Start over or keep trying

The car ride was long and I kept on crying. Mr. Davis was going to hurt me if I didn't get home early. He whipped me last time, his been getting uncontrollable since mommy died. Should I beg the man again? could I fight? I kept trying to make deals but no one would listen. I finally let myself fall asleep with the memory of my real family.

Justine's POV

When we got her into the car and drove away my mind kept on replying to the event. Lena didn't try to defend herself or even throw a knife at me. So it meant that she really lost her memory, why would she let herself get taken? I even searched her to ensure that it wasn’t an act but I was so freaking wrong.

In the car ride, she cried for so long I wanted to hit myself for not buying her candy, I didn't know what age she was now but soon she fell asleep and I switched places with the guy so I could hold her and just keep her warm. My heart flipped when she snuggled more and smiled. This girl was going to be the death of me. I never let my emotions get the best out of me but for some reason, I couldn’t help it.

Once we got to the underground hideout I carried her carefully and entered the building. I told the guards to tell the boss I was coming whilst I went to my room. I carefully placed her in bed and watched her frown. She searched for the comfort I had given her and I quickly pulled a pillow. Her expression was grim which made me snicker. Only when I was certain that she was fully asleep did I leave the room, locked.

Getting to the board room, I watched the men my boss had surrounded himself with, all with different ties. Many that needed to be cut without a spare glance. The conversations died down as soon as everyone's eyes watched me walk closer to the far end. A guard named Gabriel pointed at my shoulder and I turned to notice I was nicked at the shoulder. I shrugged, sitting down, it didn’t bother me.

"My mission was successful yet unsuccessful." I started. "We were able to retrieve Lena but she lost her memory. She can't remember anything from now to when her dad abused her a little." I stated as I watched every one.

"Kill her, she's not needed anymore, might as well be useless." A man said at the back, annoyed.

"What use is a service that doesn’t even recall its purpose. She will not benefit us." Gabriel said.

"I give you the choice. To either allow her to start over or keep trying to get her memory back." his voice commanded. I nodded and everyone began to disperse.

Before I could walk out of the room, he called me.

"Yeah?" I asked

"I have this feeling that you want this girl. It's the same feeling I had when I met your mom. Son, I may be your boss and all but I'm not that much of a horrible person. This company might as well be looked at like the mafia but we aren’t as bad. I’m sure you know you aren’t as bad." he sighed.

I sighed..."Yeah, I like her. I feel something for her but I won't allow myself to be subjected to weakness. She's only going to distract me. If by two weeks, I don't get her how to recall how to at least fight, I will make sure to get her somewhere to start over." I said as I walked out. Many people moved out my way as I passed by to my room. I never bothered myself with useless conversations.

Time was money.

My family was complicated, we ran a good business but with many dirty ties. So we relied on ourselves and on people we knew quite well. We seemed like a big company that ran trading, trucking, and mining. Yet below, we sold drugs, and our sources we’re rare to find.

Which, is what made us are and targeted. Our family wasn’t big, my mother and father separated. Both spitting certain parts of the businesses and secrets. My mother left with my other brother, I stayed with my father as for my little sister, neutral ground.

It bothered me, that a woman could make me feel anything, I was the best in never allowing anything in. We were the 'bad side' for goodness sake. I could kill her if I wanted to.

But you won't asswipe.

Stupid thoughts.

Weak dick

Like your mother,

that's your mother which is a hoe

Arguments with myself really.

I hadn't even noticed I'd entered my room until I heard the shower running. I had a humming of a lullaby. Silent Night. The humming was sweet and soft, it made me think of the days when I and my brother hadn't split. Mom and dad used to be a good family before fights ruined this family.

The door opened and Lena stepped out with a towel. She hadn't noticed I was in the room. The water dripped from her hair to her shoulders than was absorbed by the towel.

"Oh Lord, I hadn't noticed you stood there." she gasped gripping the towel tightly.

I found myself smiling at her, as I took her all in. She cocked her head to the side and blushed lightly.

"Sor-ry for using y-your so-ap. I-i was given cl-ot-hes and other stu-ff." she stuttered out. Keeping her head low. I turned to see the door closed and walked slowly to her… Before she even knew what got her, I swiftly took her in my arms and kissed her...