Lunch Meeting

The ride is silent.. I keep thinking about what happened between me and Shawn.. I cry silently.. and look out of to the window.. this city is keep silent also.. the road is empty.. I feel like the bussy city finally get slient.. empty.. like I am feeling right now.. empty.. lonely..

I never think that the today is night gone like this.  I never thought that I will told him like this. Hell I mean I never thought that I will tell him this.. what he thinking about it right now.. what he now doing in there.. I hope he dont mad like last time I saw him.. I hope he don't hurt anyone or hurt himself..

I feel guilty.. feel selfish bitch.. feel like I just cheated him.. hurt him.. stabbed him.. but it's the truth.. I am married.. I never thought that my life going to be turn like this .

I never thought that I will meet someone who's not Grayson.. and I attracted to that guy.. I mean I did make friends talk with guys.. but just as friend. I never cross my limits.. I never did it.. I never give any boy chance to touch me.

But I give Shawn.. I don't know why.. whenever he near me.. I just think properly..  I when blank.. he give me starnge feeling.. and I just can't even stop myself to push that feeling away.. he's different.. he's to different to others .

He know how to act with girls. Or just he's favourite girls. The girls who thinks that she's special for him.. he know how to feel girl comfortable.. make her laugh.. and  he is good company..

Knowing him.. I know he's the best guy. Girls looking for.. he's gentleman. Funny. Interesting.. I don't know what to say.. but he's something..

I don't know what happened next.. after all this know it.. what he will do.. did he ignore me.. and act like he did with others. Snapped me. I don't know what will he do.. thinking all this thing it's making me cry more. Frustrated more.

" Ma'am we are here.." the driver said to me.. I nodded with my head. And I get out from the car.. thank him.. and enter my apartment..

" I am in kitchen.. come on I made coffee for us.." hazz yelle and I throw the heels. And run to my room. Slam the door loudly..

" What the hell bell.. people are sleeping.." she said entering my bedroom.. i ignore here. And started to clean my make-up.

" What happened to you.." she said me.. I did say anything still shut my mouth an doing my work..

" Can you tell me or I just call Shawn.." she said angrily..

" I told him.." i said to her.. grab my thoughts.. and enter the bathroom. And lock the doors.. she just stund what I just said..

" What.. what you said. You told him.. what he said.." she said to me and know my bathroom door to open it.. I remove my clothes.. and wear my night wear.. 

" Bell come out right now. I want you see you right now.. " she shout at me.. and I did open the door. There is not happen that she leave me alone without knowing what happened.. and why I am act like this..

" I told him that I am married.." i told her again.. and jump on my bad..

" What he said.. and how all this happened.. i want to know everything.." she demand.

" You both when go.. I waited to him to come out so we can also do the same. He walking fast and I was just following to him. And than he suddantly stop and dump on me. I am going to fall but he just hold me. We both are to close to each other.. he's looking at my lips. I know he doing to kiss me. So I stop him.. and told him that we can't.. but he didn't give up.. started to asking me telling me that he want to be with me.. and I still rejecting him. So he told me what's the problem.. so I told him. I told him that I am married.. " i told her.. and looking at her.. her eyes wild with shock..

" Holly fucking shit Bella.. I am so so sorry.. I am sorry for that.. " she said to me and hug me.. and I hug her back..

" After that he said that why I didn't tell him before.. I told him. That I already give my information in my documents.. and can you believe it.. he didn't even see our any of information. He just see that we are the girl that club.. and looking at there to us.. he just give us assignment. And give this offer to work with them.. " i told him..

" Damn boy.. it's to much.. " she said to me..

" And most important thing is.. " i told him..

" I just can handle anymore.. what it is tell me already.. " she said frustratingly..

" Grayson call me with using dad's phone.." I told her..

" What.. why he did call.. and why not he call you in his own cellphone.. " she ask me..

