The day after the first snow

Putting on my jacket and taking a final look in the mirror and finally leaving with a great sigh thinking about the busy day I am about to face I start to increase my pace little by little. As in autopilot mode, my footsteps trailed to the subway, the coffee shop and finally to my workplace. Scanning my ID, I entered the elevator looking at the screen until the 14th floor finally came on the screen. The sound of people chattering hit me in no time and I made my way to my desk.

Quietly placing my bag I proceeded to start my work. The infinite prayers going through my mind so that people wouldn't come to talk to me. It's not that I don't enjoy small talks, it's just that the talk of my blogs usually comes to the picture. I struggle every time they talk about it to keep my identity hidden. After all, the praises are more than enough to make me smile. So I always avoid the talks. From a distance, I can hear them talk about it.

"OMG!!! As if yesterday's first snow was not enough, Irene posted a new blog. I wish I was Daniel."

"It's not like she gave us a whole essay on him. It was just a few words. Enough words to make me melt..."

"Just stop this, will you girls!!! It's not a big deal. It's just a blog."

"What is wrong with you Ashten?!?! It is one of the best blogs to follow. The words are just beautiful."

"You should talk like this in a low voice. I am pretty sure almost everyone here is a fan of Irene's blog. What about you? Did you read it, Jane?"

The question popped out of the blue. It took me a second to come back from the shock and I replied with a slight nod. Ashten was looking at you with that "You too!" eyes. I gave him back a small smile. Soon everyone was back at their desks and the day went by. As I got off work, Ashten came running to me. I stopped in my tracks to hear what he was about to say. It was another coffee together request and as always I politely denied it. It has been a long time since I parted with Daniel. But I never had that feeling to date or meet new people after that. Deep into my thoughts, I went off on my way to the subway leaving Ashten there.

Maybe it's time to let go... Maybe it's time to move on...

But I wish to meet you one last time…