Confession

Mason's POV:

After arriving back home I got some messages from my friends inviting me to this new year's party.

After arriving at the party all I wanted to do was leave because every time I see our friends she is all I could think about I know that I shouldn't, but I can't stop no matter how much it hurts me I try to remind myself that she as a boyfriend and I should move on, but I can't.

I was wondering if she was going to come to this party, I hope she do because I miss her, I missed seeing her face her voice I just missed everything about her.

I heard her voice before even looking up and I regret ever looking up because she is with that guy, I should be the one holding her hand and making her smile but no he is the one that she wants.

I decided to head outside to clear my head because I can't stand being in the same room as her. That was a mistake on my side because after a while I hear their voices and her laughter.

I quickly head back inside and get myself a drink soon the countdown started but I could even focus because she is all that is on my mind.

When I looked back in the crowd, I saw her bf with some girl It seems like he has asked her something because soon after she nodded her head yes and then they started to kiss as soon as it hits one.

I tried finding Mara because this is so wrong, she should know that her bf is cheating after finding her I tried telling her, but she doesn't seem to believe me. Then suddenly he called and she started to smile and telling him where she was soon after she did that I got up and leave and leaving I saw them hugging.

After I got home, she is all that is on my mind I tried to get her out because it was impossible to do.

I know that I shouldn't, but I feel it's right, so I started to smoke and drink just to get her out of my mind.

It helped but my heart stills hurt after seeing them happily together when he's basically cheating on her.

After waking up I regret drinking that much but it's the only thing that can stop these thoughts about her.

I drink and smoke my weekend away now I'm getting ready for school hoping that I don't see her because I don't know what I would do or even say to her.

After arriving at school, I saw them together hugging that just fucked my morning up and I start smoking all over again and walked past them.

For the rest of the day, I ignored all of our friend's and stay on the roof top. It was quite up here so I started to smoke again to shut my mind down after a while I heard some footstep and when I look back it's her.

"When did you even start smoking?" she asked before sitting beside me

"What's it to you?" I asked her

"You know that it is bad for your health, right?"

"I don't give a fuck about my health"

"Oh, really so you wanna die?"

"Yes, What's the point in living huh?"

"You have people who loves and cares for you"

"No, the fuck I don't other than my parents"

"But I love you"

"What?"