" That's the think.. someone save my name with wrong number misunderstandingly.. and he told me that he keep calling me everyday but I just can receive and call.. " i told her..

" What the hell it's happened.. and who did with him.. ohh how can we forget this.. it's Bobby.. who can do this cheap think expect her..  but most important thing is why she did. When Grayson already in love with her didn't he.. " she said to me..

" I don't know that anything about it.. I didn't even  think that it's her.. I mean why she do this.. but anyway.. me and gray talk and clear things out.. and he apologized me like thousand times " i tell her..

" Of course he did. After all it's he's mistake.. " she said to me.. rolling her eyes annoyingly..

" But I am happy that things are get well.. but also sad about hearing about Shawn.. I don't know.. poor boy.. what will he do.. " she said to me..

" I AM thinking same.. he's to mad when he know this.. I don't know now how can he accpt it.. and how hes going to be behavior on office.. " I told her worryingly..

" Chill babe's he's going to be well.. it's not that it's your fault.. " she told me..

" I know that.. but still.. he confess that he's attracted to me.. he's feeling same what I am feeling for him.. " i burn out.. and now I reagret this to saying out loud..

" What.. you also like him bell.. oh my god.. i mean fuckk.. damn I really now feel bad for both of you.. I mean both are cute. When you both are together.. I saw you both how you together are doing well. An most importantly Shawn.. he just behaving strange.. I first time see that guy smile and laugh.. I thought he never.. it's not only me.. we all are looking at it.. how he acting today.. " she said to me..

" And that's the thing is creeping me out.. he will be back in he's old behavior.. and we can't see he's smile or laugh anymore.., " i told her sadly..

" Don't worry bella.. we can figure this out it.. don't worry. I am with you.. you are not alone.. " she said to me..

" I am to tried.. you go sleep we can hangout tomorrow.. I really want to sleep " i told her..

" Yeahh sure.. good night.. Bella.. and don't thing to much.. oky.. " she said an kiss my cheeks..

" Night hazz. " I told her. And grab my blanket..  close my eyes. And sleep..

The verry next day.. we both are stay home. Didn't go anywhere.. we stay with each other. Saw some movies..  baked some cookies..

She told me about her relationship with Alex.. she told me he make her happy. So I am happy for her. Even she got her love..

We talk with family.. and yeah we also FaceTime with Grayson.. he told me that he's in mall he want to get wedding tux so we both are saw him in video and we chose for him. And finally we are going to normal again with each other.. we are comfortable with each other.. and also leg pulled to each other. Like we always 3 of us do.. Grayson also asked hazz about Alex..

Like this our day past.. today's is Monday.. we are correctly in elevator in the Staves building.. standin there. And start to our day.. let's see hows the day go..

" Are you sure you want to do this.. " hazz said this like 15 times.. and I told her 15 times that I will do fine . And I am sure.. but she still worry about me.. she know Shawn's anger..I give her look.

" Oky fine girl.." she said. And than we both reach top floor. And than we hug both each other like we do always.. and than I walk to my office..

I enter my office.. and seat there some times.. before I start my work.. but same time someone knock and enter my office..and it's Rosie.. I stood up. And greet her..

" Hyy darling.. so we have meeting in lunch Mr Staves and you have to go together. And he told me to tell you that it's very important.. " she said to me with smile... I smile back.. and nodded..

" Thanks for telling me this.." i told her. And she nodded. And leave my Alone..

Oky so lunch meeting.. interesting..

" Oky let's start the work.." i told myself. And I start my work..

I too bussy in my work I didn't know that time pass that fast.. hazz come my office with coffee.. I told her that I am working on project.. she Waited to me to but than she got bored.. and she leave me.. I also apologize to her that I didn't give her time. She said it's no problem.. she know how Shawn is..

Someone to my office without knocking.. I look up it's none other than Shawn.. I got up on my chair. An stood up..

" Rosie didn't tell you about meeting.." he said to me clear he's thought..

