Moon

"Mind to tell me what the hell just happened?" Eli nudge me on my shoulder while we're eating our lunch. I came back to my senses because of that.

"What?" I asked. Eli rolled her eyes at me before pushing her tray and giving her full attention to me. I sighed.

"What happened to Mr. Mysterious guy? Why did he walked out? Did you pissed him off?"

I shook my head as a response. Eli didn't take the hint that I don't want to talk about it, instead, she keeps on sticking her nose at me.

"Tss. I thought it helped leaving you with him. I know that he's your crush."

My brows furrowed with what she said. I craned my neck on the other side and glared at her.

"You set me up." I accused her. Eli was taken aback by my accusation. She blinked twice before shrugging her head at me.

"Ofcourse not! I am meant to be with Jason. I don't care who'll be your partner bitch." she said nervous. I grimace.

"Whatever."

"But he's your crush." she said following me when I stood up. I shook my head.

"I never told you that."

Eli groaned at frustration and then she cling her arms at me to stop me from walking.

"But I saw the way you look at him on the hallway."

My lips parted. I looked away from Eli before sighing. It's not the way I looked at Adam that time, it is the way he looked at me that made me stare back with the same intensity. And we shouldn't forget about the dream I had including him. It was so strange for me to actually believe that I saw Adam first in my dreams before I even know him.

"I don't know him." I answered Eli and shrugged her away. I don't feel guilty though. Jason came across me and went to Eli. I heard Eli's giggles and I can say that she's not offended with what I did. Not that I meant it to be that way though.

I did not see Adam the whole day after that. It's still a mystery to me what just happened awhile ago. The heat I felt in my hand when I touched him, his dark brown eyes flickering, his intense stares and hard breathing. It's like any moment he'll attack me like an animal. I literally felt my whole body shaking with that.

And then the paper being burnt. How the hell did it turn into ashes without fire? Was it because of our skins touching? That's damn ridiculous and impossible.

But then, it happened.

I sighed as I throw myself at my bed when I got home. I just want to just sleep the whole entire week to brush off all the weirdness that happened to me in the past few weeks. I've been deprived by peace of mind lately and I badly need it right now.

Eventually, I fell asleep. I woke up because of hunger. I sat in my bed as I try to remember if I had dreamed or not. And just like the past few nights, I haven't.

I haven't seen him since the last time. The last memory of him in my dream is when I saw him turned into a werewolf. I looked forward to see him again after that. I want to ask him why did he just transformed. I want to find answers from him since I cannot find answers here. But then it did not came. He did not show up again.

And I wonder if I will ever see him again.

I shrugged my head and I stood up. I made my way downstairs to find some food in the fridge. There's a leftover pizza but I don't feel eating that one. I tried to look for an ice cream but there's none. I sighed and grab a pitcher of water and made a glass for myself. After that I ran up to the stairs and grab my wallet and hoodie.

I'm at my panjamas already but I am really craving for ice cream. I need it to comfort me during this lonely night without seeing him.

Funny how I made it until I'm eighteen without a guy visiting in my dreams and I feel normal, but now, without him showing up after weeks of visiting me feels strange... lonely.

I peek at Mamita's room to say I am leaving for minutes but then, she's sleeping soundly so I did not bother to disturb her.

I was hugging myself while I make my way on the near convenience store. I admire the night because it gives me calmness. The silence is what comforted me while I walk alone in the dark.

I was greeted by a fat and cute counter guy when I entered the store. I smiled and salute him before I head to get myself an ice cream.

"Hey Billy." I greeted the fat cute guy. Billy smiled at me.

"Craving for comfort food?" he asked while I am paying him. I nod subtly.

"And hungry too."

"This won't make you full." his eyebrows furrowed but I only chuckled.

"This is enough." I said and raised the plastic bag containing my ice cream before I wave my hand at him.

"You going home alone?"

I shrugged my shoulders.

"I guess?" I said sounded unsure. I mean I got here alone, so I'll probably go home alone too.

"It's dark and dangerous." he said. I smiled cutely at Billy.

"Oh thanks for the concern but I can handle myself." I said showing him the pepper spray that he gave me on my birthday. Billy chuckled and I salute him.

The wind blown my hair and I hugged myself even more. I don't want to go home yet.

I walked in the near park on our village, ice cream is still on my hand. I was lost in the silence and coldness that I almost flinched when I heard something moving in the grass.

