Kuroo's Fear

Normal yet euphoric. That's how my relationship with Kenma is.

He acts like usual even after we started dating but his clinging when it's just the two of us, became frequent and also those stealthy kisses he made whenever no one's watching, became a habit of his. Those rare little gesture of his makes me fall for him even more.

Our three months of dating, only consist of kisses and foreplays because I know that his first time will probably strain his back and might end up not going for club activities. That's why I patiently waited for the right time, but Kenma is so cunning that I end up doing him until morning for our first time.

When I got home from sending my family to the train station for their hot spring trip, I saw Kenma's shoes on the entrance. Meaning, he went straight to my house right after their training. I already retired in the club and just visiting from time to time before I graduate but it doesn't make Kenma and I spend little time with each other. After all I live just right next door to them.

I washed the dishes first before heading to my room just be stunned when I saw a half-naked Kenma curled like a cat in my bed while playing on his mobile phone. I swallowed numerous times while trying to count in my head for me not to ravage his small body, before sitting below my bed to avoid myself from looking at him.

"How's practice?" I asked to make a light conversation with him even though I'm having cold sweats because of his tempting appearance.

"Nothing in particular." He answered before putting down his phone on my bedside table and embrace me from the back.

I flinched from the sudden contact of our bodies. And I felt Kenma's smile on my shoulder as the tips of his fingers starts tracing from my neck down to my now saluting hard on that can easily be seen from my pants.

"Kuro." He whispered seductively in my ear that send sensations all over my body. It wasn't the first time that Kenma initiated anything but it is the first time that he does it directly.

I turned to my side so our eyes would meet just to be astounded when I saw his blushing face while looking at me as if he wanted to be ravished, so I didn't fail him. I grab his nape and gently pushed him so our lips would meet. Kenma closed his eyes and so do I, as we feel each other's lips and tongue. I couldn't restrain myself and bite his lower lip gently that made a soft moan escaped his lips.

Gently, I pushed Kenma on my bed and went on top of him as we continue kissing more deeply and more wanting. And my hands start to caress his delicate yet seductive body making it arches in my every touch. Unlike before where he just let me ravish his luscious body, lying still. This time, his hands also starts playfully touching mine as well, not wanting to be overpowered by me.

I quickly take of my shirt and kissed his lips once more before I starts licking his earlobe down to his neck and suck it off to leave a mark on it. I've been wanting to put a hickey on him ever since we started dating to drive away the bugs who still wanted to get close to him but I couldn't before because he might not want it but now, I just can't stop myself from doing it so.

"Ngh... Kuro stop it biting me." He asked in between pleasure and pain while I'm nibbling with his nipples.

I snickered but I did stop what I am doing and looked at him lovingly. "Then why don't you tell me what do you want me to do to you?" I asked while gently trailing my fingers from his neck down to his exposed body until I found the hem of his pants that made him breathe heavily.

"Nothing in particular." He said while trying to hide his flushed face with his arms.

I chuckled on what I'm seeing and so, I slowly insert my hands on his pants that made him gasped when I starts touching his hard-on that's leaking with precum just because of what I did earlier.

"Are you sure? You may not realize it but the words you just said is not matching what's written on your face." I said in a deep voice while slowly taking of his pants to let me see his perfect and luscious body that I've been craving for so long.

I lowered myself that made him grab my arms stopping me from what I'm planning to do.

"Don't you- nnhhhnn... "

I didn't let him finish and starts sucking him off that made his already flushed face redder with both embarrassment and pleasure as he tried to suppress his moan with his hands.

I already did it several times with him but he still feels shy whenever I give him heads even though he looks like he loves it. I suck him off until he trembles as he shot his load inside my mouth that I willingly swallowed leaving only a few to use as lube for his hole. He flinched when I insert a finger on his cute hole and I felt his body tensed a little. So, I start licking it too to his protest.

"I won't put mine in yours, babe. I'll just let you get used to it." I said when he tried to pull me up.

"Stop....using your... Nnhnn... haa... tongue." He whimpered in pleasure as he bites his arms to suppress his moans that's getting louder every slick of my tongue.

He made out a sexy moan when I inserted my tongue on his hole while stretching him more. I glanced at him when he trembled while cumming, his face is already in a mess and tears is brimming down on his face that made me panicked.

I hurriedly get on top of him to hug him tight. "I'm... I'm sorry. Damn! I'll stop now just stop crying. I won't do things you don't like anymore."

But he just grabbed my nape and kissed me hungrily instead that stirring me more, making it hard for my ego to control my Id.

I tried to push him away cause any more than that will be dangerous. "It's getting troublesome. Let's stop here." I said breathing heavily that made his expression blank.

