One of the past

.......... Ezriel's Point of View.

I immediately get my phone on the table and dialed Fernand's number. It took him 1 minutes before, to finally answered my call.

[" Yeah?"]

" Fernand, come here in my house right now. I don't know what happened. But Khiella suddenly got really upset. I don't know what suddenly she ups to."

I told him then didn't get a response. He just immediately end up the call. I turned to Khiella again and stepped closer towards her. She's still crying and I don't know why.

" Hey Khiella, what's the matter with you? "

I calmly said. But still didn't get a response from her.

"Por favor no ... ¿Cómo-cómo pudiste hacerme esto?"

"El mal sigue siendo un mal. Este mundo está lleno de esos".

Translation: [" Please don't.... How-how could you do this to me?"]

[" Evil still an evil. This world has full of those."]

" Arrghhhhhhh!!!!!!"

I don't get what she's saying. Also I was shocked when suddenly she shouted.

After an hour, Fernand finally arrived. I immediately go downstairs and opened the gate for him. And we both went in to my house and go to the bedroom.

" What happened Ezriel?"

He asked when we got to room and went in.

"I don't know. She suddenly been like that. I just got finished half bath, I came out of the bathroom. She just turned to me then suddenly she's like that"

I don't know how to say and explain it in clarity. But maybe I think he already got what I'm saying.

Fernand went towards Khiella then sat down infront of her.

"Khiella"

He called and she turned to him. And I didn't expect her to hug Fernand tightly because of fear. And it hurts seeing the person you like hugging someone else.

I have been hiding my feelings and I can't just tell her what I have feel for her. I'm afraid she will reject me.

I'm afraid that if I confess, she will leave me.

I turned my back and went downstairs to get a water for Khiella. I stayed in the kitchen for a couple of minutes. I don't know why do I feel this. But I can't just ignore what I have feel for her, she's really special and really mean to me. It should be me whom she's hugging, because I want to be her comfort zone when she's sad or got hurt.

I poured the water in a glass. Then came back after.

I caught him talking to her, but Khiella was still not getting along.

"What happened?"

He asked here, but she just bowed. She did not speak immediately but also said why she reacted like that.

"They're bad Fernand, they don't have hearts and souls"

Khiella told him. Fernand looked at where I was and then turned his gaze again to the person he was talking to.

"Why, who are they? Can you tell me ?. I can be trusted."

He said here and then gave a smile. a minute passed before Khiella spoke again and said what else she wanted to say.

"I tried to beg and fight to stop them from doing things that were not fair. It was so dark there, I didn't want to go back to that place we have no freedom, we are all slaves of darkness"

As she says. The two of us just stared at her as it speaks. I don't understand anything but I only know one thing. She has a bad past to be like this. to cause the presence of trauma.

Fernand and I looked at each other again. I knelt down to match Khiella's gaze. I carefully grabbed her hand and stared her in the eye. fortunately now it's not like before that she hardly recognizes me, as if she sees me as someone else.

"Khiella, are you okay?"

I asked here but it just stared at me.

"They hurt me. They have no heart and soul. He has forsaken me too, he has rejected me because I am one of those in darkness. He doesn't care about me "

I don't know what she's referring to or who she's referring to.

"Who is 'he' who doesn't care about you and leaves you?"

"What are you feeling ?.what happened,? Can you tell me or to the two of us? "

We calmly told her.

"The one above has abandoned me. He doesn't love me, he's not a really good Father. Because he also has favoritism."

She said and cried again. It bowed and cried. Fernand and I looked at each other again. Because we have a guess as to who she is referring to who has abandoned her. It could be her Father or God.

"Khiella, Everything will be done in the Lord's way, jutst always have faith and trust him."

When I said that, she lifted up her face again and looked at me badly.

"If your father has done something wrong to you, you must still forgive him, just as God forgives our sins."

I explain to her. She shook her head and then Khiella stared at us in tears before turning her gaze to the window.

"I don't know how to forgive"

I just sigh heavily.

"Is he really good?"

Khiella asked us. Now we know who 'he', 'Father' and 'above' she is referring to. This is the Lord God.

"Yes"

Fernand and I both answered her. She turned to the two of us and then smiled and laughed sarcastically.

"Then, why did he leave me ?, why am I experiencing this ?, why do I suddenly have to worry about all the things I don't want to remember ?, why am I traumatized ?, why did he let me to be dragged down in the mud and dark place? Huh?!Why? !!!! "

She stood up after telling us this and then walked towards the door. Fortunately I was able to grab her quickly and Fernand immediately interrupted Khiella and to stopped her.

