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Chapter 12 : Reality

After that long talk with them. I decided to be alone. I don't want talk about it again and again because it's kills me every time, it continuously breaking me into parts. I'm completely incomplete now without all my memories three years ago.

Some part of me still hoping that its all dreams but I know this is the reality now. In every night, those dreams keeps bothering me but I know now the reason of it. It is because those dreams are my precious memories happened three years ago but those are incomplete too like me.

This is the reality that I need to face now, alone this time. I don't think I will need them now, they keep this all along to me ; the truth. I can't face them now. I'm still hurt for what they did to me. Even if they were my only family, a real one.

I also hate my grandparents for this. For still keeping and continuing this unwanted wedding of them. Setting me up into this, even if I don't really agreed to it fully and completely.

I know I already agreed to them, this time but after hearing those painful truth about me, I don't think...

I really don't think I can do it without my heart aching in pain.

I also knew that ever since I said ' yes ' to them, they're now starting to prepared for it. All of the things that needed to the wedding will be set up immediately without delaying. They've wait to much long for this to be finally happen and now it really needed to be happened for real.

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" Ija, your here already..." Grandma said while smiling widely.

" Yeah, I'm here Grandma! " I said trying to put a smile on my lips but it turn out to be a fake smile.

" Are you still tired? You look pale Ija! " She said and looked at me worriedly.

" Yeah I'm still tired, Grandma... Can I rest for a while? " I said in a low voice, breathing heavily.

" Okay sure, Ija... You need to rest well! We will talk tomorrow. Rest Now! " It sounded like she commanded it and I really need to follow her.

I just nod and before I turned around at her I heard that she slightly laugh while smiling wide. She's imagining things right now, I can see it all over her face. She didn't even notice that I see her like that. Its not my lost, Its her... Its them.

When I get to my room finally. I instantly rested my body on the bed. I'm more than exhausted right now. I can't feel anything but loneliness and pains. I want to be sure this time. If I am destined to be gone, I will be gone for good. If I want to vanished, I vanished instantly without traces. If I want to escape, I will escaped without even notice, without getting burned most especially without even dying.

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" You already agreed, Riri..." Grandpa said with authority.

" Yes, I am Grandpa but..." I said trying to be brave in front of him. He's looking at me now deadly.

" No buts... It will gonna happened, that's final! The engagement party will be held on Saturday. " He said with finality in his voice.

" Grandpa... Grandma..." I pleaded.

" They just laughed... "

I waked up sweating hard and my heart beating rapidly while my body is now shaking. " What a dream, No its not only a dream..." It actually happened two days ago. When I've waked up, next morning, in that day. We've talk. And that happened.

It's like a nightmare for me. It's scary. I just wanted to try them in that day but It turn out bad. He's too evil. They're really evil, far from what I've dreaming and expectations.

Tomorrow will be the Engagement Party, they've prepared to much. They really wanted this to happened. But, What about me? This became unwanted to me. I just hated it.

Right now, I have no choice. What ever happen tomorrow will happened. I just hope for one thing, only one thing.

" That man in my dreams..."

I want him meet. I want to see him personally. Just for the last time, very last time. It will be dream come true.

I partly have memories with him but blurry in my dreams. But I'm also sure that, if ever I've met him someday my heart will always remember him.

Tomorrow is the start of my ending. It's now or never nor I will regret it forever.

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" He's your fiancee... You will be together in one car, someone will drive you there to the venue. " Grandma happily introduced him to me and continuously telling to us all the details of the event, for our engagement party later tonight.

We just nod at her repeatedly. It's a little bit awkward right now. I'm starting to feel annoyed.

" Good then... I'll go now first. You should both readying now too. See yah, later... Ija and Ijo! " She walks away hurriedly while still waving her hand at us.

We both sighed on relief when she already left us. It took thirty minutes that talk. She has a lot of energy today. They all are... but except me.

I look at the man in front of me. He's too perfect to me to be my prince. He has a lot of things that every woman may desire but not me. We're not perfect for each other. I'll consider this wedding as prison and a hindrance to my freedom. I don't what he was thinking right now about it but I don't care anymore.

As he looked at me. He already know me. He probably knows my reason when it comes to this wedding. I don't know what can I gained from this in the end and also his but we already know too that this is the reality in our lives. The reality that we can't escaped and avoided but needed to face.

" Reality, hits on both of us for real... "