Chapter 14

*Edward's POV*

I made a bold move to kiss Shayna on the cheek and whispered to her ear. As I'm leaving, I looked at her eyes, remembering the shade of her eyes. The mix of hazel and green of her eyes makes me want to look at her more and more, it will never bore me out. I controlled my breathing as I am standing close to her, fighting the urge to hold her and the fact that I've to leave at the moment.

Then, I left. I clenched my fist as I thought 'Why dad? Why do you've to ruin my moment??, ugh'

I walked to my car while reaching for the car key inside my pocket. I saw my mum waiting for me, I unlocked my car and said "Let's go and get over this now" 

She sighed as she went inside my car. I went in the car and drove straight away to the airport. On our way to the airport, my mum glanced at me "Eddie, I know that you're upset. I can sense it, sweetheart, but please don't make a scene with your father, okay?"

My breathing went hard, I gripped the steering wheel hard. "Upset? No, mum. I'm pissed at him! HE WASN'T THERE AT HIS SON'S GRADUATION AND NOW WHAT? I BECOME HIS FREAKING DRIVER?!" I snapped, coldly

My mum flinched at the tone of my voice. It made me feel guilty, I shouldn't scream at her. This is her husband's fault, not her's. I calmed my self for a minute then grabbed my mum's hand. "I'm sorry mum, I love you. I didn't mean to scream at you. Your husband just killing me sometimes"

She weakly smiled and put her other hand on top of mine. "I know, son. He's your father after all. Give him the chance."

I sighed and put on a faked smile. After nearly an hour of driving, we arrived at the airport. I went out of my car, I saw my mum smiling, hugging and kissing my father. My gaze went hard on his gaze. I walked towards my parents while both of my hands are in my pockets.

My dad looked at me then to my mum "Shall we go now? I can't wait to get home." My mum smiled and grabbed my hand on her left's and my dad's on her right's. "We shall," she said

I knew my mum would do anything to make sure I and my dad get along very well especially around her. When I said 'anything', I meant like everything including her acting like a teenager even though she's in her mid 40's.

I sighed and grabbed my dad luggage from his hand and put it on the back of my car trunk. As I was grabbing his luggage, he looked at me and said "I'm sorry, I know I'm late, son". I lost my breath for a split second and said coldly "Not now, dad"

I noticed guilt in his eyes, but I refused to acknowledge it. I went to the driver seat after I sorts of his luggage. My dad was seated next to me meanwhile my mum was seated at the back seat. I breathe sharply, trying to control my rage. I drove us away from the airport to our house. For the entire ride, I kept my grip on the steering wheel hard. Then, I heard my parents talking about my dad's new project for the company. I didn't listen much on what they were talking, I was focusing to get home quick before I lose control of myself. 

As soon as we arrived home, I grabbed my dad's luggage from the trunk and put it in the living room. I unclipped the buttons of my shirt on my neck and wrists, I was about to go to my room then I stopped on my track when I heard my mum called my name and said: " Ed, I'm making hot cocoa for your dad, do you want some, honey?"

I turned to her direction and weakly smiled at her "No thank you, I'm tired. I'm just going to take a shower then go to bed, mum"

My mum nodded and smiled. 

Her intentions are always genuine. As much as I'm mad at my dad, I'm trying my best to keep it together for my mum's sake. After I'm done with my very long shower, I got a text from Caleb saying "Where are you, man? Shay said you have a family emergency. The party was just getting started" 

I sighed then replied, " My dad just got home, I had to pick him up at the airport."

As soon as the text said 'seen', Caleb called me "Are you okay, Ed?"

I massaged my temple and said on the phone "I don't know, Cal. I'm pissed at him, he said he would get home a day before my graduation. But, he shows up late then god, he ruined my night that was just turning good without him, man"

"How long is he staying here this time?"

I sighed and sat on my bed "I don't care and I don't want to know anymore, Cal" 

I heard him sigh on the other side "You do care, Ed and you do want to know. I know you, man. Even though you said you hate him but you still care for him. He's your father after all" 

I clenched my fist "I know that, Cal. That makes me even angrier with him"

"Changing the topic. So, I saw you and Shay at the party just now. What's up between you two?" He said, sheepishly 

I don't know why but the thought I Shayna made me smile. I chuckled "We were just catching up with each other, Cal."

"Yeah right, 'catching up' as if. I saw your gaze on her, Ed. I know that gaze because that was exactly my gaze when I laid my eyes on Shasha, man."

"So what's wrong having that gaze? She's a beautiful girl and I'm a man, Cal. Every man would have that gaze whenever they see beautiful ones" I defences myself.

Caleb chuckled on the phone "whatever you say, Ed. But, just so you know that bro knows his bro, mate"

"Right, I'm going to bed now. Talk tomorrow, Cal "

"Yeah," Caleb said then hung up on me.

I laid down on the bed, staring at the ceiling. Shayna's features came across my mind. When I leaned in to kiss her, I never felt that much of my desires wanting to kiss her. I remembered her starting at me when I first walked into Mrs Lewis's class. I chuckled remembering when I heard Shasha jokingly asked Shayna to just take a picture of me. 

I crept a smile on my face when I saw her blushing. I've kissed multiple girls back in Scotland but it meant nothing. I never really focused on my love life. When I heard Shayna has a boyfriend, Luke. I felt a pang of disappointment in me. But, when he died. I don't felt relieved either. I knew she's going to be different.

I know Shayna doesn't know this but I did saw her a couple of times after Luke died. Her face doesn't light up the same way, her smile was just a facade of her pain. And I want to change that.

'What have you done to me, Shayna Asher'