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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

<p>Seconds passed to minutes and to hours which turned into days. It was becoming unbearable because my heart was still clinging with a little bit of hope. All I wanted was for him to come knocking on that door. I wanted him to tell me that I was a star. I wanted him to tell me that no matter hard the situation git he was still going to be there all the way because I was the one he wanted. Was that alot to ask for. </p>

<p>I would say that I was over it after a week but I could not. Everytime I turned I hoped that I would see him but he was nowhere to be seen. ,it was like he had disappeared to think air. I wanted to run into his arms and tell him that I was sorry for everything I had ever done that hurt him. To tell him that I loved him so much and did not want to loose him. To tell him that I wanted to start afresh with him. He was that love if mine that came once in a lifetime and I would be a fool for losing that. Everytime I looked at him I saw forever.</p>

My Knight