CHAPTER 18 BEFORE YOU GO

" what is it ?"

" marry me ?"

" why? "

" because I don't want to marry someone except it's you. my dad told me that if I didn't marry Dianne, she will ruin our life, but I don't want to leave you, promise me that you'll love me even if we're not together in the future ?" I said while I'm leaning on her shoulder

" I will love you always even if I'm not that person who will spend the lifetime with you, I love you as always," she said while our tears keep flowing from our eyes

After that, we made a decision that we will visit the Cathédrale Notre-Dame de Paris the place where my proposal should be held last time

We arrive and the sadness is written from our eyes, we take a quick glance before we enter the cathedral and as we enter good thing its empty

We sat on the front chairs and I hold her hands, all we can hear is our own self sobbing in tears and I take her hand I took out a small box from my pocket and put her the ring that should be given on her birthday, but I think I can't make it

" I want you to keep our vows together and as the time past by that I'm not with you, I want you to keep this ring as my promise of my unconditionally love for you, you will always remain on my heart and I promise that you won't be replaced on this place," I said as I place the ring at her fingers and she cries out loud as I take my vows on her

She took the other ring and it's her turn to take her vows to me

" I want you to keep our vows and promise that you'll be happy even if without me, I wish you an everlasting happiness that you deserve and save those memories that we have for your journey in life, always remember that I love you and I always will even if you're going to be married on her "

She put the ring on my fingers and I hug her tight, I kiss her delicate lips and I manage to wipe all of her tears, we stayed a little longer and before we left I told her that I have my last surprise for her, I already texted raven that we will be coming over and the surprise will be in advance

" wait where are we going now ?" she said while my hands interwinding hers

" it's my surprise for your birthday, and I guess it will be in advance we need to leave on Sunday

All I can see is the sadness and hurt from her eyes, I got hurt from what I've said, I'm leaving her again, and hurting her again

From that moment I hug her so tight like no one can take us apart and we all know that this was our last

We arrive at the venue, all of my friends are here and they are all excited, but I know that when they know what happens all of that excitement and happiness will vanish in no time.

" they are here " I heard dean shouted from afar

We enter the venue and a lot of balloons and lights are in place we went to the table allotted for us and we sat on the chairs

As we are waiting for them they surprise us and they all felt sad when they saw the both of us are hurt and crying

" wait what happen ?" they all ask us and we just stared at each other

" dad called me and I'm getting married in a month," I said and they are all surprised

We finish our dinner and had a lot of talks but after that they all left us, because all of us are tired too, while I and Abby stayed for a moment, watching the sunset at the bridge

" We used to do this always, but maybe this will be our last," she said while staring at the view

" why can't I have you, everything is beyond us now and I don't know why all of this happen," she said

" I'm sorry if I can't take to risk it all, I don't want to ruin your life and to hurt you as I did before, but if we fight our love we will just end up hurting each other, " I said as I hold her hands

" Just promise me that you'll always remember our love like we used to do ?" she said and I cupped her face

" yes. I will, can you do me one last favor?"

"what is it ?"

" be on my wedding day ?"

The silence ate us both and we just stared for a moment

" I will be there "

" promise ?"

" I promise ?" she said and she kisses me again

We spend the whole day staring at the view and when the sunset went down we decided to go home and rest ourselves and our feelings

The next morning we started packing our things and waiting the night to get our flight before we separate paths we stayed in the moment and enjoying our limited time together. we're talking about our plans in life if we just married each other

" you know what. if I marry you, we'll celebrate our honeymoon here in Paris" I said joking at her

" right huh, if I marry you I'll break your bone if you cheat on me," she said and we both chuckle

" Nah I won't do that

, we'll have dozen of kids and a lot of babies " I said and she just laughs at me

After we talk we prepare our self ready for the flight

We are now at the international airport we booked a different flight, she is going back to New York while I am going back to Korea, we are at the boarding line of New York, waiting for her flight and when the announcer announces that the passenger can now enter the boarding pass I stand in front of here, the sadness and hurt is written on our faces, I take both of her hands and kiss the back of her palm

" be a good better half to your wife, and always remember that I love you okay ?" she said with tears falling from her eyes

" no don't cry I'll be alright, just do what I tell you, and I'm happy for you," she said and she cupped my face and wipe all my tears

" I promise I will still love you, even if I'm married to her "

we both let go and she entered the boarding pass, she waves at me and as soon as she entered her flight I felt the hurt that shredded my heart into pieces

" I love still, and I always will "