Chapter 3

I knocked 3 times to the office of my father here in the house, He didn’t answer so I slightly opened it.

“I told you! We are going to fix it after my wife gives birth to my daughter!” my father shouted.

I looked at him and I saw that he is talking to someone over the phone.

He is not facing my direction so he couldn’t see me.

“Can you just wait for a more time?! My first born child doesn’t have to deal with this!” he shouted again.

First born? Is he referring to me?

“I know that the company is already loosing so stop meddling with it! I can’t find that culprit!”

He faced my direction so I immediately shut the door close. I held my chest and clam myself.

He almost sees me.

What if he did?

And what does he mean that the company is loosing?

***

“Where have you been Terra?” Nanny Mena asked me when she saw me sitting at the garden, until now I’m still thinking of what I heard.

“Nothing Nanny.” I answered without looking at her.

“Your mother is looking for you, she wants to see you at her room.” She said and seat beside me.

“My mother is dead Nanny.” I joked

“Terra, I’m pertaining to Anaida.” She answered

“I know Nanny, I’m just kidding… I’m going there later.” I said and took a bit of the cookies I’m eating.

Mama Anaida is now 5 months pregnant.

To the past months, she did nothing but to stay here in the house.

I am now in the vacation because I just finished being a grade 9 students. I finished this school year without experiencing different events in school. No socializing, no gatherings, no activities, no field trip and no recognition.

Yes, I didn’t attend my recognition because my father said so.

The teachers just brought to me my medals and my certificate as a first honor student.

“She want you there now.” Nanny spoke again

“Nanny, is the company still okay?” I asked her out of nowhere.

“Of course yes! Why are you asking something like that?” she asked back

“Nothing.” I answered

I stood up and wave goodbye to Nanny Mena and go to the room of my stepmother. But before that, I placed the plate and the glass first at our kitchen.

“Mama?” I asked when I entered the room.

I didn’t saw her in the bed.

“Sweetie I’m here at the office room!” she shouted and I go there.

The master’s bedroom is connected to the office of my father. The place where I have been earlier.

“Sit down Terra.” My father commanded

He is now looking at me seriously while my stepmother is smiling at his back.

“What is it dad?” I asked

“School year 2016-2017 will start next month right? June?” he asked and I nodded.

“Great. Nanny Mena enrolled you already and you are going to take home schooling.” He said and my eyes widened

“Home schooling?!” I exclaimed

“Dad! I don’t want to take home schooling!” I shouted

“You can’t do anything about it. We already in formed the school and its already processed. We are just going to wait until the class starts.” He said

“Dad…” I called him

“Get out Terra, I’m busy right now.” He said and massaged his forehead.

My step mother behind him massaged his neck.

Without any choice, I go out of the room and locked myself at my own room.

All my life I’ve been controlled! When am I going to experience the word “FREEDOM”?

2 months passed

"Terra! look what you've done?!!" my father shouted at me.

If you will ask what is the reason?

I accidentally bumped at my step mother. I swear I didn't mean it!!

She is now seven months pregnant.

2 months had passed since the day that they said that I’m going to take home schooling, and it’s real.

The school year already started last month and now July 15,2016 is the worst day of my life.

At this time, I am done with my online class that's why I am walking at our garden while checking my phone until I accidentally bumped at mama.

And now…here in front of me is father while scolding me. I tried to explain it to him but he won't listen.

Especially now that mama is aching her tummy.

I am already used to that. Starting when he married her.. he doesn't listen to me, he thinks that I am just making ways for him to notice me.

I admit it; I want him to notice me because I am his daughter. But, since the day he got married… everything had changed.

He will just talking to me when we were at the dining table or when we are outside.

He can’t even ask me if I'm doing fine at school? If there's anything that I want?

He doesn't look like a father to me now. I felt like his treating me like an adopted child and his work is only to provide my meals, house and some school stuffs.

"What if something happens to my daughter?!" He said.

His daughter…great! it will be my fault if something happened to HIS DAUGHTER.

