Chapter Twenty-Eight:

Scared is the only word I can use to describe how I'm feeling. What the fuck have I done? I ruined everything... if Gabriel finds out... we're not together anymore, I almost forgot. I know I'm going to hurt him though, if he admits it or not and I really hope I do. I hope it fucking kills him inside the way he is killing me. I can imagine Sirena or some other hoe's slimy hands on his chest... it makes me sick and I really just want to throw it in his pathetic face that I fucked someone else but at the same time I don't because I'll just end up hurting myself... and Leandro. I realized that revenge wont make me feel better and no one deserves the feel the way I'm feeling... haven't I grown? If this was almost five months ago, I would fuck everyone that Gabriel hates just to get back at him and not shed a tear but ever since I've moved here and I met him, Leandro, Griffin, Angelica and even Rose, i've changed as a person. I'm nicer... especially when we started dating. He changed me and I sometimes am glad he did and sometimes am not because the old me wouldn't feel this pain, I never cared enough to do so. The old me would have gave up after the first fight and wouldn't do shit to get him back... I guess the current me is doing the same thing. Why should I if he doesn't want me? It's not like we got into a fight and it was something that was said in the moment, I thought it was at first but he never texted or called... I waited two weeks for his call. Just hoping this was all a dream and we were going to be us again but it wasn't and now I slept with Leandro and am probably going to hurt him and ruin our friendship but also am in the mood to hurt someone and I guess that's what I'm doing. I've been avoiding Leandro for days. He tries to text, call even come over but I am ghosting him you can say. I feel horrible obviously but I don't know what to say to him. I... I don't want to lose him, I cant lose him... I already lost my boyfriend, I'm not going to lose my best friend too.

I still can't believe I did it. I was so sad and I thought sleeping with him would make me feel better.

"Hey, can we talk?" I feel a pull on my arm as I walk in the hallway to my next class. I turn to see Leandro... speak of the devil.

"I've got to get to class..." I say, backing away from him.

"Come on Maddie, I know you're avoiding me. Shouldn't we just talk about this?" He says and I sigh.

"There's nothing to talk about... it was a mistake that shouldn't have happened. I was sad and depressed and just wanted comfort." I admit.

"So it didn't mean anything? You just lied to my face?" I place my hand on his soft cheek.

"Leandro, I didn't lie. I do like you but I'm not over him and you know that... I'm not saying this can never happen, I'm just saying not right now. It's not fair to you if I can't give you my all and isn't fair to me if I have to lie about being over him." He softly moves my hand and holds it,

"You really love him, don't you?" He asks.

"I love you too." He gives me a smile,

"Not the same way though... it's my fault anyways, I knew that you were sad and I didn't stop you." I force him into a hug ignoring him blaming the situation on him,

"Are we good now because you mean so much to me and I don't want this to ruin us?" I say, worried.

He lifts up my chin to face him and gives me another smile,

"We will never not be good... besides your worth waiting for." I bite me lip before going on my tippy toes to give him a kiss on the cheek,

"You're the greatest." He gives me a kiss on my forehead in a friendly way though and out of no where, he quickly disappears in result of him being smashed into a locker... by... Gabriel... oh my fucking God... what do I do? After I zone out for moment, I snap back seeing Leandro and him wrestling and throwing punches at each other,

"Was this what you were waiting for?! Me to get out of the way so you make your move?!" Gabriel screams.

"You're just mad because she actually likes me! You're just a scum that broke her heart!" Leandro fights back.

"You don't know what the fuck you're  talking about!" Someone finally gets them apart while I stand in shock doing absolutely nothing like an idiot.

"No, you're the one that doesn't know what they're talking about! What gives you the right to attack me when you're the one who broke up with her? She cried about you for weeks and all you can do is sit here and act like you still care for her? The people that care for her had to pick up the pieces, where the fuck were you? Slumming it with someone else? Face it Gabriel, you ruined her." Leandro says and I try to speak but I cant say anything. I never thought about the impact it had on my friends... two weeks not saying anything to them, even when they tried to visit me, I sat there like a ghost and then a week of me having to see him everyday, then coming home and sobbing in my room and still... I cant even function without thinking of him.

I see that Gabriel's eyes are red.

"Why did you have to ruin her? She already deals with so much and you made her just as damaged as you... why don't you just do us all a favour and disappear, find another town to bother." Leandro storms off and I run after him leaving Gabriel all alone, in front of a crowd of people... I'm honestly starting to wonder where the teachers are in this school because they're never around when they're needed.

"Are you okay?" I ask, his face is red and his lip is starting to bruise but there is only a little blood,

"I'm fine, just go to him."

"What do you mean go to him?" I ask.

"Make sure he is okay, I know you want to." I nod to him without reply and start walking off.

"But Maddie..." He starts again and I turn to face him.

"Don't let him in."