"Leave me alone !. Get out of there!"

Khiella said this angrily to us. Fernand immediately shoved the injection out of his pocket with sleeping pills to calm Khiella down.

"Can you let me out of here. I don't need you. It's dark here too, I don't want here too!"

I thought she was fine but still not yet. but I know that having trauma to something or an event in someone's life does not make it lose its sanity. But it can also be moody, especially if it doesn't like what you said when it been asked or said something.

But I can't say anything about that, because I haven't studied Psychology. Fernand is more aware of such things or cases like that, because he is a Psychologist and an Psychiatrist.

"Khiella please calm down"

Fernand pleads with her. But Khiella glared at him.

"If that's what you want, for not letting me out, I think you should just leave this room. I want to be alone. I'm sorry for what's happening and to what I am acting."

It says to us. But did not hesitate to give Khiella the injection, so that she might fall asleep. This will help her. Rather than us leaving her alone here at four.

When she fell asleep because of the injection, we immediately put her on the bed. Then we talked about Khiella and what happened today.

"She's not as aggressive as those who should be pointed. Why did you inject her Fernand?"

There is a streak of annoyance that I say to him.

"Because it will be better for her, to sleep. Tomorrow her mind will be okay too. So far she was only carried away by emotion. Don't worry, she will be fine. "

I gasped and then left him in the living room. I went upstairs to look at my sleeping wife again.

I felt hurt and sorry for her. Maybe one of the reasons why she wasn't close to God, and didn't want to go to church. If you don't force it, it won't really go to church. Her heart is hard as stone and closed for God, that's what I see in her.

maybe this is the purpose why we came together, maybe this is also what God is giving me as one of my missions here on earth. To bring this woman to be closer and save her, to teach her to open the door and the window, to tear down the great wall she has built for God.

She needed someone to bring her closer to the Lord. I am ready to do what I have been given on my mission. Because I also want her to be free and saved of her complicated past.

I don't want to see the person I love got hurt and suffer.

Lord please help me with her. Help her also to find peace and be free by your light and grace.

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............ Khiella's Point of View.....

I woke up as the sun rise touches my skin. When finally opened my eyes, the memories of what happened last night came.

I felt sorry to what I have said last night to Ezriel and Fernand. Sorry for the two of them, I was preoccupied, frustrated, and devastated. I was carried away by my feelings.

Here I am again unable to understand myself. I also don't really sometimes know myself. Sometimes I ask myself, who really am I.

I feel like, this is not me.

I looked at the bedroom door when it opened. And Ezriel's face was exposed to me, I suddenly felt ashamed of what happened last night. I'm ashamed of myself, because sometimes I don't even know if it's really me, or I'm someone else.

" Thank God, your already awake. Good morning my wife"

How did he manages to call me his wife. Isn't he disgusted with me ?. I was embarrassed, embarrassed by what I said and did to them last night.

He will definitely ashamed and embarrassed me with his acquaintances and family. I am not a normal and well -behaved person. I will admit, and I know in myself that something is wrong with me, something is wrong with my personality. There is so much missing in me.

"We will not going to the precinct today, as we talk it last night that we need to go there. But no, today we will not go there, we'll just stay here to spend our weekend."

He said. I looked at him as I turned my gaze to him and slowly got up by laying on the bed.

" I.. I'm sorry for last night "

I said and looked away. I felt him, he stepped in to went towards me. Ezriel sat down beside me and touch my hand.

" It's okay, I understand. Don't think about it"

He said. I looked at him and he gave me a assuring smile. His smile is something I don't want to be gone.

"Let's go downstairs?. Breakfast is ready, shall we?"

I just nodded then get up, out of the bed and we proceeded downstairs.

When we got to the dining area, he pulled me out of a chair and then made me sit down. I watched him as he sat down beside me.

" Why are you doing this? "

Ezriel looked at me and then smile.

"Because we are husband and wife. And I want also to do this before I leave".

"Why? Where are you going?"

He smiled again and put a food on my plate.

"Somewhere far away"

Ezriel continue putting foods on my plate before doing it to his own plate after. I just watched him, I don't know what he means 'before he leaves' and go to 'somewhere far away' he says.

"You want me to feed you my wife?"

I frowned because it seemed like he was muttering, saying or calling me 'My wife'.

"Stop that Ezriel, it's not funny"

I said in irritated and grab my Spoon and fork then start eating the foods he served.

"What am I going to stop doing?"

I sighed in annoyance. I can't understand him either, I don't know what his actions mean sometime.

"Whatever"

I said and rolled my eyes on him.