Curse

The buzz created by Ren started to spread. My peaceful days of eating lunch at the playground were disturbed. My popularity had grown so much in few days, that everyone stares at me so intensely that if they were not bounded by fear of being punished by law they would have killed me.

The moment I saw Ren, I see this coming but the situation I am in is because of my own mistake in past.

Day by day the level of torture I was going through increased. My seniors started participating in my bullying.

They would wait for me to come in boys bathroom, and the moment I entered in that hell , 20 boys are waiting for me just like Lions who wait for their prey, but it would be a shame to compare humans to lion because Humans are much weak. First they will hold my hands,

pushing me till I hit the wall, then

everyone's comes turn by turn and they each got 1 minute to show me the worst of them. They organize a competition among themselves that the boy which will hurt me the most will be won. Each of them comes, and first they beat me through punches till their fists are stained red , but the problem was  I don't care what happens to my body, I enjoyed the pain, I never gave a reaction to their punches and kicks , I just stared in their eyes, neither I resisted, therefore their ego was hurted.

Therefore to see me beg and cry, every boy comes with a new idea of torturing me. The punches changed to blades, they cut my shoulders, they have become so much addicted to my blood that every single ounce of restriction and guilt had vanished. The catalyst in their transformation was me, the fact I didn't resist was enough for them to show the true nature of this world.

This world where every human is cruel,

The strong one exploits weaklings.

And those who don't have strength have kindness to exploit those who have already given up. The scars and bruises became noticeable, everyone even teachers knew what was going on but no one did nothing, reason I didn't do anything. Honestly I don't care about anything.

I have endured so much pain that now it has stop hurting. There is no glow on my pale blue eyes.

Today is another such boring day, I have stopped going to boys bathroom since 2 days, not because I am scared, just because it takes 20 minutes of my precious lunch period. After aimlessly looking out of the window for 3 hours , finally the lunch break started. I stood up to go to the playground,  but suddenly I was stopped by Ren.

"Hey Alex , will you go without meeting your guests."

I looked at the door where I see my seniors who accompanied me in the bathroom. They are so obsessed with my pain that they came in my class.

They closed the doors, and used a jacket to hide the camera. Since the teachers goes to the ground floor to eat their lunch ,no one is there to intervene.

I am seeing the madness in their eyes and I am seeing everything that is coming.

The leader of those senior whose name I think was Shaq spoke suddenly.

"Thanks Ren, for inviting us to beat this asshole."

I stood there motionless, the wind was getting colder and colder and I was getting numb. I heard their voices but there was no reaction no fear. Does it mean I have already became so hollow that I can't be compared to a Human.

"Yeah Shaq, such evil stupid weaklings deserved to be punished and someone need to do the job, I think we should teach him his lesson today, let us give him what he deserves."

They pushed me to the ground, everyone turn by turn came to me and threw some punches ,but this time the punches had the power of hatred. Everyone stood motionless with a smirk on their face with no one daring to go against the environment, cause that's what Humans are good at, adapting to environment, therefore in this cruel world they survived, why Humans don't accept this fact that they are a part of this world, they are superior but they don't rule this world.

Why they act like they care about this world about other humans, why they deceive everyone including themselves to hold their true nature. Why?

Everyone in my class, I can see the spark in their eyes on seeing my blood.

Turn by turn their punches changed to kicks, kicks changed to steel bottles, they didn't stopped until I have no more bruises to give them.

My face was bruised so badly that my vision had become dizzy.

Ren:" Hey girls why don't you try something, it would be fun."

Some random girl replied, "He is bruised so badly , we should take him to the hospital."

"Shut the fuck up, he deserves this."

I can't distinguish the voices anymore, I laid there emotionless. The winds have changed to blizzards and those who are called Humans showed their true hideous nature.

"See how stubborn he is, after all those beatings and injuries he didn't even apologize."

"I have got an idea, let's put some salt on his face."

"No what the hell, you're going too far."

"He deserves this and if you are supporting him then shall we do what we have done to him to you."

"No , I am sorry."

"So take this Alex, moron."

They threw the salt on my face, my face  was burning and pain was unbearable.

I shouted with pain for first time. My shriek awakened their desire to hurt.

"So pleasant."

The silence was resonating, and I could barely see any faces now, symbolic of the common nature of human. Someone approached with a blade to me, I can hear shouts but does it matter, he slashed the blade through my t shirt, with the intent to tear my t shirt. My shirt was torn along with my my flesh. And everything became black in front of me. The dizziness increased and I resigned myself to fate.

Then I found myself in the dark.

Suddenly I heard a voice.

"Alex, Do you have a reason to live."

"Who are you?"

"I am nothing, my existence is null,

I am a free soul , I am the prowess of strong."

"I don't get you."

"I'll tell you everything, first answer my question. Do you have a reason to live, do you have a purpose to exist?"

"I have no reason to live and no reason to die, I am a lost soul crushed by this Cursed Humanity."