The whole story

Dear viewers of my blog,

By now you might know a lot about Daniel. But the way each fragment was delivered to you was never incorrect order. As each memory came flashing back, I shared them hoping that among one of you readers he too will be there keeping his promise. I think now it is clearly time to take a major turn. And before that happens, I'll tell you the whole story...

10 years ago...

As I was making my way through the hallway of my new school with my teacher, anyone who saw me then would clearly understand that I was very nervous. Taking a deep breath, I entered my class. Soon my eyes landed on him. Sitting at the back near the window with a mesmerizing and enchanting smile. The teacher introduced me to the class and his gaze shifted from the outside view to my face and gave me a warm smile.

It was a very new feeling for me... A feeling that I had never felt before...

But it was clear to me what it was... IT WAS FIRST LOVE...

As days went by I got to know his name, have small conversations, have lunch together... Soon we were best friends... Our houses were next to each other... Well, everyone was. After all, it was a small village in the countryside. Soon came winter with its first snow. I have always felt special on the first snow. I feel like everyone does. It announces the arrival of one of the best times of the year... Christmas. As I was taking the beauty of those frozen tears from the sky, I noticed him waving at me like a child. Even without me knowing I uttered, "Hi, Daniel!". Even without me knowing a warm feeling embraced my heart. It was enough to take away all the cold feeling of the coming winter.

Soon seasons changed and it was the time I was finally graduating. "What are you planning to do after graduating, Irene?" asked Daniel. "I don't know. Maybe go to the city. I am not sure yet. What about you?" "I am going to my uncle's farm. He's been mentioning that he's short on employees. So I am planning to go help him out."

A feeling of blue engulfed my heart but I still gave him a smile of acceptance. And in no time I was here, in the city, going to college. During the first few weeks, we kept in touch every day. But soon it started falling out due to our unmatching schedules. And soon Daniel was placed in one of the deepest parts of my mind. It wasn't for long though. He resurfaced again back to my thoughts but the messages I sent were left unread. Finally, I graduated college and I started working. At first, the busy life was very interesting to me. It was never lonely. Soon it flipped upside down. I was missing the countryside, the relaxed environment, the sound of the breeze, the fields and everything. The words of Daniel came to my mind. The way he praised my words after reading my diary. I remembered how he told me to give the world my words. By that time the feeling of him not being next to me was very hard, so I started this blog.

At first, I had convinced myself that this blog is not a message for Daniel at all. But later I accepted that it was the truth. I have finally decided to do something. It will make my life take a huge turn from what it was up until now but I need to do this so I can conclude all these feelings. I have decided to move back to the countryside. Feel the beauty of nature again. And above all find and confront Daniel...

And Post...

I took the last sip of my coffee and closed my laptop. I took a look at the resignation letter that I had printed earlier. I am finally quitting my job. I looked at the half-filled cardboard boxes and mocha sleeping on the side while making my way to the balcony. Tomorrow is the last day I have to repeat my auto-piloted routine one last time. With softly curved lips and an empty cup, I stood at the balcony for a while.