Chapter 19: The Worse Pains And Heartaches

Quick A/N: So, I know it's been a while since I've updated but I have an explanation. I've been having a.... what the fancy word that the authors use?... writersblock or something. But anyways, I'm not trying to make excuses or anything plus I've been trying to think up a song for this story, let's just say I think the best place for the songs I wrote so far are in a burn pit😌. But look, at least I'm still writing 🤦‍♀️, that came out ruder than I thought it would. What I meant was that, I'm still writing this book and it's coming along it's just.... that I don't update it as much as I would like. But, I promise to all of you that are reading this that I am going to do every single thing in my power to not discontinue this story! I also have another book I'm writing. Yes another book. The book is called, The Most Powerful Being, so if you to, go check it out and show it some love!

Alright I think that's it, without further ado, Enjoy!

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💕" Ryan's POV "💕

🤨" At Lunch "🤨

I walk into the cafeteria and start to walk towards the lunch line. I can't get a whole ton of food but hopefully I can get enough, I only have a dollar left.

I guess I should get a job. I think to myself as I get some food.

After I get my food put my school ID number in and etc I walk over to the table where Stacy, Blake, Summer, and Ember are sitting at.

"Hey guys, what's up?", I ask as sit down.

"Noting much eating. Why don't you have that much food.", Ember asks and I sigh.

"I didn't have enough money. I only had a dollar left from my lunch money savings.", I tell them and they nod.

"Here.", Summer says her smiley face French fries and I shake my head.

"No, those are yours I'm honestly fine. I've had less food before.", I give her a small smile and she sighs then sets on my tray.

"You will take them and eat them even if I have to force them down your throat.", she says in serious scary tone with a serious expression on my face.

I tried keeping a straight face bit I couldn't. Her being this serious was rare and it was funny so, I started laughing.

"Oh so you think it's funny.", she says getting up and I put my hands up in surrender.

"No no, I'll eat them if it makes you guys happy.", I say as I start to eat them.

After a little while I hear footsteps then someone sit down next to me. My instant reaction was to punch them but I just turned to face towards them.

When I see who it is, I see Chase sitting down next to me and I roll my eyes. It seems like I've been doing that alot lately.

"What do you want?!", I ask in an bored and not interested tone.

"Well, I was seeing if you made up your mind. You know if we can patch our friendship up.", he says and I make an 'Oh' expression.

"Um yeah, about that....", I trail off and he sighs.

"Let me guess, you forgot like usual, didn't you?", he asks in a knowing tone and I sigh.

"Maybe just a little but I've had alot of drama and things and other stuff on my mind too.", I say quickly and he nods.

"Can I at least sit here for today?", he asks and I look at the rest of them and they shrug.

"It's up to you Ryan.", Stacy says and I sigh.

"Fine but, you better hope to God that this isn't some kinda prank or something cause I will kill you hide the evidence to where nobody can find it and also hide your body to where nobody can find it. Trust me I know how to do all of that.", I say to him and his face held an expression of fear and shock.

"D-do I even wanna know how you know how to do all of that?", he asks and I giggle and shake my head.

"Watch to many murder mysteries and listen to others conversations too much.", I say and he sighs in relief.

"Hey, I never said that I've never done it before.", I say to him giggling a little more then continue eating.

After that we just talk and joke around, and etc, well at least until the end of lunch when the bell rings. They get up and throw away their trash as they start to walk outta the cafeteria towards their next period. Which was gym class. One of Ryan's favorite classes even though alot of times she's in a ton of pain but she does her best to hide the pain.

😌" At Gym Class "😌

Ryan grabs her gym uniform outta her bag then sticks her bag in the locker she was assigned to. She goes to one of the bathroom stalls and closes the door. She uses the bathroom, or at least acts like she does she does all that jizz jazz afterwards and changes into her uniform cause she doesn't want anyone seeing her scars, bruises, burns, and cuts she has on her body.

