talking to him

after leaving the house i got sometime to think about how I'm gonna break the news to him again seeing as the first time that i did it didn't go has planned.

After reaching my office I still couldn't decide if i should tell him but i know I should because he have the right to know and if I tell him about them this final time and he doesn't believe then my kids are better off without knowing him then.

after some well deserve thinking I decide to call him and see if he can meet up I have gotten his number from his mom.

The ringing of the phone doesn't help my anxiety after the third ring he finally answered

"This is Chase Cruiser speaking" I heard is voice and oh my god it still have that effect on me taking a breath breathe I answered

"Umm hi Chase its umm Margaret, Margaret Miller" I said i was so nervous I haven't heard or seen him in 4 years

"hi why did you call?" he asked

"I was wondering if we could meet up this afternoon probably 3 I have something important to discuss with you" I said getting straight to the point

"I don't want to see you and I'm busy and please don't ever call me again" he said right before I could have answered he hang up the call

I stared at my phone in disbelieve he wouldn't even listen he just straight up hang up I tried calling again but this time a girl answered

"Hi can I speak with chase please" I asked

"sorry but he's busy and this is his girlfriend and I know that you are the ex so stop bothering him" she said before hanging up

so that's why he didn't want to meet up I get that now from now on if the kids ask about their father i'll just tell them that he died