Theodore's Torn Page V

Time moved on and finally, I became a much more different person that I thought I was going to be. 

I feel like I'm changing and I don't know what to feel for it. I told myself over and over that I was going to seal off all feelings that I had.

I thought that everything will just be a useless struggle to achieve a momentary happiness for a permanent sadness.

But look where I currently am right now.

Sitting on this chair, with a bunch of food on the table, made by Isabelle and myself, smiling like an idiot. 

I thought that this life was something that I should keep. Something that I should be where i'm at. 

I thought that if time ever stpos, I wouldn't mind as long as I can savor this moment.

I gained a family. Another family.

but this time it'll just be happiness and just living of a life that I wanted for so long yet I continued to deny it.