Keep shut

"It's never wrong

if it feels right"

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Crystal:

After the incident from this morning, my stomach had been churning and twisting the whole day Leo and Jackie took me around town. I couldn't concentrate or enjoy anything at all as I played back the events over and over again in my head.

What was I thinking? Why did I kiss back?

These were the thoughts that clouded my mind the entire day. Mostly completely oblivious to the world around me that the two friends would often catch me in a daze or in deep thoughts.

"Are you sure you're ok little gem?" Leonardo says looking at me through the rare view mirror. That's what he's been calling me the whole day and I wasn't sure to feel about it. Especially when it was clear that he was trying to flirt with me. Don't get me wrong, he was a very good looking guy. Friendly too but.. I'm simply just unfazed by anything he does.

Imagine a cow with flies. They barely get fazed by the tiny insects attacking their faces and that's just me with Leo. It's only when things get too much that I actually acknowledge him.

"I'm fine... Just-" I'm cut off when I hear a beep from my phone. I unlock it to see it's a message from my dear cousin. It seems she sent me a picture. Tapping on the notification, it takes me directly to the picture she sent. And that makes my stomach drop. My heart squeezing in my chest.

It was a selfie of Hunter and her inside his car. His lips pressed firmly on her neck with his eyes closed while she had a bright smile on her face as she stared at the camera.

-"best date ever! Tell you all about it when I get home!" Her text read.

I shouldn't feel this way, I should be happy they're actually finding time to spend together. But I couldn't help but feel... Used? He'd just kissed me hours ago. And here he is kissing her now.

There's a sad pout on my lips as I stuff my phone into my bag suddenly feeling dead inside.

"Crystal?" Jackie says catching my attention. I raise my gaze up to look at her worried face.

"Can you please take me home? I don't want to go to the park anymore" I mumble lowly as she furrows her thick dark brows.

"Are you sure?" Leo calls out glancing at me through the rare view mirror and I nod.

"Yeah.."

The two don't question me any further. Silent as they set the course for Sakura's home.

They drop me off shortly after and I bid them a lazy goodbye before walking into the house.

Like a sad sloth, I make my way upstairs to my room. Thanking God that I didn't bump into my uncle or his soon to be wife on the way because I really didn't want anyone to see me like this.

Getting into my room, I close the door behind me. Proceeding to throw myself onto my bed like a rag doll. I curl up into a ball, a pout still on my lips as I try not to think of everything that just happened today. Or everything that happened this whole trip for that matter.

Hunter was really turning this holiday upside down. I wanted to have fun. I wanted this to be the best vacation yet as I was finally getting to explore Japan. But I guess the universe had other plans.

I don't know how long I've been on the bed residing in my solitude when my door barges open. Obviously revealing the only person who ever walks in without knocking. Sakura.

"Oh Crystal! I'm so so happy right now! Today has been the best I wish it'd never end!" She sings, twirling around in the room as I sit up with a scowl staring at the dazed blonde. I'd never seen her dance around like that. Not even the day she came to our place in New York for Christmas and her father decided to surprise her with a car as a gift.

I guess Hunter has a bigger effect on her than I thought. Too bad he was just a lying cheating prick.

"How was everything?" I manage to ask out, trying not to sound annoyed and let my jealousy show.

"It was amazing Crystal. Simply amazing. I'd like to tell you all about it but everyone's downstairs waiting for us to come down for dinner" Sakura grabs my hand dragging me out the door and down the stairs. I follow dazed behind her.

Sakura finally let's go of my wrist taking a seat next to Hunter at the table.

Wait Hunter?

There he was. The smug bastard sitting there as if he owned the place. He doesn't even spare me a glance as I sit next to Yui. Also opposite him.

"Ah, Crystal. How was your day?" My uncle asks as Yui serves some of the pasta onto my plate.

"Thank you" I mumble giving a small smile which she returns with a grin, "it was okay" I look towards Sakura's father giving him the answer to the question he'd asked me. He nods smiling eating his food before turning to the two love birds right across.

I make sure to keep my head down.

"So Hunter. I haven't seen you in a long time. How is everything? How's work?" Sakura's dad asks the scumbag and I almost roll my eyes by how he chuckles and answers confidently.

"I'm fine. Everything's good. But work has been tough these days. And it also doesn't help when you have a beautiful distraction" he says the last part slowly and I couldn't help but glare up at him. He was already staring at me with a suggestive look on his face. My eyes narrow.

Sakura seems to think he was talking about her because she giggles like a school girl smacking his upper arm, "oh shut up. You should have told me I've been distracting you from your work lately.

I could've stayed away until everything was stable" my blonde cousin giggles out, stuffing her mouth with pasta.

I keep my head down again silently eating my food but I could still feel his gaze on me. Ignore it.

"Workaholic.." Sakura teases him further making him chuckle.

"At least he has a job" a voice says beside me and I'm actually surprised that it was Yui that said that, "I mean... You're turning twenty two next year. Don't you think it's time to... You know. Start earning your own cash instead of being daddy's girl?" She continues with a sweet voice as my jaw drops.

Say what now?

