#13

Yeah no my life is being close to being non existent Lilah has been ignoring me the whole weekend I tried calling and texting she didn't even text back and Ryan you may ask? He's a dick he's also not responding to my texts. A shrill wakes me up from my BTS dream I drag my lazy ass to the bathroom and start showering. You know how you almost fall in the shower? I almost fell and banged my head on the basin instead I'm now sporting a shiner luckily it's covered by hair and the pain the headache god.

"Kyle stop masturbating and let's go fucking go!!" I yelled I'm having a migraine and the shithead is taking his time in the bathroom doing whatever he's doing urgh! After a minute he's out and smiling like the bastard he is. "What's got you in a happy mood?" I asked. "What got you in a bitch mood?" He retorted. I rolled my eyes. "If you must know i was texting a person and this person is great and that's all I'm telling you until we have to marry or you catch me with them." He said smiling like an idiot in love. "Ohhh do I know this person?" He shook his head. "Nope but you will all in good time Lil sis." He said I scowled I'm not telling him I'm older I'm not I'm not.

We pulled up at school hugged each other and went inside. The sky was gray and gloomy it was about to rain. I was nervous I'm going to tell Ryan that I like him. As I walk more like push my way through the hallway to my locker I see Lilah at her locker with a short blue haired and pierced girl I walk to them. "Hello." I greet and Lilah rolls her eyes and turns to her locker. "Hi." The girl greets back and she's beautiful I mean curves Nd cute smile she's adorable. "Lilah I need your help." I say she looks at me blankly. "I can't help you." She says "But you didn't even hear what I want help with." "And that means I'm not interested." My jaw drops what? "Lilah..." The girl beside me says softly but gets cut off by Lilah dragging her forearm. "Let's go." She says to the girl. "And who's this?" I ask they stop. "It's my friend Gemini since my only friend ditched me." Lilah replies bitterly. "No I didn't ditch you. You replaced me? Wow don't get comfortable Jermany she doesn't." I say with my bitterness I'm also angry how could she. "Shut up Xaé shut the fuck up okay. Fucking go to your boy toy and leave us alone like you did to for the past weeks X WEEKS!" she screamed the last word. The hallway quitened down. She turned to leave and I let her if she wants to play we're not friends game oh she's on.

It was now English period and I now realise how bitchy I was at Lilah and Jermany I feel extremely guilty and lonely but I'm not saying sorry first. Mr Bennett got in and reached I kept looking at Ryan's seat and he wasn't there. "Now what happens with connotations..." He was cut off by the door slamming open and Ryan walked in. "Sorry I'm late sir I was showing a new girl the school. Principal orders because I was already late." He said awkwardly. Mr Bennett chuckled "Okay sit down the girl... introduce yourself." And I looked at the said girl. She was beautiful gorgeous a goddess and also nice shape dude she was the definition of beautiful. "Hello guys I'm Rosie Carlwaters I'm from Florida I moved here on Saturday." Her velvety voice has girls scowling and boys hypnotized. She was perfect and looked nice then she smiled I swear the male population in class almost dropped dead.

"Thank you Rosie I'm your English teacher Mr Bennett sit down next to Gerald over there." He pointed next to an excited Gerald the boys were so jealous of him. I looked at Ryan and he was grinning at her and practically giving her heart eyes. I waved at him and he noticed me and quickly waved. I smiled my heart jumped. Mr Bennett got on with teaching.

It was now lunch and I'm sitting alone. Im bored as hell right now. My mind found itself thinking about Ryan I wanted to tell him how I feel I have to I can't keep dying over him without knowing how he feels. I took out my phone and texted him.

"hey can you come outside I need to tell you something." after a few seconds three dots appeared followed by

"okay coming." Yaay this is it I'm finally doing it but what if he doesn't feel the same? The hell am I doing? Shit shit! I haven't even got a chance to text him that he must not come he appeared with a smiling Rosie the hell? What's she doing? "Hey Xaé." He greeted and they sat down across me. "Uh hi." I say lowly. "I'm Rosie." she stretched her honey skin for me to shake that's a tan? Wow. "Xaé." I shook her hand. She nodded not even a "I've heard so much about you?" Wow! "So what did you did you want to tell me?" He asked I froze now I can't tell him because of his Barbie next to him. "Uh...Uhm that we... Uh we need to finish the project." I said quickly after stumbling over my words. Dammit Xaé be more obvious that you're lying why don't you? "Ohh that yeah we need to finish. Can we fit Rosie in? Seeing that she's new and doesn't have a partner yet?" He asked smiling at me. "Isn't it like a pair thing? I'm sure the teacher can organise something for me." She rejected half-heartedly. Bitch! "Ohh that's now necessary Xaé doesn't mind right?"he flashed the smile. I nodded. "Yeah uhhh... I don't mind at all." I said fake smiling. "Ohh good thank you Xaé...uhmm is that all? I have to show Rosie something inside." I nodded and they went away. "Wow!" I said to myself. "Yeah wow indeed." A voice I jumped. "The hell Lilah?" I whisper screamed. "I see your boy toy finally ditched you. Now you know how it feels." She said and walked away. My heart broke and I felt like it took my lungs with. My throat closed up I was having a panic attack for the first time in months and I'm alone no friends no Ryan. My breaths cut short I felt myself getting lifted before drifting into unconsciousness. I wish it be forever because being alone isn't that peaceful.