Chapter 4

I woke up in the back seat of my car with a gorgeous woman above me. She smiled sweetly at me and gave me a warm hug after noticing I was awake. "Hey, cutie." I smiled happily at her. She let go of the hug and held my shoulders and continued to smile at me.

"You're beautiful," I say completely out of blue. It just came out I don't why I said it but I did and I immediately regretted it. I blushed embarrassed at what I had said to her. I'm so stupid why the hell did I say that.

"So what exactly do you mean by that?" she was shocked, it was written all over her face. Tears fell down her face and I quickly felt bad for what I had done. Statements like that should have waited until we were a couple but I was too eager.

"I uhm…" shit I'm nervous, "I think your beautiful." god saying that to her was so hard that I almost just wanted to run out of the car and cry behind a tree.

"Oh… uh thanks. I guess." Great, I scared her. This is what I get for being brutally honest.

I guess I didn't scare her that much because the next thing I know I feel a pair of warm lips against mine. I was shocked, speechless even. It took me a minute to realize what was going on and for me to respond. Kissing her back passionately gave me this amazing feeling. I couldn't describe how I felt.

"I think the same about you," Priya says as she pulls away. I was confused and didn't know where she was going with this. I just stared at her blankly. I didn't know what to say or do at this point.

She was gorgeous, an angel, a goddess even. I wanted to call her mine. "Priya do you…." I was scared and nervous, "would you like to be my girlfriend?" I asked it. Finally, I did it, she just had to answer the simple question.

"Yes of course!" she yelled hugging me tightly causing me to chuckle at her. She was so cute, she's more than cute she's like a lion cub.

"We should go home." I get out of the car and go to the driver's side getting in the car. Starting the car, I watch Priya get in with a smile on my face. I feel so lucky that I get to be her girlfriend. She and I have been through so much and being able to date and forget those painful memories.

As we pull up to the driveway at my house I look at my beautiful girlfriend and smile sweetly. She's mine finally and I'm not letting her go. She's the change in my life that I needed.

"Lilith?" her soft voice woke me from my dazed state.

"What's up beautiful?" she blushes causing me to laugh at how she reacted.

"Could I sleep with you tonight?" this was the first time I've ever seen her so nervous before. She's been nervous but not this nervous.

I nod slightly and help her out of the car. This is heaven to me. I couldn't say that enough if I wanted to (which I do).

Most of my life I spent looking for someone to love me properly. I think I've found that person in Priya. She has everything I've needed in a partner and so much more. Living with her is something I cant wait to do. Sure she's at my house now but it's temporary as she is only here to finish school and then return to India afterward.

Time isn't something you can waste. So I don't intend on wasting any of my time with Priya. You cant go back in time now, can you? So what have I have now I'm going to take advantage of that time.

"Lilith?" Priya yelled up the stairs. It's been almost a month since we started dating and it's been amazing. But I feel like we are falling apart. I look at the pictures I have on my phone of the happy memories I've made with her.

"I'm going out." I look to Priya and smile sweetly only to receive an eye roll. Exiting the house I sigh on the verge of tears. Pulling out my phone I set up a group call with some of my friends.

"Lils?" Austin sounded scared which just caused me to sigh heavily and get in the car for warmth.

"Lilith what's wrong?" Nadine had her usual worried tone when came to me.

"Lili you cant just call us and sit silently," Connor says

"I'm with him." Jake and his usual playful attitude.

"Lilith, what's wrong?" Pat askes calmly compared to the others who freaked out.

I sigh listening to my friends worry about me. Tears fall down my face and that's when Austin pipes in. "Lils hang up and call me on your way over to my place. I'm not giving you a choice." I nod even though he can't see it and hang up the phone.

"Austin she's slipping away from me." a flood of tears comes down my face right after Austin picks up the phone.

"First calm down and breath." he's calm and using a calming tone with me, "Second I'm sure that's not the case. I'm sure she's just frustrated and upset with something you did and doesn't want to talk to about it."

"Austin she's always talking about this guy and how he's everything she's ever wanted."

"Sounds like she's cheating on you." he sounded angry at this point.

I pull into the driveway of Austin's place and hang up getting out of the car. "Lils it's going to be ok. Let's go inside, get some food and talk." I just nod gently and follow the 6-foot boy into his house.

"She leaves next month." I sit on the couch and sigh.

"If I were you I would end this before it gets too bad between you two." he hands me a cup of orange juice and some steak. As always making sure I get the proper amount of food and calories that I need. I just sigh in response and put the food down on the coffee table and lay down in his lap.

"You might be right."