Pain.
There's so much pain.
Everywhere.
There is just no escape from it.
I want to run and hide. I want to do anything that could help me cut it out. I know the pain pathways and I wish I could cut them off.
I just want it to stop.
All this grief and sorrow: it's making this pain even more intense.
Everywhere there is just pain and darkness.
I never knew that it could hurt so much.
What was I anyway? A mere woman. What was my crime to deserve so much torment? What did I ever do? I was a normal ordinary person. My parents didn't want me because I was girl so they gave me away. My uncle and aunt raised me to be a good woman.
I was good. I helped everyone that I could. I showed kindness and enthusiasm.
But was that enough? No it wasn't.
What did I get in return for being good? All this pain and hurt. I didn't deserve any of it.
Annie?
I listened as my voice of reason came.
'What?'