Louise

A seven year old learned that the sun was getting bigger and would become a super nova one day. They learned that the could explode and no one would no for seven minutes and thought...

If I died how long would it take others to find out. If I was never born would people's lives be better or worse. I don't want to wait for the sun to explode, I would rather lull myself before it can get to me.

Does anyone actually want me here? I bet they don't. I wonder if I jumped of a building, and was killed would people continue to walk on me.

"Lou are you ok?" I looked up to see my mom looking at me with a frown. "Never better." I gave her a soft smile and went back to eating breakfast. "So I thought that it would be nice if we went to the salon after school today?" I looked at my mom and scowled. "You very well know I don't enjoy going to the spa, or mall." She sighed and placed her cup of coffee down. "Your still a girl, girls should be proud of being pretty! When your done dressing like a boy we can do more fun stuff together."

I told my mother that I didn't feel like a girl, I haven't for two years. She said it is a simple faze. Yes a two year faze.

My friends are nicer and call me Louise and use he/him pronouns. My teachers found out about my nickname and while some tried using that as my name others made sure to say "Mrs." Before talking to me. I will let my mother deal with her grief of having a disappointment for a child but only for so long. One day she has to except I am trans.

My Dad just ignores me, he says that people like that are clueless brainless people. My parents might never cal me Louise or son but that doesn't mean the world has to do the same.