Chapter 8

Six months later...

Dean's pov:

It's been 6 months after her passing and it still feels like it was yesterday. Lauren's body was buried and Randy finally fully recovered from the accident. Things between me and him have gotten really weird and I don't know how to explain it. The more I stop thinking, the more it consumed me. Those beautiful green eyes, that flawless Irish accent. All I could think about was him. My dreams have been getting more and more explicit and I don't know how to make them stop! Then I remembered Lauren's voice saying be true to myself. I still haven't figured it out. "OY DEAN!" Dylan snapped laughing. "You are completely away with the fairies man" Randy laughed. Oh man that laugh was so adorable. I could record it and listen to it all day.

Randy's pov:

"Who's ready for prom?" Randy said doing a little fake dance. Dylan looked at Josie then looked at the rest of us. "I won't go to prom, I'll wait until my girlfriend graduates first. We can do it after our A levels" he said. Me and Dean looked at each other then back at Dylan. "Good idea!" Dean said getting up. "I better get going" he continued before leaving. I looked at him as he started to leave the room. That's a fine ass he's got. "Randy!" Josie snapped laughing. "What?" I replied shrugging. "Do you think I'm stupid? You looked at Daniel the very same way" she said winking. I choked on my last piece of sandwich at her words. "Don't be silly! Dean is like the brother I've never had. I can never date him" I sheepishly said. But she had a point. The last six months, I've really grown an attraction to him. I don't know why but there's something about him which makes my heart go wild. "I better get going, don't wanna be late for science class" I said getting out of there as quickly as possible.

Dean's pov:

I was about to enter the classroom when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I spun around only to be met with those beautiful green eyes again. "Can I help you?" I sarcastically said. There was a short pause before Randy pecked me on the lips. "See you after school" he said walking off. What the hell was that!

Randy's pov:

I have no idea why I did that but I wanted to be sure that my feelings weren't leaving me astray. As soon as my lips touched his, an electric current radiated throughout my body. I really was in love with him! But how do I tell him? How do I tell my best friend that I've known since year 7 that I'm in love with him? He's straight! This cannot be happening! It will ruin everything!

Dean's pov:

Be true to yourself. Be true to yourself. Those words echoed my mind throughout the day. Then I couldn't stop thinking about Randy's kiss. I should have hated it, been repulsed by it. But I wasn't. I loved it and I wanted more of it. Then it suddenly became clear. All these years I thought that it was impossible for me to get attracted to another man. I was wrong. I was attracted to my best friend! Someone I considered a brother to me. This was so wrong on so many levels! Why was I feeling like this? Was Lauren's passing a sign from the universe to stop hiding who I am and finally come out? I walked out of the school gates to witness Randy standing in the corner. It was clear that he was waiting for me to have this uncomfortable conversation.

Randy's pov:

Ok here goes nothing. This could make and break everything. As he approached me, I could feel my nerves reach a breaking point. I'm not sure how I was gonna deal with this. "I'm sorry about earlier, I don't know what came over me" I apologised sheepishly. He just looked at me for a few moments before grabbing my face. "Have I ever told you how beautiful your eyes are?" he said looking deep into my eyes. Without any warning, his lips crashed into mine sending electric currents throughout my body. I had no idea what was happening but I liked it and I didn't want it to stop. "I love you too Randy" he smiled continuing to kiss me. "WHAT IS GOING ON HERE?!" a voice suddenly came from behind me.

Dean's pov:

I turned to face my mum who had the look of shock and disgust over her face. "Mum will you relax? Me and Randy were just playing truth or dare" I lied trying divert the topic. I glanced over at Randy who had the look of hurt all over his face. "Yeah, it was just a bit of harmless fun" he winked faking a laugh.

Rosa's pov:

"Oh phew! For a second, I thought that my son was gay. Come on Dean. We're gonna be late for your hospital appointment" I said dragging him away.

Dean's pov:

"Sorry" I mouthed over at Randy who had flushed with embarrassment.

Randy's pov:

I entered the house throwing my rucksack to the side then slumped down on the couch. He loved me back. He actually loved me back. I felt like the luckiest man in the world. I knew Dean's mum was the classic conservative Christian so I had to play along. I heard the front door open then a pair of footsteps enter the front room. My brief happy moment melted away when I saw my biological father in front of me. "Randy?" Benny said sheepishly. I got up and left the room. No I was not gonna forgive him or mum for abandoning me! "Randy wait" a voice came behind me.

Jonathan's pov:

He can't keep holding onto this grudge forever. One day he's gonna have to forgive and forget or it'll consume him. "You have to listen to what your father is saying" I pleaded. "NO! What kind parents abandon their son? I don't wanna see that motherfucker here again!" he snapped storming off. I took a deep breath before going back into the living room. Benny was sat on the couch crying. "We really have lost him" he sobbed.

