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Warning ⚠️: Amelia curses lot,Proceed at your own risk .

I groaned as I woke up to the loud ringing of my cellphone . Dang, that shit is way too loud . I picked it up with a groan and received the call .

" whoever you are , your reason for calling me had better be good cause it's fucking six in the fucking morning" I yelled into the phone.

"Amy" the voice whispered.i recognized the voice instantly,It was hard to forget the voice. But the real question is how he got my number and why the fuck he was calling me by six in the fucking morning.

"What do you want?" I asked quietly .

"It's me ace "he said calmly .his voice sounded just the way I remembered it , soft and calm .

I snapped out of my little wonderland of the perfect beautiful ace and all the anger that vanished when I heard his voice came rushing back . My voice was back now and I was Super angry. he doesn't have the right to call me after everything he put me through . It's been three years but it still hurts as hell. .

"Of course I know who the fuck you are, my question is why the fuck are the calling me"I yelled . Damn, I had to stop yelling.

"I miss you"he said with that his calm voice that was beginning to irritate me .

The hell!! He missed me , he has some goddamn balls . I couldn't contain my anger anymore . I was fuming, literally.who the hell does this asshole think he his . I hated myself and my life but I knew my worth , so I did the only sensible thing that came to my head.

"Fuck off you ugly ass retarded unlucky evil motherfucker" I yelled into the phone . I hung up immediately. without even thinking twice ,I blocked the number . I'll not allow him to waltz into my life and ruin it like he did 3years ago .

"What a lovely way to start my day" I murmured, notice the sarcasm . I might as well start getting ready for my horrible day . Today is definitely going to be the worst day in the history of my life, fucking Ace just had to call me by six in the morning. He could have called me in the evening or something, not that I would have been calmer with him or anything but I would have been able to sleep the anger off.

I stood up from my very comfy soft bed and headed to the bathroom,I couldn't help but wonder why Ace called me . Not that I cared anyways . I Picked my toothbrush and caught my reflection in the mirror ,i was horrified.

It's my image right ? I shouldn't be horrified,but I was.

"I really do look horrible" I whispered

There used to be a time when I ached for happiness,I always wanted to have a best friend and jump around with him/ her. Someone that would tell me I was beautiful and whisper other sweet nonsense that was in the love your best friend irrespective of looks handbook to me . But then I learnt that people don't stick around especially when you have a lot of baggage. Too bad I learnt that the hard way.

I have never been the type to admire myself and I obviously will never be the type to .i continued to stare at my reflection, a lanky skinny girl stared back at me . I am not the beautiful type, I knew that since I knew how to judge looks .taming my hair was the hardest part of my existence so I always just pack it and roll it in a bun, it was easier that way.

I yanked the band out of my hair and stepped out of my clothes . I took three steps backwards so I could get a full view of my body in the mirror. My body is scarred, no one would ever love me , not in this life anyways. The stretch marks,the cuts, the stitches from my surgery and evidence of my one time addiction,stared back at me in the mirror. To add cherry on top of the cake,my body is not attractive .i tilt my head to the side to get the whole thing from the side. my body looked more like an inverted triangle , perky boobs that didn't really match my body and my non existence hips . Everything looked so unjustified. In conclusion, I'm physically unattractive.

I hopped into the shower with a sigh.

By the time I walked out of the bathroom,it was 7. So, instead of going back to sleep like I planed to, I headed to my wardrobe to pick my outfit. My wardrobe mainly consisted of jeans , tees,joggers,hoodie , more jeans and more hoodies . And before you ask , yes I'm the comfortable clothe type of girl. I picked a pair of mom jeans and one of my black hoodie to go with it. I sat in front of my vanity and took my time in drying my hair .

I packed my hair and put it in a bun . Getting ready for a morning lecture was never a thing of stress for me , I was done dressing in no time . I still had about an hour left before my first lecture as a senior in college,I might as well head to my favorite coffee shop to celebrate my self achievement .

I grabbed my tots bag,stuffed some books and my accessories into it and left my apartment. "off to the coffee shop" I said smiling

I was there in no time,I ordered a cup of americano and some muffins , found myself a table and then plugged in my AirPod and like that I lost track of time.