he doesn't want to tell. Nobody knows. Not even you." she continued and looked at her friend again.

"Why do you know a lot about him?" Alina became speechless and it was all she could come up with.

"Because I'm concerned about you and I am closely paying attention to him because of that. I could read people Ali. Trust me." she assured.

"I'm just reminding you of things because I don't want you to do things carelessly and end up regretting your stupidity in the end." she added.

Her words always render Alina speechless. She seldom speaks. But when she did, it contain heavy weight and authority.

"You only live once darling..." she spoke with her words laced with care and concern. "...so be sure you live it to the fullest and without any hesitation. That's what we both promised to each other after we graduated right?" she smiled sweetly while she brushed her hair up when the wind blew and messed her hair.

Selena also seldom smile, Alina realised, but when she smiles, she had the prettiest lips and eyes.

[End of flashback]

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I'm confused.

"Your husband is so odd you know. Too silent. I often see him. In high class restaurants and hotels when he attends gatherungs and business meetings. He's to quieta and calculative. He's a cruel and ruthless CEO at young age but sometimes, he is pitiful."

"He's very powerful and rich. Think of it. He is only 22. Too young but the whole Andromeda Corp. is his responsibility. I know he manages it with his father but he's too young to be cage to that huge responsibility. He doesn't have time to do what he wants. He can't control his own fate."

"If it's true that he only married you for business... Then he really is pathetic. No one knows if he liked what he's doing because they didn't asked or he doesn't want to tell. Nobody knows. Not even you."

"I'm just reminding you of things because I don't want you to do things carelessly and end up regretting it in the end."

"You only live once darling... so be sure you live it to the fullest and without any hesitation. That's what we both promised to each other after we graduated right?"

Her words keep echoing to my mind. He told me that my husband is pitiful. I also didn't realised those things first. Maybe because I'm not really paying attention to him. But I'm not really into him. I just talk to him and act around him to get his trust. I value my freedom most. I want to live my life to its fullest but I can't do that when I'm tied to this loveless marriage.

"I'm just reminding you of things because I don't want you to do things carelessly and end up regretting it in the end."

"I promise you Selena, I will not do something I know I would regret in the end..." I whispered to myself. I am busy writing a song. I want to pour my thoughts and pain by creating melodies. Yes, I could compose. After all music as also my addiction.

I heard the sound of an approaching car, Rei is here. I stood and closed the piano. I put away the pen and paper where I wrote melodies. My mind is a mess, Selena's words are messing with it.

By the time I opened the door... He greeted me with his familiar yet cold brown eyes. I smelled the alcohol within that distance. He halted and we both stared at each others eyes. I wanted to know you more... But I'm scared. So I have no choice. I swallowed my guilt and tried to clear my troubled mind. "You're drunk?" I asked with concerned.

"No." he told me. Nothing is wrong with his actions but the smeel of alcohol is reeking. I held his hand gently and closed the door. Then I turn to him. "Have you eaten yet?" I asked softly, I know alcohol is bad if you drink without eating. He looked down to his hands which I am tugging gently then his gaze got back to my eyes. I like the warmth of his soft hands better, unlike his cold eyes. "Not yet." he answered to me in his usual tone...

So I pulled him to the dining room. "You should eat something before drinking alcohol... Don't do that again alright?" I gently instructed him. When we were at the table, instead of eating, he is looking at me while tilting his head. Instead of being intimidated, I didn't because he looked like a curious kid who is afraid of asking something.

After a while, he spoke. "Why are you doing this?" he asked.

"Doing what?" my body tensed at his question. I didn't know he would ask directly. I begun to brainstorm of answers. No, I can't let him know about the plan.

"You said that you hate me. Why are you doing this?" he asked the words I'm trying to avoid.

My heart beat insanely fast and I find no words to say. What should I respond? That I'm doing this to him? To get his trust? To make him divorce me? The fact that his gaze felt like he could read me made me more nervous.

"To know you better..." I answered nervously. It was all I could think of. Maybe he knows that I'm lying. He's not a fool after all.

He looked at me straight in the eyes as if weighing my emotions and words at the same time. I tried my best to look sincere.

To my surprise, he looked down to his food and started eating like he heard nothing. I am confused at that moment. "Don't you want me to know you better?" I asked him. My heartbeat is still insanely fast but I wanted to know.

"Once you do, I'm afraid you'll regret it." his words were akin to thunder echoing through my mind.

What does he mean? I might regret getting to know him better? Why? Is he hiding lot of secrets? What kind of secrets?

He is really a mystery...

"Won't you open up to me?" I asked bravely although I'm so confused and mystified.

How could I accomplish my plan if I can't get closer to you?

[AUDIO: SAY SOMETHING BY A GREAT BIG WORLD]