Let Loose

No one really tells you what being cheated on does to a person. Always questioning your worth . If I was good enough he would not have had sex with someone else ,I always thought. Maybe if I had dresses more sluttier and did everything he said then he would not have done that . I did not deserve that ,I knew it. Everytime I look at myself in the be mirror I be could only get images of that fateful night like be it was stuck in some part of my brain and I could not erase it. I broke all the mirrors in my place so everytime I looked I wouldn't get the remainder of the awful things that happened.

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The rest of the week goes on smoothly and with no time Friday reaches. I don't always go to work on Fridays and Saturdays they are my days off .

Mrs C believes that am a teenager and I need to enjoy and it's not a bother to her because on the weekends the dinnery is not always parked full like all this other days.

Soffie and I have gotten pretty close , she is really amazing .She is currently rambling about how she is worried on what she will we wear to her date with the guy at the cafe . I've been trying to tell her she will still look good with whatever she wears but no she is not getting any of that.

I personally don't have any plans for the evening just staying at home and watching some series, boring right??Were done with our lectures for the day and I just want to go home and rest.

"Could you please shut up and get in the car remember I have to drop you off at your place",I say to her as I unlock my car .

"Ummphh you always having an attitude like a sail boat without wind", she says. "Heyyyyyy why didn't you tell me you are studying poetry now huhh",I tell her grinning. "Pfffttt ,so you could rub it in my face all day naaaahhh now let's hit the road",she says as she focuses on her phone.

I drop her off at her place as I go to mine.

I reach my place and decide to start fixing a home made meal I've been eating a lot of take out. I make up my mind on cooking pasta and meatballs . I know some culinary skills so I won't burn my kitchen.

An hour later am done and God isn't it sweet the smell of the ingredients fill my house I could marry myself now lmao . So I just have to take a shower and start my not so boring night food makes anything nice. I go take a quick shower wear a baggy t-shirt and socks and tie my high in a bun I don't know why I hate the contact of hair with my skin I find it so itchy. I go sette down with my food and pick a something from Netflix to watch. After a long search I finally pick Cursed I hope it's really amazing because if not I just better sleep.

It is pretty amazing if you ask me am halfway through the second episode when my phone rings I am wondering who is calling really.

I pick up the phone and realize it's Soffie."Hello Ella ", she screams to the point where I have to move the phone away from my ear I might get an ear infection goshh.

"Hello too can you please lower your voice your hurting my ears ." Well I was excited you know how I get when am happy ." Care to share why you're happy abnormally. She starts explaining to me how the date with that cafe guy went who I've literally asked about his name four times and I seem to have forgotten it already but I this it's Ryan .

He is a real gentleman she says not my words because I don't know him clearly .

She tells me how he was chatty trying to mwithake a conversation with you her after the meal . She dropped her home and almost kissed her after teasing her and giving her a peck on the lips."Ella do you think it's bad to kiss someone on the first date??she asks me in between her rambles. Which I answered her and told her I don't know it clearly depends on how long you have known the person right I don't know if you're understanding me because she didn't which is as always. Clearly from what she has told me she is swoon by this guy.She starts asking me if I have ever met that guy who called me Hazel again I tell her no which is a big lie and she finally decided to sleep. I have met that Jade actually a couple of times ,it's like he is always following me or something.

He even comes to the dinnery on a daily basis . Always escorting me the guy doesn't get it that I can be okay on my own ,I just gave up trying to stop him. Trying to make conversations with me every time we come home.

I chuckle when I remember how his jokes are funny ....lame I know am turning into a clown . I direct my attention back to the movie I have missed almost a full episode just thinking of nothing specifically.

I decide to stop it there and continue tommorow. I just put some music on and start thinking of what I'll do tommorow cause I actually don't have anywhere to go. I should maybe stay at home and cuddle in my bed with my teddies and watch the whole day am already used to this routine.

I'll rather go to the park waitt park am I in highschool scratch that thought . I'll be at home alone again how I like it. I then realize that I didn't finish my food and it's already cold . I take the plate to the kitchen and decide to clean up the place it's really not hard cause it's me alone . I finish and return all the spices back to place and sigh as I realize that I really made a mess in here though. I grab an apple and go to bed to sleep. I am about to turn off the lights when I hear a knock and wonder who is here to see me at this time. I go to the kitchen and I see a bat at the corner I have to be prepared duuh.

I go to unlock the door and the person I see us the last person I expected to see here tonight.

"Hey Hazel happy to see me ".

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Hey loves here is another chapter as promised I hope you'll like this chapter.

The picture attached to this chapter is how I picture my Jade He is 22 years ,tall of 6'3 black hair a sharp jaw and moustache , muscular tonned body . I'll attach a picture of Soffie in the next chapter . Thank you for reading please vote and follow I'd really appreciate . The current cover has been made by @_._sueh thanks Bbg❤️❤️