College Life

Bella"!!

I turn and see a fair soft skinned girl with beautiful long brunette hair and enchantingly distressed hazel eyes running and flailing her arms as she approached me.

"Hey Maliah! what's going on"?

I see her concerned face as she tried to calm her rapid breathing.

"Did you hear anything about Ronnie?!"

"No? What happened? Is he ok?

"I'm sorry Bella, but I have to tell you you're my best friend and you deserve to know".

My heart dropped and felt all the blood drain from my face. I knew what she was about to tell me. This was all my fault.

I put my hand up to shush her.

I took a deep breath and let all the tension that had pooled in my stomach slowly release with my breath. I knew this was coming. Ronnie hadn't responded to any of the texts I had sent in the last couple of days. He hadn't approched me during class breaks or after school. I am sure Maliah caught Ronnie with another girl. I can feel it in my gut.

" I know what you are about to say". The hurt in my voice was inevitable.

Maliah's eyes bulged and then softened with pity.

Just with that look I got my answer.

"How did you know Bella"?

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and put the fakest smile on. I refuse to be feel sorry for myself.

"Didn't I tell you Maliah that I'm psychic and I can read minds"?

She scrunched up her nose and looked at me like I had grown feathers on my head.

I burst out laughing and I earned a scowl.

"Are you seriously ok Bella"? "Please tell me you're not going into one of those psychotic episodes where you start laughing and then end up crying later on because you don't want to see the reality of the situation"?

I am sure I will cry but not here and not know.

"I just love your expressions? Haven't I told you before that your beautiful face can take any bad emotion away"?

"Seriously Bella. What are you going to do"? Do you really not care?

Her words cut deep. I have heard these exact words from Ronnie. I am a horrible girlfriend. This guilt will be the end of me.

My heart hurts I just want to go home and cry. I love Ronnie but I knew this would come and it is all because of my obsession. How can I tell Maliah, Ronnie is with another girl because of me.

Instead of talking with Ronnie I left him on the phone while I was looking online for news on a famous pop star. Instead of hanging out with him I stayed home and made posters and chatted with other fans. How can I tell my bestie that I am obsessively in love with Zaphyr.

Zaphyr 6 feet 1, all muscle goodness. The most beautiful eyes, nose and smile anyone could have. An angelic voice that enters your soul and forever carves a place in your heart. Long strong arms that pulsate as he strums his guitar. Wide sculpted shoulders that make his shirt expand and stick to his every curve. Every girls wet dream. Zaphyr is a walking God.

Not to mention his favorite color is blue, his favorite street food is Pizza and loves hard liquor. He loves playing golf and swimming and has a beautiful home in Montreux.

Not only is he beautiful on the outside but also on the inside. He donates regularly to orphanages,homeless people, and to environmental charities. I saw him on a video where he gave a shirt to a homeless man who got trampled over by his fans. He's my charming, sincere and beautiful and my ultimate obsession.

It's all my fault, I'm a horrible girlfriend. This just proves that I am not girlfriend material because my heart belongs to a celebrity. My obsession proceeds me.

The only one who knows about my obsession is Ronnie and my mom. And he endured our one sided relationship for two years.

I can't blame him for cheating on me I brought this upon myself. I have to let him go.

I look at Maliah.

"Where's Ronnie"?

She looks at me with understanding. She knows I have to confront him while he's still with the girl.

"In the gym behind the bleachers".

Deep breaths Bella you can do this.

Let's end this once and for all.