Chapter 32: Closet

Closet

they whisper into my ears

they remind me of all the pain that I have felt

my skeletons have names

they come at times I begin to dwell in the promises made by the soothing words that come out of his wet lips

how he diverts my mind making me think I belong in his sheets

hands intertwined birthing a connection that is not meant to exist

the devil stands in front of me

the beholder of Lucifer's selfish deeds

lingers the feeling of becoming who he wants me to be

my angel eyes keep searching for the good that is inside of him

-B

Jahin's POV

Miyagi and I spoke for hours like always. I have so much to learn from this man and I never get tired of listening to him. We had more than just a few glasses of whiskey, we had business and personal conversations. I am closer to him than I am to my uncle only because my uncle wanted us to succeed so much he became strict towards my cousin and me.

I was unable to make sense of some hurtful things my uncle would say to us because coming from a broken home you can never really know if someone is truly looking out for you or the person is trying to hurt your feelings. I would get frustrated and Miyagi would always be there to comfort me.

The door to Miyagi's office suddenly slammed open and I turn to look at what was happening because no one...I mean no one walks into his office without notifying him first!

There she stood so carefree as if she does not belong to me. Her eyes were red...I thought she would have stopped smoking by now. A shock went through my body when memories of how high we both used to get together went through my mind...the love we made feeling like we are on a spaceship heading to nothingness. Days when everything made sense.

I belong to her, I yearn to please only her...make her experience heaven on earth by simply sliding all of me between her warm legs.

Haya this is not how I wanted you to see me after so many horrible years spent away from each other but I am so relieved you are here my love.

She stood there scanning my appearance disbelief written all over her face that suddenly turn pale as soon as both our eyes met. She suddenly fell and I felt my whole world collapse. I immediately stood from my seat and ran to her.

"Haya wake up!" I sat down next to her laying her head on my lap.

"Haya wake up oh my goodness what is going on?!" Zoe said each word that came out of her mouth in slow motion and she just drove me crazy because of how insensitive she sounded but I can not blame her. She is completely out of it.

"Haya wake up! what did you give her?!" I screamed out across the room consumed by the thoughts of actually losing her.

"We smoked ganja...daddy I am sorry we both wanted to try it and since we are roommates we decided to throw a little house warming. I met her today, I thought she was fine. I am scared daddy please help her!" Zoe suddenly started crying looking up to her father who just stood there maybe still trying to understand what was going on.

"Both you! gather yourselves up panicking will not help us one bit...let me inform the receptionist to get the emergency car ready so we take this young lady to the hospital." Miyagi instructed picking up the landline and calling up the front desk.

"Haya, I can not lose you again please open your eyes." I softly said as tears started dripping down my cheeks as I was gently trying to recover her.

"Jahin are you crying?" Miyagi said making me realize we were not alone.

This is what always happens, I lose myself to this girl so easily. She makes me feel like none of the other things are important and I completely shut the world out focusing only on her.

"No I had something in my eye...where are your frickin receptionist and the stupid emergency car!" I said feeling impatient at how long it was taking to get her help.

The receptionist called to inform Miyagi that we should call a doctor to come here instead since outside the hotel there is press and we are not going to be able to get out of the hotel with so many people blocking the main entrance.

"Why is there is press outside nothing is happening here! I do not understand...I am calling the police." Miyagi hung up the phone and before he could call the police I stopped him.

"No do not call the police...tell your receptionist to call my doctor he lives around here and will be here in no time. There is press outside because I made an appearance with the new Jaquar F-type." I replied feelings of shame going through my mind because now I might lose her because of my selfish intentions.

"What?! Jahin that car is not out to the world yet...you might be facing very unnecessary lawsuits." Miyagi said.

My doctor finally arrived and instructed that we carry Haya to the bedroom so that he can examine her. I felt bad about my actions so I decided to leave even though I could not bare to not be with her at such a time.

"Miyagi I love her, please make sure she is well taken care of...send me the bill for everything. Do not tell her I was here just say she was having hallucinations." I said then immediately left the room.

I decided to leave the Jaquar and ride in one of Miyagi's cars. I finally reached home, my mailbox had so many voicemails that I could not bare to attend to at the time so quickly freshened up and went straight to bed.

Before I fell asleep I decided to create an Instagram account. I searched for Haya's name then went through all of the pictures on her feed...with each scroll down I became obsessed. I got angry whenever I saw that a male commented on her pictures...she is mine is all that went through my mind.