Chapter 16

Love yourself so that you are loved (chapter 15)

As the weeks went by May felt that he had failed to keep the promises he had made to Sara so he started to be attentive to make her happy day of returning the money he had spent at any cost even though he knew he would spend much more on seeing her at peace she must have confused this with need so his attitude towards May became more distant and disrespectful May

May began to conquer it and here the saying that the snake tends to consume is his partner to overcome with the passing of the days every time I left his work went straight to the house of his aunt to cook because in the residence could not and prepared exquisite dishes always asked what I wanted to eat and according to what she said with that I was surprised she made massages on her feet I was attentive to any of the needs that she already had and yet for her look and not all these efforts everything started to get worse when Sara decided that customers should be served in the same room where she slept with May

And even though I went out to work very early in the morning and it was only a two-hour party to go back to, she would get him up and take him out of the room to get the clients in so as not to pay for an extra room and so as not to have to take money out of his pocket more and more and he felt more used every day he felt more offended every day he felt more trampled and that big, athletic, sculptural body

He started to feel ugly and started to use cocaine uncontrollably every weekend in a fight. He used to get very aggressive on several occasions and she tried to make him wait outside while she attended to one of the clients. He was never going to let her leave, not so much for her or for love, but for the dignity of feeling and being convinced that he used her only as a stepping stone to leave the country called Venezuela, which was in a terrible crisis.

However, she was only looking in her pocket and her desire to have a lot of money that she supposedly would use for the operations that she believed were necessary, one in her foot which had been deformed by a silicone surgery that had been done in the buttock and with which, because it did not keep its respective rest, it migrated to her foot, forming a huge scar of more than 10 ctm from an operation due to a bull that had been operated on. I had promised myself in the beginning to help her with all of this, to help her get back together and that both of us would help each other throughout their relationship, but it never happened.

However, May refused to lose that relationship. Something in the background told her that she would have to realize that she was hurting him with her actions, but every day she was further from reality. or good morning never again a caress or even intimacy and already began to argue that she did not like much to have sex which was totally false what she did not like was to have them with him and although he obviously attracted her very much physically she was not attracted in any other way

may had severe suspicions that she was hanging out with other men but outside of work more on a personal and sexual plan however may's efforts were to the last and every day she would write to him to ask him what he wanted to eat every day he would take her a treat or make candy hearts in bed he would take her candy he would buy her ice cream or buy her desserts

may's suspicions were real this girl who had sold herself as the most innocent who according to herself was different from all the others who would never hurt him turned out to be more interested than ebamorada A short time later and almost three months of relationship may discovers that this girl had gone to Carolina's house that trans the one that mai also had an affair and had been having sex with Diego no less and no more Carolina's husband obviously while she was traveling to Chile that made her more angry because she knew that he was her ex's husband and that not for anything in the world would he allow her to hook up with him even for work

They continue to wait for things more and more had no end of fight and May had completely lost control all weekends I drank and consumed alcohol and drugs while she went to work at night because I was already psychic for the total disinterest of her and he was a complete asshole

Every time she got lost, May took money from the one she had gathered and consumed it in alcohol and vice without caring about her discomfort when she noticed that he took the money from her because he knew that she did not care about the discomfort either.

But it was a day on the subject and he thought that everything would be fixed since they went out to eat and sides took pictures the last photos and he promised to take her a synovular injection at night to get high so that she would continue to embellish I buy food just after leaving work to surprise him to try to save that relationship that was no longer for love that he did but for not failing at last reality could never have fallen in love with a person with such bad feelings

Hours before leaving work and received a message from her

- hello love where are your new glasses

-must be among my clothes my life because

-not because of anything but I didn't see them and the other Ray ban lenses where they are

-that I gave them away when I got upset with you- you remember when you went on a trip for sincelejo-

-ah yes I remember okay is fine

After that he sent me many more messages which had no answer a very unpleasant hunch and he started to feel bad and in the chest when he left work and the injection to the residence as always and when the manager arrived I said

-hey, gentleman, here they left her the keys, she left

May was turned around and quickly opened the room only to realize that he had taken everything including the men's glasses so much asked the massager with which he worked all personal use the packages of soap two packages of toothpaste the paper of the bath even the money to pay the rent that I she had in her pocket with all her clothes lying on the floor like garbage she didn't leave a note she didn't even leave a message thank you for everything not even an apology i don't want you anything with the worst of cowardice she just walked away maybe she felt bad too maybe she was afraid of him but a written goodbye even if it could have been better that way

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may cried for an hour and then went out and asked the manager if she said or talked about where she was going by the time the manager told her that the man who always visited her in the afternoons and slept over until shortly before he came back with her and that she had left a bill for some knick-knacks and what if she noticed that every day they asked for two cookies and two sodas because they were for him and she may have never felt so humiliated that she was paying for a room for the lover and also food

May's heart broke and she was filled with so much hate that I feel she would die of anger for her mind. She just went looking for her and found her to kill her and maybe if she had found him that night she would have done it for sure the next day May started calling people to pretend to be clients so she could find out where she was located or where she was hiding but he only wanted an explanation why so much mockery xq so much damage but she was stealthy

She even knew that the caller was May pretending to be someone else and that he was sending other people too, so the very unhappy woman told him that she was in a faraway town four hours away called Sincelejo and sent him there. action of cruelty with him when seeing in that town she answered the messages and put it to turn around all sincelejo making him spend until the last peso when taking it to the night may not have like giving back and it touched him to sleep in the street like a pauper until being able to ask for money like a beggar with which to return to montería just when dawn

He managed to get to montería defeated his heart became nothing had mocked him they had used him he wondered a thousand and one time why God allowed him to know her because God allowed such a cowardly being to come into her life to hurt him so because he allowed her to confuse her loneliness with love because he allowed her to fill her heart with illusions if God was supposed to know everything because he allowed her to come to Colombia

Many weeks went by before May could eat again, she thought about killing herself many times before submitting herself to the mockery and all the trans girls found out about the slap she was given, especially by Chirly, who warned her not to mess with her, that this person would never help her, this person would never think of anyone else but her, and she didn't listen.

The more the days went by, the more photos arrived to May on Facebook, photos by WhatsApp of the unfortunate woman with men in her bed in her own bed, taking pictures of herself sleeping with them, especially with one of them, also named Diego, messages with other men.

In the end May reacted and told himself that all those bad things that she had her body her deformity her scar her pains in her knees maybe would be for her own evil that had happened to her maybe would be the punishments that God had sent her for so many people that he had broken her heart because if he was sure of one thing May was that he was not the first to have it done and that filled him with comfort