"Why? Am I not as good as Tsukishima? That's why you're not doing anything with me? Do you like someone who is more experienced to this?" He said in a cold voice that made my brows knot.

"It's not it! I just don't want to strain your body. Besides... You cried when I try to stretch you earlier, didn't you?"

Kenma's face flushed with red as if remembering something embarrassing. He looked away but didn't let me go. "It's because it felt so good that I can't help but cum alone. Somehow, it feels lonely that it's just me who's feeling good." He mumbled shyly that riled me up.

I let all my inhibitions gone and just do what my heart, mind and body want to do with him for so long. And my beloved Kenma wholeheartedly accepts me with his all.

I couldn't remember what happened next, my mind went blank and all I know is that when I'm back to my senses, I'm already inside him, thrusting my hips hardly. Only moans, Kenma's cries and the arousing sounds of our connected bodies would be heard inside my room. The pleasure of being connected with the person I love is heart-warming. Kenma's warmth is a lot different and a lot more arousing than any of his replacements.

"Kuro....nn...haa..."

I turn Kenma's head and kissed his lips that looks lonely as I keep pounding him from the back not letting him escape from my grasps even if he tried to pull away because of the pressure and pleasure that he's feeling for the first time.

"Don't run. I won't let you." I whispered hoarsely before licking the back of his ears down to his nape and starts nibbling on it.

Kenma's cry gets louder when I thrust inside him deeper. His body is like a catnip, it gives heavenly feeling, making me crazy.

"It's sca...ry... Mmnn..." He cried that really stirred me up almost made me cum. I pulled away and let him face me before thrusting once more inside him. I don't want our bodies to part so long. He arched his body when I thrust deeper to the hilt.

"I love you, Tetsurou." Kenma said while crying that made me tear. I can't contain the happiness I felt when I hear those three words from him for the first time.

"Me too. I love you." I said and keep on pounding on top of him until he cum.

I made a few more thrust and when I tried to pull out when I'm about to cum, he crossed his legs on my hips so I won't pull out and looked at me enticingly, stirring my whole being.

"Don't pull out! Cum inside me. Just clean me up- ahh..." He didn't even finish his words because I already cum inside him that made his body quiver.

Breathing heavily, I looked at him once more with desire clearly written in my eyes. "I'm sorry. I don't think it's enough."

Kenma's eyes widened when he felt my hardness inside him once again as if the heat didn't subside even a little. He couldn't do a thing and just let me ravish his body all night and until we woke up in the morning.

Our first night, is one of the best memories of ours. I never knew that making love with the person you like is totally different. It has a different feeling on it and the pleasure is totally different from what I felt with my random partners, a lot different with Kei.

We have been together for four years. But just like any other relationships, we also had fights. And because I love him more, I always end up yielding on him but I don't mind because I only want Kenma.

We became both professionals on our fields. Nevertheless, I always make time for him despite my busy schedule. But being Kenma's lover doesn't mean that I am his number one person. At first, it was okay.

I know that what drives Kenma to play volleyball is Chibi-chan. But when even until now that we're already adults, even until now that Chibi-chan is trying to fly on his own, Kenma still considered him his favorite person, little by little I'm being blinded with jealousy specially when he rejected us to live together.

He keeps looking out for Chibi-chan, even going back and forth to Brazil every single time that Chibi-chan has a beach volleyball match.

It made me frustrated. Especially when Chibi-chan broke up with Kageyama-kun. The time we spend lessen that it makes me think that I am the other man. So, by the time that Hinata-kun came back to Japan, I am already on my limit. I am already exhausted. I feel so neglected.

That caused me to cheat on him when I once again met the still same uncommitted Kei during the match of MSBY and Schweiden, I got swayed by loneliness so we hooked up once again. And that's what the scene Kenma witnessed when he unexpectedly arrived in my apartment when he's not supposed to come that day.

I could still recall how his golden cat-like eyes looked at me like I'm some wild beast from his game that he wanted to slay, before it turns cold. So cold that it'll give you chills to the bone. He didn't say a word and just left while Kei and I immediately get back to our senses and didn't even have the will to finish what we started.

I followed Kenma right away to his house. I was expecting him not to open his door for me but he lets me in without a word. He only asked me my reason. And when I told him I feel neglected, he got lost with his thoughts for a while before he guides me to his room silently.

I already thought that there's something wrong with him when he went on top of me and starts kissing me hungrily. And me being so weak to him, I didn't notice that he has plans to capture and punish me from cheating on him.

"I'm sorry." That's all I could say after the long silence between us but Kenma's next set of words totally sends me to hell.

"Do you want to break up?" He asked coldly that even the fire in hell won't melt the coldness of it.