Although the bruises, cuts, burns, and scars could quote possible be blamed on her clumsiness if she didn't have so many. She's glad that she doesn't as much bruises where the skin shows with her shorts than the rest her body. She unlocks the bathroom stall and walks outta it. She washes her hands and walks outta the locker room's bathroom. Since she doesn't have Ember, Stacey, or Summer in this class today she sits alone in a corner.

"Alright class, everyone is ready let's go out to the gym room.", the lady coach says and opens the door for us to walk out to the gym room.

After all the drills and what not, we get in a line and wait for the coaches to tell us what we are doing for the day.

"Alright class, we're gonna be running the mile for today, I expect all of you to at least be done by 15 minutes.", one of the coaches say and mostly everyone groans. I don't I mean, I love running.

Anyways, now we're walking out to the field and we're waiting for the coaches.

"ALRIGHT CLASS! READY SET GO!", the guy coach yells then blows his whistle. everyone takes off fast while I just jog. Like what's the point in wasting all your energy in the first few laps when you can use that energy for the last lap?

Come on people think smarter not harder. I think to myself as I continue to do the 5 laps that are needed.

🤗" After Gym Class "🤗

As aspected, everyone wasted their energy for the first few laps. I mean, what did they expect, to win a trophy or something? I swear, people are stupid sometimes... cough cough..... alot of times. I think to myself while I'm changing in one of the bathroom stalls.

After I'm done changing I get out of the bathroom stall and go into the locker room. I sit down after getting my things outta my locker.

The bell rings and just about everyone is sitting down.

"Alright class, go to your next period.", the coach says and everyone gets up and starts leaving.

As I get up to leave, someone shoves me into the lockers and walks away. I have no idea if it was on purpose or not but it's whatever I guess.

I get back up and walk outta the locker room and to my next class.

😓" After School "😓

I walk to my locker and get all my things I need for my homework and what not out. Afterwards I walk outta the building only to see a big circle.

Oh God! How much more drama can my life take?! I think to myself as I walk down the few stairs and quickly push through the crowd not caring how rude I'm being.

Once I get to the front of the crowd I see what's in the middle of the circle. Ember, Blake, Summer, Stacey, and Chase were all standing in the middle.

They were arguing back and forth.

"WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU TRY TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO HER?! YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HALF THE SHIT SHE HAS DEALT WITH AND HAS TO DEAL WITH YOU GOD DAMN ASSHOLE!", Stacey yells at Chase and my eyes widen.

Well damn Stacey, look at you being all savage queen. I think to myself and giggle

"Oh, I know a hell of alot more than what you think.", Chase says in a tone that can only be described as pure evil. I walk to the middle in between them and turn to look at Chase and then at my friends.

"Alright, I wanna know what the hell is going on here!", I exclaim looking between them. Chase speaks up first.

"I was only trying to stop them from spilling these secrets of yours that you've told them.", he says innocently and I roll my eyes.

"Mhm, we'll go with that. Now Summer, tell me what really happened pl-", I say before Chase cuts me off.

"Wait!", he exclaims and I turn around with a sigh of frustration and look at him.

"What?!", I said in angered tone. He flinch put collected himself.

"You still don't trust me? How do you even know if I'm lying or not?", he asks in a soft tone and I sigh.

"For starts, no I still don't trust and I told you this at lunch, didn't I.", I say in more of a statement than a question. I start to turn around but his voice stops me.

"You didn't answer my other question.", he says and I sigh again looking at him and rolling my eyes.

"You really are stupid.", I tell him and a small laugh escapes my lips then I smile.

"For starters, I can tell when you're lying cause your left I twitches and you can't keep I contact, that plus I know you. We used to be best friends and plus I'm very observant. Hell I can tell when just about everyone here is lying.", I tell him then turn around looking at Summer.

"Now hopefully, you can tell me what's actually tell me what's going on here without being rudely interrupted, please.", I say and she nods.

"Well, We were just minding our own business, walking outta the school building talking when heard this dingus...", she says pointing at Chase

"And all his jock friends laughing and talking about you. They were talking about this bet that he had to do and he said it'd be done soon.", she said and I turned around glaring daggers at Chase.