" She did.." I going to explain him but he cut me of..

" That why didn't you come to my office.." he said to me arrogantly..

" Sorry Mr Staves I just going to come but you com same time.." I told him..

"Don't like.. I see you still. Working if I didn't come you still didn't up for it.." he said to me. Rolling my eyes. I got up. Take my all things.. and get laptop with me.. beacuse it's business so maybe it will be need it..

" I am ready let's go.." i told him... He looking at me up to down..

" What ." I told him.

" Nothing I thought you want to go some make-up or anything." He said to me..

" No I don't do make-up.. we are going to meeting.. we have to focus on work not make-up.." I told him.. he didn't said rolling he's eye's. And we both are went to the elevator..

We reached in meeting.. it's in fancy restaurant.. the place is quite cool. So I don't mind for them.. we both waited to the client so we can start our meeting..

The waiters come and ask me if we want something but Shawn said her that we are just not ready for order at..

I open my laptop and started to work. That I was doing already.. Shawn is sitting beside me looking at my laptop how I am doing my work.. and quite relax that we didn't fight or say to each other.. or talk about that what happened last time.

After 10 minutes.. the clients come and join us.. we shake hand to them. And we all site.. the boss is the old Man.. and he come with also he's engineer and he's quite in my age.. they both start to talking about deals.. and all this think.. when they told me to what my think about it I share my ideas to them.. and there engineer also talk and we both talk about this some more. And than like this they final that deal.. than we order for us food. I order for me Chinese.. and wine is oky with me. And I eat it.. I was just hungry.. I didn't hear what they talk to I just bussy with my food..

" Miss Benson.. " they called me than I snapped to my food. An lol at them . I look at them and smile at them..

" Sorry I was just hungry.." i told them. And they just nodded..

" Well she's not miss she's Mrs.. she's married.." Shawn told them they both look at me with suprise and grab tissue and clean my lips and nodded to told them he's right..

" You look to Young.." that boy said to me..

" Thank you.. it's just happened in Young age.. but I am happy with that.." I told them..

" Ohh good.. your husband very lucky man I guess.." he said to me.. Shawn chok when he hear.. but he quickly drink water.. apologizing us .

" Yeahh he's.. " I told them..

" What he do.." that asked me.. and this time I got nervous to tell them that how can I told them that what my husband do..

" Well we are here for deal right.. I don't like to talk about my personal life. When I was in meeting.. " I told them sweetly.. but the got my message.. they both are amused also Shawn to but he didn't said.

" Yeah right.. i am sorry for asking you that.." that old man said..

" It's oky.. it's happened.." I told them. After that they didn't dear to talk with me.. and I enjoyed my food.

After lunch we all get out to the restaurant.. me and Shawn both are get in the car and we didn't talk.. or anything.. it's just awkward ride..

Grayson said me some of the pics of the decorations that what will look great. He told me that he wants me to help me with all this.. so I will doing it.. well I know me and Shawn didn't do well.. I see him time to time we look at me that what I am doing. I feel he's eye's on me. I know he getting mad and jealous that I am with him but still talking with someone's else's.. so I told Grayson that I am bussy I will talk to him about all this when I got home..

Me and Shawn both are reach our building. And both are get in elevator.. and still didn't talk much.. he's ignoring me.. ignoring me like he didn't even know me we both are acting like stranger.. we never meet.. he didn't even talk like boss talk with he's man.. who's work under him.. I feel hurt that he doing this.. but in the end I also feel like he's doing it right thing.. it's better than this..

Than why my heart wants me to go near him talk to him. Know him how he feeling.

I hope it's going to be go all things are good..

When we both reach top floor. We both get out the car.. I stop and look at me once like time and said.

" Good job.." he said and left in he's office.. I stood there looking at he's back.. when he finally gone. Than I realized I still standing there. I snap my thoughts and walk to my office.. and started to working my project..