Chapter Twelve:

Laying in his arms once again, I feel a safe like I always do when I'm with him. As he reads his stupid book, I trace over the black ink on his right rib, stretching over to the top of his stomach. It's birds flying away. I never knew he had tattoos until recently. He has one other one, behind his ear, going down his neck. I don't know why I haven't realized it was there sooner. It's in tiny black print going vertically, in all capitals reading, "IT'S ALL FOR NOTHING." I have no idea what he means by that if I'm being honest. I move on top of him, placing his hands on his chest,

"Why did you get tattoos... your so young." I say.

"They all represent something in a way and also I just wanted to piss of my parents." He admits. He flips me over, pinning me down under him.

"I could get use to being in bed with you." He tells me. I pull him into a kiss and wrap my legs around his torso. He moves his left hand to the side of my bare thigh, and the right one to my waist. He then moves his hands closer to my core and I bite my lip and giggle as he teases me,

"You know I have to go soon." I say to him and he groans in annoyance,

"I need ten minutes and I can rock your world."

"What if I rock yours?" I joke and he raises a brow,

"Baby, you rock my world just by being here with me... half naked especially." He smirks. I love when he calls me baby, it sounds so good coming from his mouth, if I said it I would surely sound like one of those annoying girlfriend's that just copy everything their boyfriend's say. I grab onto his boxers and start stroking him and he moans,

"Fuck... okay maybe you can rock my world in other ways as well." I like it when he is relaxed like this... not so tense.

"I really have to go now." I say giving him a quick kiss on the cheek afterwards. I get up and put on my pants,

"Really? You fucking tease." He says in disappointment.

"Looks like you got a taste of your own medicine." He gets up and walks towards me, squeezing my ass,

"Okay that half made up for it... but were not finished here!" Pervert.

"Want me to come by tonight?" He asks and I nod. We've been inseparable since yesterday when we talked things through.

"I think I'm going to buy you a ladder so you don't break your bones climbing that tree." He rolls his eyes then insures that he is just fine climbing the tree.

I leave his house and start walking home. I know I should have asked him to drive me but I like walking, it's relaxing. By the time I get home, I'm about ten minutes past the time I was suppose to be home, luckily no one seemed to realize so I go upstairs to Ethan's room.

"Hey, how was your day?" I ask.

"Good... you smell like a man, I would take a shower before you talk to Mom." I smell my shirt.

"Yeah, I'm going to go now... thanks." I leave my brother's room and go to mine and start undressing. Something has been off about him this past week... he's been off. He's probably upset at me over something stupid and he always gets even more upset if I call him out so I'll just leave it alone for now. I get into the shower right away, not taking my sweet time. I make sure to use a heavier scented body wash so that I don't continue to smell like Gabriel... but I don't mind at all smelling like him to be honest, he smells really good. Whatever cologne he wears smells fresh... but not the feminine type of fresh, just a really masculine, good and fresh sent. Is it bad I miss him already? Of course it is since I'm fucking attached to his hip.

Turning the shower faucet off, I grab my towel that is hanging from over the curtain rod and I wrap it around my body. I start combing through my long black hair, then put it in a messy bun.  I put on some music, playing it from my speaker and go back in my room and lay on my bed. Opening my phone I see a text from Gabriel,

"What are you doing?" He asks me.

"I just got out of a shower, now I'm just chilling." I briefly explain to him.

"Like just got out? ;)" the winking face makes me realize that the comment he is making is dirty... I almost forget I'm talking to Gabriel.

"I have just a towel on, if that's what you mean."

"Holy shit... can I come over now?"

"Nope I'm having dinner with my family soon." I bite my lip at the thought of me being in a towel with Gabriel around but quickly push the dirty thoughts out of my mind,

"I'm hungry too. ;)"

"Oh my God, bye!" I put down my phone and change into my lace night gown with matching white underwear. I bet Gabriel would like this... no! I try to get all the sexual thoughts out of my mind by thinking about grandma's and old men but I all I can think about is Gabriel bending me over... I need to stop. We're not even there yet... I mean, I want to do it but he made it clear that he wants to take it slow. Well I don't know what exactly slow is for him because we do a million other things basically every time were left alone in a room together but I respect that he is doing this. I know Gabriel has been with A LOT of women and has probably had lots of girlfriends as well and I know that this waiting thing is his way of showing me that he wants me for more than that and I respect him for that.

"You've been out of the house a lot recently Mija... have you made a friend?" My Dad asks me,

"Yeah... I made a couple, we've just have all been hanging out."

"You mean you and your boyfriend..." Ethan mumbles and I  kick him under the table. My Father didn't seem to catch wind of that comment thank God. If he knew about Gabriel, all of hell would break loose.

"We were thinking of taking a family trip soon." My Mother tells us,

"Oh yeah, like were such a family." I roll my eyes.

