Chapter Nineteen:

I end up falling asleep and when I wake up my bladder is fucking full.

"I got to pee." I announce.

"Good to know." He says and then comes to a realization.

"Oh shit sorry... let me help." He throws me his grey sweater that I bought him and I try to sit up and put it on.

"I said let me help didn't I?" He gets up and walks around the bed and grabs my hand and helps me up, leading me slowly to the washroom.

"Ouch." I say.

"How are you feeling?" He asks like he didn't get how I felt by my "ouch",

"A little uncomfortable and I'm in some pain." I tell him.

"Next time we have sex it won't hurt... you'll actually get more pleasure out of it." He insures me and thank the lord for that... I swear if I have to feel that pain again, I will never have sex again.

"I think I can take it from here." He lets go of my hand and I do a little waddle the rest of the way to the bathroom. He starts to laugh at me and I flip him off,

"It's not funny Mr. Grey... its very painful!" I say and he laughs even harder. I finally get to the toilet after two minutes of struggling and boy did peeing hurt. As I wipe, I see a little bit of blood.

"Blood is normal!" Gabriel calls out,

"Can I get privacy for one moment?" I ask him.

"Nope." He is literally a child.

"Can you do me a favour and get me a pair of pants and underwear?" I ask. At least him being creepy will come in handy.

"Sure." He comes back two minutes later with a lace thong and a pair of shorts that were literally from the ninth grade and are way too short.

I give him a annoyed look,

"What did you expect me to get? Granny panties and sweatpants?" Oh my Lord.

I put on the minimal clothing he gave me and waddle back to the bed where he was already laying waiting for me to come back. His grey sweat pants and white top that he wore under his sweater are on him and I wish he didn't really put them back on to be honest.

"So does this mean we're good now?" He finally asks like I've been waiting for him to do,

"Do you take back what you said?" I ask.

"No."

"Then no we're not good now but I'm way too tired to argue and I don't really want to have that discussion right now... I just want us to be together."

"Then we don't have to have that discussion right now but were going to have to have it eventually baby."

"I know but lets just hold it off for a bit... I'm not saying to forget about it but just enjoy this moment we had." He  moves over and kisses my forehead and then my cheek just how I missed,

"Trust me, were going to have way more of these moments." I don't want to lose him. I know how that conversation is going to go and he knows how its going to go too and I'm not ready for it. Not just yet, I want to savour him for a little bit longer.

"I wish you didn't have this effect on me." I admit.

"What effect?"

"I can never stay mad at you. And even if you really fucking hurt me one day, I know I'll forgive you. I hate it."

"I think you just have too much hope that I will change. Be someone like that fucking Leandro guy or Griffin and one day your going to have to let go of that hope and when you do that, you'll let go of me." I hate that he doesn't believe in himself. I want... I know he will change. It's in his heart, he is just scared.

"I'll never stop believing in you, Gabriel."

"I know. That's why you're a good one. Bitchy as fuck but good." I hit his head and he laughs.

"Well, was losing your virginity everything you dreamed of?" He asks changing the subject.

"No, not at all, but it was good."

"Of course it was good, I was involved in it." Too full of himself. He moves on top of me again and moves his fingers between my breasts over his sweater. As his fingers move closer to my nipples I bite my lip and let out a moan as he swirls his fingers around them and pinches them,

"Sensitive." He smirks and flips back over on the left side of my bed.

As I reach over for my phone, I hear Gabriel's phone ring around three times until he answers it,

"Hello?" He says in a annoyed tone. Minutes later he talks again,

"Yeah, I'll pay."

I try not to get into Gabriel's business and give my phone my full attention but it's hard not to.

"How the fuck did you find out about that?" He yells. I turn over to face him and he looks fucking pissed. I give him a concerned look and he turns around, ignoring me.

"Well, it happened over a month ago and next time you talk to Olivia tell her to shut her goddamn mouth because I swear you don't want me to be the one to tell her." He warns.

"I promise you I'm fine... don't worry about me, just worry about yourself." Who is he talking to? Some more time passes of Gabriel staying quiet and listens to this mystery person talk,

"Bye, love you too." He says before hanging up the phone. He starts putting on his shoes and grabbing his stuff without a word,

"Who was that? And where are you going?" I ask him,

"No one important, I promise and I got to go handle a few things at home." He leans over the bed and gives me a kiss.

"I'll see you at school tomorrow and hopefully you will actually talk to me." He jokes.

Climbing out the window, he leaves me with no answers, secrets and more questions.