Resolution

I smile sadly when Kuro apologized after the long silence between us. I wonder who's really at fault between us. Why everything's starting to crumble? Is it because we've been together for so long that's why his love for me is fleeting?

"Do you want to break up?" I mumbled coldly that made him stiffened on where he stands. I glanced at him and I swear that I almost cling to him when I saw how hard he bites his lower lip to stop himself from crying.

"No, I don't. I don't want to lose you." He said in a cracked voice almost as if he's telling it to himself.

"Even if I do the same thing you did to me?"

Kuro lowered his head before he gets to answer. "Yeah."

"Even I keep on doing it until this pain you inflicted on me disappear?"

He nods while clenching his fist.

I chuckled. "Then I guess you don't love me that much if you're that willing to let me fuck random guys." I said coldly and stand up to go back to my work room.

"Kenma."

"Don't come back here for a while Kuroo-san. You're being bothersome. Stop pulling stunts like today." I was about to leave when he grabbed my arm and pulled me for an embrace.

"I DON'T WANT IT! I DON'T WANT ANY OTHER GUYS TO TOUCH YOU! TO MARK YOU! TO GET THEIR HANDS ON YOU! IT'S PAINFUL! JUST SEEING THOSE MARKS IS ENOUGH TO KILL ME! ENOUGH TO MAKE ME CRAZY! YOU THINK THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU ENOUGH FOR ME TO LET YOU GET EMBRACE BY ANYONE ELSE BUT ME? YOU THINK IT'S EASY?! IT'S EASY TO SAY YES?! TO AGREE ON WHAT YOU WANT JUST LIKE THAT?! IT'S NOT! I JUST AGREED BECAUSE I'M AFRAID THAT IF I WON'T LET YOU, YOU'LL LEAVE ME. YOU'LL BREAK UP WITH ME!" He shouted while I'm on his arms. He's crying so much for the first time of our four years being together. My heart aches seeing him like this but it's the only way for me to hear everything he's not telling me. Everything that he's keeping on himself. His selfish demands.

"I'm sorry Kenma. I just feel so unwanted. I feel so neglected. I already know I can't be your number one even before we got together but it's too much. I want you to prioritize me too. I feel so jealous with Hinata. I know it sounds so lame but I can't help it but feel insecure to him. I want you to only be obsessed with me. Stop looking at him with amazement. Don't get excited to him! YOU'RE MINE! DAMN IT!" He continued that made my heart flutter with happiness when he said those two words that I've been wanting to hear.

I pulled away from him and look up so our eyes would meet.

"Then you should have been honest with me from the start. How would I know if you won't voice it out? I'm analytical not the emotional type. If you won't tell me then I won't figure it out." I said calmly while wiping his tears.

"Don't do it other than me. Don't break up with me. You're mine. Just mine." He said while gazing at me with his eyes clouded with fear while holding my hand and kissed it gently.

"It's painful. Seeing you with the same person you once used as my replacement. You already have me, why did you still go to him. I'm sorry if I make you feel neglected in a way. Shoyo will always be my favorite person but Kuro, it's only you who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I might act cold but there's no way that I won't be bothered and scared if someone else is touching my property. You're mine. I already told you that four years ago, Tetsurou you bastard. " I said letting the tears that's been accumulated for the past five days.

Kuro embraced me tightly not wanting to let me go and just let me cry it all out. There's still a lot that I wanted to say but I'll save it for next time. For now, I want to cry it all so we could start over again.