Chapter 11

"Hey, you're awake" I frowned as Theo entered.

I smiled hard, "Yup. Aren't you going to school?" I asked and he looked at me as if he couldn't believe my question.

"You expect me to go to school when you're here?" I, on the other hand, could not believe his answer.

What is the connection of my hospitalization with him going to school? I don't want to assume but my guts are telling me that there's more in it.

"Uhh, how long have you been here?" I change the topic.

He walked towards me while pushing the table, he smiled teasingly.

"Shifting topics, isn't it? I was here last night while you are sleeping" my eyes widened when a possibility crossed my mind.

"When? I mean what time?" I continued.

"I think after you get sedated" he's busy mixing my food so I can't see his face.

"Where did you sleep?" I hold tightly to the blanket to relieve the slight cold I was feeling.

I feel myself but there's nothing strange. There was no acceleration of my heartbeat and no excitement.

"On the sofa, I even thanked Auntie when she allowed me to see you and sleep here" he said while focusing on my food.

Would that be possible that it's him?

"Amore?" He, then looked at me and smiled widely.

"Why? Do you remember me now?"

Ohmygoood. Is he really that man? But why do I feel different now than I did last night.

My heart was beating so fast last night that it seemed lost and wanted to get away but now it seems to be sleeping. There was also no excitement and even the butterflies moving in my stomach disappeared.

"When it started?" I asked. I am sure that the person on those vague images I saw in my mind was very important.

"Since third year highschool" he once spooned a spoon into my mouth.

I blew it first before I opened my mouth to take it.

"What happened?" he smiled sadly at me and shook his head.

"We better not go back to those memories, you might get hurt even more and I don't like that thing" he grabbed my hand and kissed it for several times.

I saw the hurt, glowing in his eyes which surprised me. Maybe, maybe I hurt him a lot especially when I don't know him and remember.

"So do you know me and my brother and my cousins?" He nodded and fed me again while holding one of my hands.

He just continued to fed me while silence mediated between us but he was never able to let go of my hand.

I could feel his overflowing joy because even her eyes were smiling.

"I missed it" he whispered as he stared at me intently.

I put my left hand on the chest to feel it but I could not really feel its strong throbbing.

He went near me and I close my eyes as I sense what he's about to do. I felt his lips touched my forehead, eyes, nose, cheeks until it reached my lips.

His lips moved and he sucked my lips causing my lips to twitched a little, he poked it with his tongue as if asking for entrance.

My mind shouting that it was wrong so as my heart and body. But because I found out he was longing and waiting for me for a long time, I went against the wishes of my mind, heart and body.

Bit by bit I am opening my mouth but it halted when we heard the loud banging of the door. I suddenly blushed and was ashamed of whoever saw us.

For heaven sake, Ishi. You are in the hospital and then you kiss torridly.

I covered my face with my hands and Theo chuckled probably he saw my reaction.

"Hey, love" he called and I peeked at him between my fingers.

He removed my hand from the cover and fixed a few strands of my hair that blocked my face.

"I always love your actions. These. These are the things I have missed and missed for the past few years. I do not know where I am going and how I can get up during those distant times and you are not with me"

I wiped the tears from his eyes, my chest suddenly tightened as if sympathizing with him.

How? How can I forget this adorable man?

I pulled him closer and hugged him. He sank his face between my neck and shoulders.

I caressed his back while whispering sweet nothings on his ear. The gown's I am wearing were already soaked in his tears but I don't care, as long as I can comfort him, I will.

Just to fill those years and times where I am not beside him. At times I am rejoicing while he is sad and homesick.

I don't want anyone to be hurt because of me, I prefer to receive all the pain just to save all the people around me from hurting.

"Don't leave me again" he whispered as I nodded.

He cried for a couple of minutes until he calmed down. He laced his fingers with mine then covered it with his another hand.

He smiled after doing that, "You can not get out of my hold" he softly said that made me laughed.

"I will never be lost" his smile faded and he avoided my eyes.

He whispered incoherent words that I couldn't understand but I opted to stay silent, he would probably say that if it was about me.

We talked for the next hours until Clarenz arrived and he shot dagger looks to Theo as if he wants to wring its neck.

I could feel the tension rising so I grabbed Clarenz's attention by calling him.

"Clarenz" he quickly changed his mood and immediately approached me.

He hugged me tightly, "How are you 'lil sis?"

I scrunched my nose when I smelled him, I pushed him softly then I covered my nose.

"You stench" I replied and my eyes almost popped out of its socket when he hold Theo by his collar.

"You idiot! What did you do to my sister?!" He asked while gritting his jaw.

I feel like he's about to burst out.

"Hey! What are you doing?! Let him go" he let go of him in vain and he punched the wall hard, he leaned on it and he looked at me as if he was disappointed.

"Since when?" Theo and I looked at each other without knowing what he was referring to.

"You know what, you have to wash first. You smell like a liquor. You smell bad. Yucckkk" he shook his head after he turned his backbehind me and whispering softly.

"So, he's here. I need to go, maybe your brother will just hit me suddenly when he catches me here when he comes back" he said goodbye and kissed me on the forehead and even on the lips.

"I love you" he smiled at me again before turning around and did not wait for my answer.

I tried to get out of my mind the pressing idea that he was not that man. He is because if it weren't for it, Mommy wouldn't have allowed him here.