"Okay. I’m sorry dad I didn't mean it!" I already raise my voice but he is still busy checking if my stepmom is alright.

"AHHHH!! IT REALLY HURTS!!" My stepmom shouted.

She is now leaning at my father while she is crying..

My father is trying to calm her, but it’s too late because there is already water flowing down on her.

My father is now shouting at our helpers. While me… I am still shocked.

Is this my fault?

Does father will get mad at me?

Our driver came and they place mama at the backseat of the car.

The car run so fast until I can't see it from our house.

I am ready to go inside the house but Nanny Mena stopped me.

"Terra, come with me to the hospital" she said while leading the way to Uncle Elvis .

I placed myself at the backseat. I am not in the mood to talk because of what happened.

Am I going to be blamed because of this?

I sigh heavily.

That's what I'm doing until we reached the hospital.

I am nervously walking at the corridor of the hospital with Nanny Mena in front of me.

At the 2nd floor of the hospital, I found myself at the front of a door. Nanny Mena opened the door but I refused to go with her inside..

I want to gain more confidence before I face my father. I also practice my SORRY SPEECH for them

When I am sure about what am I going to do and to say.

I held the door knob and sigh heavily for the last time before I finally open the door.

I step inside and start speaking.

"daddy, I’m so so-"

A strong slap broke what I was about to say, I felt numb after that.

I saw Nanny Mena covering her mouth. She looks like she is so shocked.

Who wouldn't right? All my life my father never laid a hand on me. Just now, just this one.

"Don't you dare going to her Mena!"

Nanny Mena tried to come to me but daddy shouted at her.

"You kid! What are you doing here!!" I stepped back when dad shouted at me again.

My eyes are now watering,

"Look what you've done!" he pointed mama sleeping at the bed.

Her tummy is now small…I think she give birth already.

She looks so tired..

"YOU! YOU ARE THE REASON WHY MY DAUGHTER IS AT THE INCUBATOR RIGHT NOW!"

My tears are now falling. I knew I'll be the one who will be blamed here…

I cry like a baby, sobbing really hard expecting someone to save me.

But, none… I have no one on my side now so all I can do is to cry in front of my father..

I wish mommy is here...I hope I found my guardian angel so that I can also have a defender.

My father pointed me.

"YOU! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU!" he shouted again. He shouted to me really loud. He shouted like there

is no tomorrow…he shouted as if he intentionally said it, like he really mean it.

I continue crying, looking down while still holding my face. It still hurt but my heart is much in pain now because of what daddy said.

"Get out." he said in a powerful voice.

I didn't listen to him.. I am still looking at the ground trying to erase at my mind what he said.

"Get. Out." he repeated.

This time, I look at my father, begging to take back what he said. I am willing to do anything, I will take care of

mama, even my sister, I will take care of them.

But it looks like my father has made his decision.

He held my shoulders and face me at the door. Daddy pushed me outside like he really wanted me to go.

"I don't want to see you again." He said in finality and closed the door.

I heard a noise from my father inside, it looks like mama is awaked now. I didn't go and still wait there from outside the door…Dad is now laughing , he is really happy…while me? I am here alone at the front of the door,

crying, praying that father will go out again and look for me.

It took me a hours waiting here but it seems like they are not going outside, I stand up help myself not to fall down because I am really tired and helpless right now.

I walk at the corridor while still crying, before I step at the stair. I looked at the door of the room before I go down.

I continue walking until I reached the outside of the hospital.

I walk and walk and walk and walk with no direction. It dark now and I am really far away from the hospital. I haven't eaten since I got there, so I am really hungry now.

At the other side of the road, I saw a open food stall with no customers. I am now at the middle passing the road until a flash of light hit my face. I look at the other side and I saw a car towards to me.

I try to run but I feel so weak, I stumbled and felt that my head hurts, even the side part of my body hurts.

I saw a light.. I saw a female figure…she looks like my mom. I smile and think that this will be the last day of my life.

I closed my eyes and everything…turns black..