"So, what was the bet Chase?", I ask in a calm voice..... a tone that was too calm. He looked scared for a second but stood his ground.

"Does it matter? How do you know that she's not lying? Maybe she's just really good at lying or she's manip-", he says before I shove him to the ground and then put one foot on his chest.

"I told you already, I know when a person is lying. Trust me I've had plenty of them!", I say through my teeth as I start to get really angry.

"Now tell me, what is the bet that is oh so quite possibly worth your life?!", I exclaim in anger putting more pressure on his chest with my foot.

"Okay, okay! I'll tell you!", he says and I take a little pressure off his chest.

Apparently, just enough for him to yank me to the ground and get on top of me.

"GET OFF OF ME!", I yell at him and he 'tsk's me. I look behind him to see Blake coming over, I shook my head and he gave me a confused look and I glared at him and he sighed going back to where he was before. Chase leans down to whisper in my ear.

"Ya know, you're really pretty. To bad that what's underneath all that clothing probably looks disgusting.", he whispers in my ear and I knee him in the back then punch him in the key hole.

Yep, I'm gonna most likely get in trouble for this.

"I TOLD YOU TO GET OFF OF ME, YOU DISGUSTING FUCKING BASTARD!", I yell at him as I get up, he starts laughing and I look at him confused.

"You call me a bastard...", he says as he gets up off the ground.

"When in all reality, you're the bastard.", he says walking closer to me and stopping right in front of me. He puts his mouth near my ear so he could whisper something.

"I'm not wrong either, am I.", he says in a knowing tone. I gulp nervously.

"So, I am right. You are actually a bastard.", he says as he stands back up straight and looks at my face expression.

He smirks knowing that he won this time. He walks away and I stand there in shock.

I need to go home. I think to myself as I start to walk in the direction of my house.

"RYAN! WAIT UP!", I hear Stacey yell I stop turn around and look at her. Ember, Blake, and Summer are standing behind. I take a deep breath and look down at the ground.

I know they're my friends, and I love as if they are my family. I'm sorry guys, I hope you guys will understand. I think to myself as I look back up at them tears threatening to fall.

God! I'm such a baby! I yell at myself mentally taking another deep breath.

"Guys, you know I love you all, as if you guys were my family.", I start to say trying to make my voice not crack, they look at me and nod.

"You guys helped me g-get through al-ot of th-things I probably w-wouldn't have gotten through by myself.", I say to them my voice cracking as I say this.

"Okay, why does this sound like you're making a goodbye speech?", Summer asked and I look down.

"Cause it is.", I say in an almost inaudible voice

"No.", Ember says and I look at her confused. She looks up at me and shakes her head.

"No. You're not allowed to do that!", she exclaims and I glare at her.

"You think this is easy for me!", I say raising my voice as my voice also cracks.

"You think I wanna ruin my friendship with you guys!", I start to yell.

How dare she decide what I do and don't do.

"No that's not what I me-", she says before I interrupt her.

"WELL CLEARLY! CLEARLY THAT'S WHAT YOU THINK!", I yell getting angry.

"I'M DOING WHAT I THINK IS RIGHT! I'M TRYING TO PROTECT YOU GUYS FROM MY SCREWED UP LIFE! SOMETHING I SHOULD'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO FROM THE BEGINNING BUT NOOOO! ME BEING THE DUMBEST PERSON ALIVE DECIDED THAT IT WAS MORE IMPORTANT TO NOT FEEL SO LONELY, TO FINALLY FEEL LIKE I BELONGED SOMEWHERE! BUT NO! MY LIFE JUST HAS TO BE THE WORSE AND TAKE AWAY THE ONLY PEOPLE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME, ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT ME!", I yell at her and she flinches. My mood went from angry to sad.

"I'm so sorry guys, I can't have you guys as my friends any more, it's better this way anyways.

I say and then walk away to my first hell. To my "home".

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Hey ladies and gentlemen! Wow 2631 words in this chapter!

I think that I'm gonna have like one or two more chapters left for this book then probably start working on the second one.

Well, bye! Sorry for such the long wait too guys!

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