"Madeline... no families are perfect." "Madeline... no family is perfect." She says,

"Yeah well ours is far from it." I hate when they try to do family things when were not a fucking family. Were just people that are stuck in a house together. I hate this family... I honestly cant wait to leave. I'm counting down the months til I leave to university and I'm just about ready to start my applications. My online portfolio is finished actually and is ready to be sent in with the applications but I'm honestly worried its not good enough... I want to go to Parsons for goodness sake that is expensive as fuck and I need to have a good GPA. My grades aren't horrible... I'm not failing. I think I've only failed one class in my life and that was in middle school. I'm a solid B student but the problem is I skip and talk back so teachers don't usually like me... including my art teacher that use to be a professor at an art school, before she decided to come here to help inspiring artist so I'm probably going to have to kiss ass for a recommendation. My phone buzzes from under the table and glimpse at what or who it is when my parents aren't looking.

Gabriel's name pops up and I read,

"I'm in your room, hurry up and get up here before I "accidentally" drop something."  Are you shitting me. I ignore his text, making sure he can see I read it and go back to eating my steak.

My phone chimes again, twice only seconds later and I pick up my phone once again,

"Maddie, I swear I will drop something and make sure it's VERY loud."

"Come on I'm horny :(."  God,  he can be so annoying sometimes.

"FINE! I'm coming now." I see my brother look over at my phone and is obviously reading the text messages that Gabriel is sending but I quickly turn it over before he can finish.

"I'm full." I lie.

"You barely ate anything though..." I ignore my Mother's concern and bring my plate to the kitchen.

"Thank you for dinner!" I call out to her. Leaving my plate on the counter, I run upstairs to my room before anyone can say anything. Thank God my brother isn't a little snitch or I would have to bribe him with money or something. I close my door behind me and feel Gabriel's hands exploring every inch of my body. He buries his face into my neck, planting harsh but then soft kisses all over.

"God, how much I have missed you in the past two hours." He tells me and I shush him,

"We've got to be quiet." I say and then find myself moaning as he puts his hand between my breast. He then moves both of his hands underneath my night gown and I moan some more and he quickly covers my mouth,

"We've got to be quiet." He whispers mocking me.

His touch drives me insane and he knows it. He knows, he's the only one that can make me feel this good, despite other guys I may have been with in the past.

I turn around and press my lips on him and wrap my arms around his neck. We walk over to my bed and I push him on it, sitting on top of him after.

"Want to pick up where we left off?" I ask and he nods, like he lost his tongue. I move down to the floor and kneel down as he pulls down his pants. Were not wasting any time here obviously and I don't want to. I take him in my mouth and listen to him moan my name.

"Fuck Maddie..." I close my eyes for a second and see him and Sirena... doing exactly what were doing. He slept with her only a little over a week ago, she made him moan her name. She moaned his. I cant seem to get that out of my mind. I know he didn't cheat but her nasty self was on him. I'm not insecure or anything, I'm way prettier than her and a better person in general. I know if I told Gabriel that I'm having theses thoughts he would insure me that she means nothing to him and i'm the only one for him but that's not true at all. He's always had a spot for her in his heart. Griffin told me and he probably will forever.

I snap back to reality as Gabriel finishes and remove my mouth from him and walk to my washroom, wiping my mouth.

I splash water at my face to clean it but most of all try to get that sight out.

"Hey you okay?" He asks, joining me in the washroom.

"How many girls have you been with?" I totally ignore his questions,

"Uh I don't know... why?" I don't know is just another way of saying a lot or more than I can count on my fingers. I'll admit it... I am a little insecure. I've never been before but Gabriel is absolutely perfect looking and makes me look like a toe.

"I was just curious." I sit down on the counter top beside the sink and he moves right in between my legs and puts his hand on my cheek,

"None of those girl's mean anything to me anymore... I only want you." I look away from him as he calls me out for my insecurities,

"Maddie... your ten times more gorgeous than all those girls, with and without makeup.... Especially without though." I smile slightly at his words,

"It's a normal response. Do you think it doesn't bother me that other guys have touched you? God it makes me feel insane but from now on... I'm the only one who is going to touch you and kiss you and same goes the other way around." He gives me a quick kiss.

"Yeah, but your body count is much higher than mine... mine is only like two or three, you don't even know your number." I point out and he sighs. I can tell he is getting frustrated by the way I'm talking but he is trying hard not to show it.

"Baby look, I can't change how many girls I have dated and been with but it's all in the past but I'm faithful to you." I know I am hurting him by showing doubt, I shouldn't doubt him but it's hard not to since he doesn't really tell me anything about himself.

"Your right I'm sorry... I guess it's just the thought of you and Sirena that day." I admit.

"Trust me when I say, I regret that so much." He wraps his arms around me, forcing me into a hug.

"Besides that was just intimate, like most of those relationships... me and you have something so much more than that, you're the only person that seems to see me not as a horrible fucking human being."

"Everyone fucks up Gabriel." I remind him.

"Yeah but I've fucked up really bad... worse than others." I don't know what he means by that but I know who it might involve.

"Unless its multiple murders, I doubt it's worse than others." I joke. He stays quiet and I know whatever he did, he feels really guilty about it and I really hope one day he trusts me enough to tell me about it.