Scent.

“Chill out, I'm just excited to see your sight. ” I move back, shielding myself with the nearest object I've seen--a head cloud as the person who was screaming suddenly jolted to get near me, excitedly. Geez, that scares the shit out of me. I peek over to check on her, and to my surprise, she was gone--oh please, don't tell me she stood up just to get close to me. “I just want to see the color of your sight, bet it'll be gorgeous. ” she rambles from my side--damn, I was right. What's with the Ava's I'm meeting up? One that was full scared of me and another who doesn't know the word space at all, did I do something wrong? All I want was to be at home in peace, not in here, in a mess full of unknown Ava's.

“You can see it, Bou, if you back off. She looks like she's traumatized by your ecstatic acts, chill out for once. ” Umnia--in which I've only heard from the overly excited Ava in front of me when she showed up to check on me and Bou? Umnia, unlike Bou is one big snob--that's what I've observed. The moment she enters she was in silence, and she only looks at us not uttering a word except just now after probably noticing that I need help on Bou's act. And she likes to roll her eyes, she's been doing that in silence every time Bou will do something over excitedly--she did it once again after speaking out.

“Whatever, Umi. ” Bou stood up, straightening her wrinkled Ava clothing--wait, no those are, “Earth clothes, you're wearing clothing's from Earth! ” I shrieked making Bou halt in her tracks and Umnia to avert her attention to me. What's wrong with me? That was embarrassing as hell.

“Your attention span is--lacking? ” Bou says, leaning back to me as she observes my eyes--she had been longing to do that, and she finally finds a way to do so. Darn, it, that was really creepy- I am and yes, Bou is. I've been told that my attention span isn't really that great, It's not that I'm slow when I am being told it's more like my sight a slow in picking up the things it is seeing. Like if I stare at a certain point, I'll only see that everything will be blurry, or worst I will not be able to see it all no matter how hard I try to put my attention into it. That was one of my weaknesses, I know that. And that's also the reason why, why things have gone through to where is it now.

“I've been told. ” I sigh, diverting my sight downwards. It's better to just hide my eyes, instead of letting them be seen by others--Stupid, Black, and Green eyes. Ah yes, others who had seen my eyes fully always told me that my weakness might be from the difference my eyes had. I never believed them at first but every time I'll try to cover one, especially the green one it'll be harder for me to see what's in front or what surrounds me. I was born with this, Mother never despise it though but I did--at some point I did. It's the reason why things crumbled because I was useless. My sight was unhelpful, at some point.

I've forgotten that phase long ago, it's just getting back to me. Now that another one had realized that I do lack on something, and it's these eyes that bear more than memories of what I've been through before I stepped into this steep journey.

Stop turning back into time, your eyes are what makes you... you. You're beautiful, and I love you for that--we all do.

“So, uhm--shall we call someone to check on her? Or, shall we just let her be... say something Umi! ” Bou screamed, taking my senses back to reality. She might've been worried about what her actions seem like, did I scared her? “I am fine, there's nothing to worry about. ” I say hastily, making Bou shriek in surprise while Umnia on the other hand still keeps her composure. What's with her? Is she some sort of statue that was converted into Ava--or she just doesn't know what emotion is.

“She's fine, now, come on. ” Umnia flatly says, as she steers Bou out of the confined space we're in. What about me? Should I follow-oh, never mind Bou pulls me along with her.

I drag my feet as we walk over the long hall outside the former space, light from the gigantic Luna in the sky slips through the little holes of the barricaded openings. What's with the barricades? If I were on Earth, a place like this will be my last destination. It gives off a really chilly aura plus the only light it has was from the seeking openings and some weak flame from the candle lights along the long hall.

“Did your Mother already seek for her? Or, you just want to be apart from us? ” I heard Bou asked Umnia, who still doesn't give even a second to utter an answer to Bou's question. Umnia only continues on our journey, and as we approach the end of the long hall she stopped and sighed.

“L'existence précède l'essence.” she finally uttered, Bou rolled her eyes and all I can say was what the fuck in my head. Is that some sort of curse to tied up Bou's tongue? Because she had been quiet, in which was a first-ever since I've opened my eyes to her loud noises.

