I Am Married

" So... What you said ." He said.. correctly we both are eating food.. and he looking at me. When I test all things. And eat it.. and moan it..

" Well its not that bad..." I told him.. teasing him.

" Ohh come on love.. I know you love it..," he said to me..

" When you know it that why are you asking stupid.." i said to him.. ignoring him. An I eat my food like kid.

" You can just tell.. wait what.." he said when he got me what I just said to him..

" Very well love.. " he said to me..

" So whom are you talking to call that you are so look now more happy and more beautiful.." he ask me .

" It's family.. " i told him. And he nodded. After that we didn't talk much.

" So in your family you it's just both of you or you have another siblings.." I ask him..

" I have.. my sister.. she's married.. now she's pregnant that's why she can't come.. if she is here's I tell you.. she will really try to everything to embarrass  me.. " he said me..

" Well that's the brother sister relationship is right.." I told him. He nodded..

" You tell me about you.. you have.. " he asked me..

" No.. I am single chilled.. whem my mom give me birth. And she got know it's girl that both happy for me. They already planned it.. whatever is girl or boy.. they want only one kid. Because my dad can see my mom in pain like this.. " i told him. About my story.. thinking about what mom dad stood me.

" dad told me that how 9 months mom did dad's life living hell.. in morning 2.30 o'clock she told Dad that she want to eat Chinese mmmm can you believe this.. so he clear he thought he don't want more kids . " I told him and laugh.. and continue said ." My mom said that when I am in her tummy if I said.. I to much annoy her.. she told me how she act front of dad like child. Demand him to do this. And that.. she don't want to but all feeling all emotion she's having that did with her.. she feel bad for dad.. and my dad.. well he loves my mom to much.. so he did all think what my mom demanded to him.. " i told him. He smile when I said..

" An it's not just that.. after my birth.. I keep annoying the hell out of them . I always do things that they amused that.. I act like boy.  In my school's I have all boy friends.. no girl friends.. beacuse I always act like them.. I do lots of things with boy's.  The kids do . Like prank to principal and all.. food fight. Everything.. my principal also got irritated by me . Of course but he tolerate me.. " i told him . And smile. How he always told my parents that how troublemaker I am..

" But you don't seems like that.. I am sometime you do things. But still.. knowing all this things. You change a lot.. " he said to me.. and he's right I change a lot. After my dad's heart attack.. an my married.. and than my first love.. my first heatbreak.. it's all change me. But I still try to be the old one how I was before all this happened..

" But it's still can't tell that how you and hazz both meet.. how she tolerate you.." he ask me..

" We both are same.. but still she's more sincere girl. Also smart. " I told him..

" Well looking at her I don't think she's that type.. " he said to me..

" Ohh hello.. you can just said like this to her.. you know what.. why I am talking to you.. I am going.. bye.. " I said to him.. and stood up. And started to walk away from him.. he run to me and stop me..

" Hyy wait wait.. I was just kidding.. " he said to me. I ignore him. Rolling my eyes..

" I am sorry oky.." he said. And I nodded.

" If you want to talk with me.. you have to respect my friends.. i don't like when people insult what's too close to me.. " i told him..

" Oky.. I get it.. damn you are so demanding and also bossy.." he said and laugh..

" Is there a problem.. " I ask him..

" No ma'am there is no problem.. " he said to me . And kiss my forehead.. when he did I frozz in my place. He always give me heart attack.. he has lot of to effect on me.. and it's not good thing..

" Ummm.. I.. I mmm. I think I have to find hazz. It's late. We have handede to home.." I said to him..

" Oky.. let's find her.. " he feel sad little bit. But I ignore him.. and we both are find hazz. So we can go..

" My driver will take you both of home safely.." he said to me.. I didn't argue.. it's late. An I don't have straight to argue with him . I just nodded with my head.

" Bell.. come on seat here.. did you have dinner.. the food is delicious.. I love it.. I talking about Alex that give me that manager contact so we can tell Gray to arrange food for he's wedding.. we know that how he's taste are.. " she said to me.. I walk there. And smile at her..

" That's the great idea.. " i told her. And she look at Alex and said her that told you . And Alex rolled he's guys to her.

" Hazz.. it's getting late I think we should go home.. you know .." i told her. She look at me. And than Alex and they both are looking at us.  And I don't know what both are talking with there stairs .

" Yeah.. you are right.. we have to go.." she said. And get up on seat. And ready to go..

" Wait.. I am coming with you guys to drop you your home ." Alex said. And we both stood and look at each other and than look at him .

" I mean I don't mind if I can drive you home.." he said hesitantly..

" I also coming with you.. " Shawn said. And I don't want him to come with us.. no.. it's to much..

" Oky so we do one thing.. I go with hazz.. you both go with other car . " Alex said. And this is just a wow.. I mean he know how to do.. hazz agree with him. And she hug me and told me that she will see me at home. And I just nodded with her.

We all are meet Anne and Michael one's last time. And greet them good night.. and we both are leave the place.. hafe people are already gone.. and some of are leaving doing same thing . Shawn told me to wait our side he will be back.. so I did what he told me..

Hazz and Alex already left like 5 minutes before.. it's just me. So I looking at my social account and see all this photos that hazz upload it.  And the videos.. when Anne and Michael cut the cake.. I like the post and also comment.. like this. I looking at all this photos and things.. I see that Bobby post another picture of her and Grayson.. they both are ni booth and Grayson kissing her cheeks and she just hide her face.. they both are really looking cute together..