Sakura also has her jaw dropped as she stares at her soon to be stepmother with narrowed eyes. She was angry.

"What is that supposed to mean?" Sakura asks keeping her chopsticks aside folding her arms.

"I... Just explained what I meant already. Unless you're really slow" Yui chuckles glancing at my uncle and he chuckles along with her. Sharing the humor of her so called joke. My jaw drops further.

Sakura looks to her dad with a frown, "you're supporting her dad? She just called me slow!"

"Oh please honey. Yui was just Joking around, right sweetheart?" He asks as said person shrugs nodding. I could only stare at him with squinted eyes, suddenly realising what Sakura meant by her dad changing.

"You're not mad already are you? You've always had a very bad temper" Yui comments smiling as Sakura slams her hands on the table standing up.

"I'll show you a bad temper bitch!" She suddenly yells catching everyone off guard. Yui even starts to choke on her food as uncle Gray rushes to her side. He helps her drink some water to calm the coughs down before glaring at his daughter.

"Look what you did!" He snaps angrily.

"Me?! She's the one that-"

"Keep shut and go to your room. And when you're ready to apologise, you know where to find us" Sakura stares at her father with glassy eyes. Breathing heavily as she clenched her fists. Slowly, she moves away from the table before running up the stairs to her room. Hunter going up behind her. Uncle Gray doesn't even spare her a glance as he was solely focused on his lover. Helping her to stand up before leading her up the stairs also.

Ok, I guess I'm on cleaning duty today.

I take the dirty dishes one by one to the kitchen and start washing them humming a soft tune.

It takes me a while, as the food hadn't really been touched that much, but I get it done. I was busy stacking the dried plates in the drawers when I hear footsteps walking into the kitchen. I turn to find non other than Hunter, leant up against the wall with his arms folded.

His eyes look me up and down, taking in the outfit I'd worn the whole day and I couldn't help but squirm in discomfort under his gaze. I could literally feel his eyes crawling up and down my body.

Not really in the mood to talk to him, I start cleaning the sink and counter too to rid it of any water droplets or stains. Goosebumps rise on my skin when I feel his footsteps come closer behind me. I still try to ignore him.

My body tenses when he wraps his arms around my waist, placing his chin on my shoulder. My hands freeze, unable to do anything else besides stand there like a statue.

"What is it about you?" He whispers against my neck, causing more goosebumps to spread all through my body. He's so close..

"Why am I so attracted to you? Hmm?" He asks and I was getting confused whether he was asking me or himself. But I answer anyway.

"I should be asking you that question Hunter. Why do you do these things to me when you're dating someone who's even prettier than I am?" I whisper back and he chuckles in my neck. His warm breath hitting my skin making pleasurable shivers go down my spine.

"Please let me go" I request, body still unmoving. Of course he ignores what I just said as he tighten his thick arms around me.

"Never.." he rasps out and I close my eyes, sighing in defeat. We stand there in the kitchen for a while. Me feeling awkward and him obviously feeding on my awkwardness. It's weird that this morning I was acting all badass on him and now I can't even look him in the eye.

"Please go up to Sakura. She needs you right now" my hands grip his arms on my waist trying to pry them off me. Of course he doesn't let go.

"You'll get us caught if you don't let go. We're in the house for goodness sake!" I try prying his arms again off me but he still doesn't budge.

Suddenly, he turns me around to face him. Putting his hand on either side of me on the counter top trapping me as he keeps his face just inches from mine. My eyes drop down to his lips, unconscious licking mine when I remember the kiss we shared this morning. I wanted more.

Slowly, he places his lips firmly against mine. Once again stealing my breath away for the second time that day. Butterflies and sparks bursts between us as we engage on this unavoidable sin. Feeding the demons within us. Hunter growls, putting his hand at the back of my neck to keep me in place, also deepening the kiss as his tongue plunges into my mouth. My hands grip his jacket tightly, unconsciously pulling him closer as I couldn't get enough of him.

I knew this was wrong. This was so so wrong but I couldn't help the attraction I felt for him. When I said this was going to be the best vacation ever, I didn't have this in mind at all. I didn't think I'd meet and feel for someone like Hunter and I had mixed feelings about it.

Hunter is the only person that's ever made me feel this alive. Never my past crushes or boyfriends. But then at the same time he belonged to someone else. That someone being my cousin and here I am making out with him despite the circumstances. Was I turning into a bad person?

Minutes pass before he finally pulls away. Adrenaline pumping in my veins at the fear of being caught and also being kissed like that by Hunter. I was panting by the time he pulled away, trying to catch my breath as he had stolen it immediately he initiated the kiss.

"This is wrong Hunter... We're both betraying Sa-"

"Sshhh..." He cuts me off placing his finger on my lips. I blink up at him innocently wondering why he shut me up.

"It's never wrong..." He trails off kissing the corner of my lips, "if it feels right".

My brain proceeds to digest what he just said. Suddenly realising that despite the guilt of my actions, nothing has ever felt so right. It really did.

I really was becoming a bad person.

Hunter smirks when I don't protest any further, placing his thumb on my swollen lower lip to draw it down.

"So keep shut"