Benny's pov:

I almost lost him a few months ago and I hoped that he would hear me out. But nothing's changed. He still hates my guts and I was running out of strength. A part of me wanted to keep fighting but another just wanted to let him go. He seemed happy with the Mcgregors and maybe I was being selfish trying to take him away from that. Maybe it's time to just let him go and when he's ready, he'll come back to us. "I tried. Thank you for everything you've done" I said getting up. "No, thank you for giving me and Melanie the chance to raise a family. You're more than welcome to call us anytime" he smiled walking me to the door. "Thank you. I'll see you at work tomorrow" I said walking off.

Randy's pov:

He had no right to come here and demand that I hear him out. I heard his pleas for years and his fake apologies. Actions speak louder than words. I mean, why abandon one child then have another? What does that say to me? That I'm nothing but a lost cause! And you might be wondering, why I don't just tell Josie that I'm her brother. Because I want nothing to do with that fucking family! She's nothing more than my friend's girlfriend. That is all she is to me. And I'd like to keep it that way. "Can I come in?" Jonathan said poking his head around. "Not you as well" I moaned burying my head in the pillow. "Maybe it's time you forgave him. He only did it so you wouldn't be brought up in poverty. What if you died a few months ago? Did you want your last words want to be, I hate you dad?" he questioned. "I couldn't care less about him, now leave me alone" I said with my head still buried in the pillow. I heard footsteps walk away then turned on my side curling up in a ball. "Why did you have to give me away?" I croaked before the tears fell out of my eyes.

Benny's pov:

I entered the house to be greeted by Lilly's questionable face. "Well?" she asked. I shook my head. "No change. He wants nothing to do with us" I sighed. Lilly took a deep breath before walking off. There was nothing she wanted more than to have our son back in our lives. I hated seeing her broken in that manner. "Excuse me" she said walking off.

Lilly's pov:

I stood in the garden trying to process everything, my whole body still in shock. I wanted to cry but my eyes were dry from crying. I wanted my son back and I wasn't gonna give up. Not yet. You do your best to give them everything but some decisions stick with you and carry dire consequences. I fet a hand on my shoulder and a few kisses on my neck. "He will come back to us, I promise" Benny said pulling me into a hug. "I hope so" I replied letting a few tears escape. A mother never gives up on her children.

Abraham's pov:

"I'll see you tomorrow" I said giving my wife a kiss. Bless her soul, she was on the night shift tonight. Me and Dean walked out of the hospital and towards the car. "You've been awfully quiet son. I can tell something is on your mind" I said breaking the silence.

Dean's pov:

I didn't know how to tell him but they were gonna eventually find out sooner than later. "Ok, I'll tell you. But you have to promise that you won't get mad" I nervously said. "Why would I get mad?" dad asked. I took a deep breath. "Because I'm bisexual and it goes against our Catholic beliefs" I suddenly said it. There was a long silence. This wasn't good at all. I could feel the lecture coming. "So what?" dad suddenly answered. Well that took me by surprise. "So what? Aren't you gonna like yell at me and tell me that I'm a disgrace to the family?" I asked confused. Dad's face suddenly filled one with laughter. "If I did that, then I'd be judging. And the Lord said, thou shall not judge. He also said treat everyone as you wish to be treated. Son, being a Christian isn't about homosexuality. It's about being a model human. Love, tolerance and respect. I don't care that you're bisexual. In fact, I suspected it all along from when you were young of age. I know this is hard for you admitting your true self but I'm so proud of you" he said pausing to give me a hug. I was not expecting that. I had not expected that at all. He is actually supportive of me. That means a lot coming from my dad. "Do you think mum will be as accepting as you are? I mean, she walked in on me and Randy kissing and I kinda had to say that it was a dare" I sheepishly said. "You and Randy kissed? It's about time! I always knew that you two had a thing for each other" Dad said. "Dad!" I laughed then my mind trailed back to how mum would react. "What about mum" I repeated. Dad took a deep breath. "Your mother is less relaxed than I am on the matter but I'm sure we can change her mind" he said followed by another silence. "Did you enjoy the kiss?" dad teased as I rolled my eyes sarcastically. "I'm not even gonna answer that question. Now can we go home please?" I said trying to change the subject. Dad laughed as he started the engine. "Your wish is my command" he laughed.

A few days later...

Abraham's pov:

A few days had passed since Dean came out to me as bisexual. I would love for his mother to also be accepting but I know deep down that she won't. She has made her feelings about homosexuality very clear to me before. As much as I loved that woman, she is also a stubborn sonofabitch! "Good Lord, why are you watching the pride parade? Turn it off!" Rosa snapped grabbing the remote. "What? It's cute" I said. Rosa gave me the death glare. "Homosexuality is an abomination and they will perish into hell!" she snapped as I watched Dean walk in. "Looks like your bisexual son will go to hell then" he snapped walking off.

To be continued...