My heart skipped and I almost drop my ice cream. I tightened my hold on it. Maybe it's just a wind. But then, I saw shadows, ang it's moving.

I walked, slowly, careful of not making any sounds. And then I heard footsteps. I ducked and hid myself behind the plants. It's impossible that there's still children playing in this park at this hour of the night.

The footsteps came nearer and I hold the pepper spray in my hand. I almost stopped breathing because of nervousness and anticipation. I see movements in my right and I was ready to attack him with my pepper spray if I didn't recognize him.

"What are you doing?"

"Shit." I cursed at myself.

I was breathing heavily as I try not to glare at Adam. I almost had my heart attack because of him!

"You startled me." I said. Adam only looked at me while arching his brows. I swallowed hard and looked away.

"Why are you here?" I managed to asked him that. Adam put both of his hands on his pockets and stood up straight, towering me.

"Am I not allowed?" he asked sarcastically. I blinked.

"I did not say that." I said. I found a bench near us and I walked towards it. I sat down and I heard him following me. The bench is too big for me but it looks to small for him.

He leave a space between us, and I suddenly remembered what just happened awhile ago.

"What are you doing here?" he asked the same question. I shrugged my head and open my ice cream.

"Am I not allowed?" I asked mocking him. He did not answer so I stopped opening my ice cream. I took a glance of him and he's only looking at me, eyebrows furrowed.

Damn it.

"I... I just bought this." I explained and I cursed myself inside my mind for stuttering. Damn it.

We both stayed in silence after that. I started enjoying my ice cream when I looked up to the sky. The night sky was filled with stars. It's so beautiful and amazing, but it's incomplete.

The moon is missing.

"Have you ever felt the feeling of missing the moon when it's not showing up at night?" I asked absentmindedly. I did not bother to look at him, instead I focus my eyes at the sky, hoping that as the clouds move, the moon will finally show up.

"What do you mean?" he asked and I wasn't surprised that he doesn't get what I mean. I smiled to myself and just shrugged my head before digging the spoon in my ice cream.

I did not answer him.

"Have you?"

I was stunned when he asked me back. I took a glance of him but he's looking at the night sky too. I chew my lip and looked up too.

"Sometimes, I miss the moon, but most of the time I miss him."

I miss him when it's not full moon and he's not showing up in my dreams. I miss him when I'm awake. I miss him when I need to wake up from my dreams. And now I'm missing him even more because there's a big chance that I might not see him again.

I swallowed hard. I find it ridiculous why I feel like tearing up now.

He's just a dream Luna. He's not your reality so why are you acting so damn stupid right now?

"Who?" he asked. I looked at him and I can clearly see his jaw clenching. His eyes are piercing me but I have no time to be feared by it. After all, he made feel at peace somehow.

Instead of answering, I just shrugged my head. He won't believe it if I tell it anyway.

I sighed and decided to change the topic.

"About what happened awhile ago---"

"Have you ever been inlove?" he asked cutting me off. I stiffened.

I don't know if he just don't want to talked about what happened earlier or he's really curious about what I have said, or maybe both. I barely know this guy, but then I still answered him.

"Yes." I breathed. Adam's eyes never leave my eyes. I smiled to myself and stared at the sky.

"You can laugh at me but yes, I've been in love."

"There's nothing funny in falling in love."

"Not when he's just a dream." I said. He remain silent. I chuckled at myself.

"I find it ridiculous because he's just a dream. I barely remember his face but almost every night, I can feel the realness of his touch, of his kisses. Yet again, he's just a dream." I said, almost convincing myself.

"Luna..." he called me but I didn't listen. He can judge me. I don't care anyway.

"He feels like moon. He's mysterious. But I adore the moon, just like how I admire him---" I did not finish my sentence because Adam already stood up. I was stunned by his sudden move.

His back is facing me but I can see how he struggle to breathe normally. His hands are balled into fist like he's controlling himself from something... or maybe from me.

I also stood up but he already stepped forward. I parted my lips.

"I don't like the moon." he said almost a whisper. My heart hurt for no reason. I swallowed hard, nod even though he can't see it and then I looked away. I also turned my back at him. Now, our backs are facing each other.

"Okay." I said, my voice almost cracked. I heave a deep sigh and started stepping forward when he speak again.

"Because I love it. More than I'm allowed to love her." he said and my eyes widened.

When I looked back to see him, he was already gone in the dark. And for no apparent reason, I broke down crying.