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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

" Give me another",I say to Cherry as she stuffs the blunts she is holding.

"Copy chief",she says over excitedly .

The room is lit with red lights I think so am not sure though.... The loud music below us screaming fun. I needed relaxation or piece of mind I don't know really. I have been here for like three days straight. Drinking, smoking pot ,doing cocaine all kinds of shit.

"Hey babe",says Hayley as she comes to where am sitting.

"Want me to blow you off?"she asks as her hands are dangerously close to my crotch.

"Nahhh ",I say as she stands up feeling rejected.

"Party pooper",she says as she goes to some other guy I don't recognize but she can go get shagged by whoever she wants.

I take a shower and get ready so I can go see mama . I glance at Ella who is sleeping says she ain't feeling well .

39.Piece of shit