" Hyy sorry to wait you like this.. come on.." Shawn jogg coming our. And said to me.. he never change I confirm by today.. I didn't say him. And see that he change he's clothes.. and wear simple cloths. And come. Looking at him... He seems like teenage boy.. and first time I seeing he's mucels.. damn now I know he also workout.. I really want to touch it.. but i control myself.. I nodded and follow him.. but he stop suddantly.. and turn around. And I also following him at the same time.. so we both are just dump to each other.. I am going to fall in the ground but he just catch me at the same time..

" Ohh my god ." I told him panickly.. and my eyes closed.. i thought I am going to fall in ground.. my dress will be ruined.. and most importantly I feel embarrass front of him..

" Hyy it's oky love.. I got you ." He whisper to m holding me in he's arm.. I open my eyes and I see that he really did hold me.. but still it's really embarrassing..

" Why you always do that Shawn.. I hate this.." I told him ..

" I am sorry oky.. look at me.. I am sorry love.." he said to me.. and he's apologize is genuine. I look at he's eye's.. he have really attractive and beautiful eyes.. sometime I want to fall for he's eye's..

He catch me to looking at me.. and than he pull me to close to him.. our face are inch of centimetre are away..  I feel he's breath touch my cheeks. My cheeks flush.. and goosebumps are appear in my whole body.. I try to push him away to him.. and make him distance with him.. but he told me tight..  I don't know what to do.. and I see that he's eyes landed to my lips.. and looking at this . I bit my lips.. fuckk . What the happening with me.. I know he doing to me kiss.. I never kiss someone.. not even gray.. did I ready to kiss him.. or give him my first kiss to him..

No I can't do that.. I am still married.. I know that gray didn't love me but still I am he's wife.. i can just do thing with other. Guy.. who's not my husband. It's all wrong. 

" We can't.. I can't do this.." I broke the silence and told him.. he look at me with sad eyes. I look away to him.. and pull away.. and turn around hide my face..

" Why.. I mean it's not that you don't feel this thing.. what I am feeling toward you.. " he told me.

" I can't do this Shawn. Please can you drop me home.. " I told him.. avoiding all he told me..

" Why.. i want to know.. its about that your working for me.. and I am your boss.. Bella you don't  have to think all this.. I will handle it all.. you can trust me.. " he said to me. Convince me. I know he has strong attraction toward me.. but it still are not good thing..

" Shawn.. please don't do this.." I told him.. control to not to cry..

" Why can you trust me damn it.. it's about my reputation.. you think that I will play with you.. I am change bella.. just give me chance.. " he said. He bagged me. To give him chance..

" I can't Shawn. Why you just don't understand this.. No means No. " I shout at him..

" And i want to know.. why you reject me.. no girl's ever said to me.. why.. just give me one reason.. i will change for you.. " he rising he's voice and told me..

" Shawn.. you are nice guy.. I know no girls will said no to you.. who don't want to be with you.. you have everything the girl what. " I told him. And it's true.. if I meet him year's ago.. I will fall for him.. I will stay with him.

" Than why you doing this.." he said me irritatingly..

" Beautiful i am not that girls.. and I never will be.." i said to me frustratingly..

" And that's what I like about you.. that's why I am attracted toward you. You are not like them .. you are different.. and I might I like more about you.. you always suprise me.. and it get me want to know more. To stay with you spend time with you.. can't you see that i.." he shout.. but I cut him off.

"  I am married.. " i announce.. when I said. He frozz and shock and act like he didn't here me..

" What.. what you just said..," he ask me come to stood front of me and demend me..

" I am married Shawn.." i said loudly.. so he hear.  He hear clearly.. he stop in track and think something..

" Why did you hide it.. " he broke the silence and shout at me.. i see he's angry.. her eyes he's red.. now I am scared..

" I never hide it.. even in my documents there is I tell that I am married.., " i said to me crying.. tears coming down in my eyes. And I can't just stop them to come out..

" Of course you did.." he said to me angrily.. it's means he did see that.. he did see our things. Without knowing us how can he just gi e us job..

" How.. I mean without background checking how you give us this opportunity." I yelled at him..

" The hell.. when I see you both elevator.. and know that you both are that girls. I didn't check it.. and I give you tasks. That's is your exam so I never had chance to see that.. and  you never wear your wedding ring.. I never show you in your hand. How the fuck I know this.. " he shouted me angrily..

" Why the hell I show everyone. Its up to me to wear it or not.." I shout back..

" What the fuck Bella.. why you did that.. fuck.. and..  that.. the phone call.. " he said remembering..

" It's from your husband right.. " he said to me.. to know my answer.. it is my husband.. he waiting for me to say something.. I look at him.. and nodded with my head..

" Of course who's call this in that late.. when there is still morning.. no man call girl that time.. expect there boyfriend or husband.. and it's your husband.. now I get it all... " He said to me.. I didn't said to him.. I look at to the grass. I don't know what to said. And how to explain how my life is messed up.. how I tell him my husband not love me.. like every husband do with there wife.. my husband love someone else.. and he's going to married with her in few days.. how the hell I can tell him..

" Listen.. I am sorry.. I am sorry for my behavior.. to cross my limits.. I didn't know that time. But now I get it..  I apologise for my all behavior to make you uncomfortable. It will never happen again.. " he said.. and started to work away for me.. didn't even looking at me back that I was still standing there. I want to go home damn it.. I hate it when I dump this like of condition.. he stop again and turn around and look at me. I still crying..

" Ohh and.. my driver will drop you home.. goodnight Mrs Benson.." he said rudely and left me.. I didn't said anything to him.. and just nodded to my head..