Secretary

I can't believe of this!

He's infront of me staring,I was step in a back but I really need this job!

so I stared into his eye too,like saying 'for fuck sake!let me get this job just for my daughter!'

We stared to each other but then he lost at the 'staring battle' he move his lips like his about to say something.

"Your hired."he said and I'm so happy for that,I murmured thank you at them and they'll congratulate me.

he keeps staring at me and so I ask him.

"is there any problem,Mr.Miller?" he just shake his head and telling nothing.

Now I have a job, I should act normal infront of him everyday. I need to build a wall.

after they greeted me,We separated because they have a work to done.

and my duty for today is to prepare myself for tomorrow.

And now I'm here at the lobby waiting for Shawn to pick me up and tell him the good news. actually his very busy but he can manage his time.

I waited for awhile when I saw Shawn entered the door,I waved my hand so that he will notice me,He walked towards me and smile towards me.

"hey." he greeted me

I smiled "I'm hired" I said and I hugged him. "but....."

"but?"

"My boss is...Mr.Miller...is it okay with you?"

"of course, I trust you and I know you love me" he said and pinched my nose.

"I love you too" I said and we left.

When we finally arrived home,I saw Abby smiling at me.How should I say about my job?

I'm afraid to tell her, because I know she'll going to find a way just to see him.

"Mommy" she said to me while smiling.

"how's school?" I asked her.

"it's fun, Mommy.I have a new friends and we play....how about you Mommy, how's your day?" she asked innocently.

"Mommy have a new job,baby."I said to her while smiling."I'm a secretary of a famous Idol,baby."

"Really? who is it?" she asked and I see to her eye the amusement.

"Uhmmm...baby....you know his condition right? you know the condition of your father." she nod. "He's my boss,baby. I know your a big fan of him but please control yourself,if ever y-you see him."she was shocked for a minute then she speak.

"M-My daddy" she said while her tears are falling. "Mommy,p-promise me, I'll going to meet him in the right time."

"of course baby" I said and hugged her.

"Dada knows about it?" she asked then I nod. "He'll going to get jealous mommy,I know you don't love daddy, because you love Dada, please don't hurt Dada,Mommy. I love him because he's at my side whenever I needed a father."

"I'm not going to hurt Dada,baby. because I love him,he love us,right? Your real father is my boss but it doesn't mean I'm going to hurt Dada. I'm doing this for our family,for you. Dada is so precious so I'll keep him,you know what baby, When your just at my tummy,Dada help me....he cheers me up...he took all the responsibilities." I said, I don't know what drama is this,but I'm suring myself that I'm not going to hurt Shawn.

"Mommy, how's Daddy,is he nice? handsome? Tall?" she asked.

"yes baby,his nice, handsome,and tall." I smiled. "But Dada is the most handsome"

"Mommy, you're just like a teenager,a teenager who's crazy in love." Abby said,hayysttt she's just five years but look at her,she's like an fifty years old talking to her daughter.

I just laughed at her,It's already seven pm we ate together, because Shawn is home,well Shawn just drove me here,and back to work.

I take a bath and so Abby,after that I sang her a lullaby,and she went to sleep.

i walked towards our room and sat beside Shawn.

"Is it really okay with you?" I asked him

"of course,I know you love and his just your past,I love you so much that I'll going to trust you."he said and he looked to my eye.

"I don't know what I've done before to have you,but I'm so lucky to have you,love. You're always at my side, through my ups and downs. you love Abby like your own daughter,you never lost your patience to us,you keep on understanding us.I love you...thank you for the trust you'll giving me."

"I love you so much,Love. I'm not going to get tired loving you and Abby, you both are my strengths,you fulfill me...you and Abby makes me strong.I love you both....I'll never regret having you both,your like an angel in the sky...God gaves me a two angel and I'm thankful for that."

"I love you" I said and kiss him on lips.

"I love you too,and I'll never get tired loving you,you makes me happy...you always at my side too,love. And I promise you,I'm going to do my best for you and Abby."

"come on let's sleep,love.I have work to do"I said and he kissed me in my forehead.

"Good night love." he said and we lay on our bed.

before I go to sleep I prayed to God.

'i know there's a right time to him to know about Abby,but please guide me and protect my daughter....I know you plan about this and I'm not against about it...but please,I'm begging you...my lord... protect my daughter against the Miller....give a lot of time for him to know about this....about Abby...and also protect my heart...because I'm for Shawn...his my past...and he doesn't remember us....I know our lives will change because I'm going to enter his life....and my only pray is to protect my daughter.'

I said to God and went to sleep.