It has been some time of silence when I've decided to speak out to question why we're just standing in front of the huge entrance at the end of the long hall we're in after Umnia uttered those unfamiliar words, but even before I can say what's running on my mind the entrance opens. Revealing a much wider space, that can be mistaken as an auditorium in fact it seems to be much wider than Astra's.

How is that even possible? As far as I know, Astra is humongous of all in Abaddon. None were created to beat that fact, except-this?

For one more bloody son of Abaddon, where the heck am I?

-

When I first started my journey as a Don, I was lost. I was seeking for an asylum that can put my mind in retreat. I didn't find it in Astra--but I did find it after I visualize why I am in Astra. What was my purpose? Did I really come for security--or was it something more. No one knew my true intention, except my longing heart. The heart I've long forgotten and kept in a much-secured place that I swear to only open once again when the right time happens. And now, that I am in front of the people, we, Ava's declined for a long period of time... I might open that chest even though the right time is still not there.

“Are you still in doubt or you're just completely declining? ” the mistress, who wears a long red cape that suits her cherry-looking lips were in my line once again. Who would've thought, that the myth my Mother had always taught me was real.

“I am not in doubt or declining, my Mother always told me the myth of yours. I always believe in her, it's only now that I am faced with you and all the others... I am in awe. ” because, in my head, you're just a myth my Mother always wished to ever existed. A myth my Father had longed for in his writings to change the system.

“G'neration was never a myth, we're just hiding among the others. Blending just like you in your guise, we tried to protect in open but we were declined by those who seek for a defender. ” the one besides the mistress in which Bou calls as the co-mistress explains with her arm crossed, there's an unfamiliar scent in her manner and that makes me be at the edge of uneasiness.

“How did you know about my guise? ” I ask, I avert my eyes to Bou who was suddenly whistling in silence avoiding any contact with me--was it her? Them knowing about my guise isn't such big of a problem, but still, my guise is a part of me. A part that cannot be exposed to the sight and scent of the others' in Abaddon, that if I am still in Abaddon. Bou said we're still in when I asked her about it when we were walking down through that long assed hall, but I doubt her.

“Kibou might look like she was the culprit but she isn't, Nova over there is. She's the one who brought you to us, in fear. But she didn't mean to see through your guise, it only happens that you fell face first and she caught you causing her to touch some sensitive places--plus some of part of your clothing's ripped when you were swaying back and forth. ” Umnia speak up, as her frown deepens in every sentence. Kibou then snorts, and the one Umnia calls as Nova only raises her hand hiding her face among the others. I see, Nova is the name of the Ava I've encountered first, and just like before she's still shy, or should I say in fear just like before. What did I ever do to her?

“Star, that suits a shy Ava like you. ” I comment, addressing the still hiding Nova. None speak up, but Nova lookup for a few seconds and even make contact with me before she went back into her hiding. Am I that scary? “I've been wanting to tell you, I am not someone you should fear. I might be wearing an article of clothing that isn't right for me but it doesn't me that I am also someone who doesn't stand for the right. ” I sigh, the space was then turned into a giggling park. Is there something to giggle about my words?

“She's not scared of you, maybe during the time you were pinning her down the abandoned walls, but not now. She's embarrassed, she was the one who sees you naked--even though not fully, after all. ” Vera slickers, causing the others to be at much louder fit except Umnia. Unlike the others who giggled the very first, she didn't not even in silence. She just stares at everyone, averting her eyes back and forth to the giggling Mistress and the co-Mistress. I do understand that there really isn't funny about the situation, but to not laugh at all or even smile throughout the day that I've seen her... she was something. I just knew that something was off with her, from the way she talks and even the way she walks like a tough soldier build to protect the guild... it was unsettling. “I'm sorry, but, Umnia are you alright? ” and everyone stopped.

Back and Forth, did I say something wrong? I probably did, because from what it looks I think I've hit a button in her and the Mistresses, even to Kibou.

Living as a Don, I always try to be out of the eyes of others. That was when I've first stepped foot in Astra before I realize that in order to gain what I want, I have to be on everyone's radar of favoritism. I did succeed in creating something that'll make me their favorites, but I always knew that even if I am indeed one of their favorites there'll be a time where I'll screw up and lose everything of the streak. And now, that I may be off the favoritism board of Umnia... I feel like I didn't just fucked up in front of the G'neration members but instead, in the eyes of the lions, I always fear about.

G'neration;