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Chapter 16 : Answered

I choose not to talk too. I choose not to see him. I choose to be alone right now. I choose to process everything in my mind first before I can finally face him and everyone.

It's been a day that I didn't see him till now. As I said I choose not to face right now without even thinking right to less the problem for the mean time.

I did not go outside for the whole day. I've been always in my room since I went here after our talk last night. I have to clear my mind first before anything else. I have an answer now but I know also that it wasn't enough. I need to remembered all first, to settle this once and for all. I need to recover all of my forgotten memories, it will be the answered in everything.

He was giving me food outside the door of my room. He just left it without even talking to me nor more than that. He was giving me the space that I needed now. He's always understanding and thoughtful when it comes to me. I'd admire him more.

Even if I don't remember him. My heart tells me that I know him and I love him even more now. The same feeling was still there, there's nothing to hide from it.

As he say, we've been together before. Honestly, deep inside I know that It was true. The familiarity, the scent, the presence when he's near was feel nostalgic to me. I love all of that, it's make me calm and safe.

But due to all that I know, It is more satisfying if I could just recover quick and quickly end this too. The problems that keeps hunting me.

And even if I wanted to call them right now to know what it is exactly happening now and asked them about that unwanted wedding of mine, on how did it go? did everything alright when I left? and more questions about that. But now, this is not the right time to do it. It just makes things even worst than before.

I know my grandparents. I knew them well. They do bad things ; worse than pain as if could kill anyone even me. I'm not an exemption to that. They can do whatever they want to do whenever and wherever they wish it.

I don't know what gotten to them to act like that. Those sides of them that I knew was only a part of my dreams at night. It's seems like a nightmare to me but I knew also that it wasn't just a dream but my memories.

I'm hiding it to them and you already know it. There's many that I couldn't even believe it. All days of my deepest nights, I continuously little by little I dreamt that.

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I've slept with a lot of thoughts in my mind. I can't still figure out what to do in my situation nor in our situation right now.

I waked up early in the next morning. The first that I do was clean myself and my bed. I decided to go outside today while it's was still early. I need to breathe some fresh air right now.

After I went out of the house. I'd walked straight and directly to the seaside. I sit on the sand and relax myself for a little bit.

I set my mind on now our situation right now. We were living in the same roof for almost a week now, and were seem comfortable with each other like before. I assumed that we were really like before. I hope I can remember it now.

And also, even if we were comfortable to each other it doesn't mean that we're good to be together. That our situation right now is not bad at all.

I think we need to talk regularly this time since we have each other right now and we're living in the same roof. We need to be casual to each other again little by little.

I plan also that starting from now I will be friendly to him and he to me so we can knew each other more. I need to get to know him better so I can remember him quickly and the process of gaining my memories will became easy for me. It could help me, so I'll better try.

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" Where did you went at this early hour? " He asked as soon as I get back inside the house.

" There, at the seaside only... " I started talking at him casually.

He nod after I said that then asked me another question. " So, How's your sleep? "

" It's fine. I'd slept well... " I walked to the sofa that was near at me and sit on it and then I looked at him while saying that.

" That's good to hear... How lets eat breakfast now, I'd cooked already " He looked at me too, he's now sitting beside me while he was asking that.

I just nod at him. He stand up and started to walk to the kitchen then I followed him. I'm smiling while walking towards to the kitchen.

I'm having a good feeling right now. Happiness is all over my face now and I don't need to ask why because I know the reason already. It's because of him.

I hope this feeling will last until the end. I need to consider this moment as a happy memories with him. We were just starting over again right now and hoping that it will end well.

" Let's eat now..." We were both sitting now in a not so big round table. He smiled at me after he said that.

I nod at him again. We started eating after that. He simply opened a topic and then later on we're now talking casually and comfortably.

" This is the gonna be the start for we to start over again. I hope this will also be the answered to my incompleteness... "