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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

My heart had been broken into pieces when he walked out the door. It hurt to know I was not important. I was just a piece of ass for him to fuck.

Life had gone on like nothing had happened between us. He treated me like everyone else and to make matters worse he even hooked up with girls when I was there. Everytime he brought a girl to our table I felt disgusted by myself. How did I even let him touch me?It had made my heart melt that night when he held me until I fell asleep. Everyone craved that. I wanted to be safe in someone else's arms and that day he looked like the perfect person for that job.

"Are you even listening?"asks Xander.

"Sorry I just drifted off to my thoughts what were you saying?",he asks.

"I was thinking maybe we should go to a picnic as our first date",he says as his face lit up with a smile.

"Yeah we will do that , whatever you want baby",I say as I squeeze his hand.

LIE AFTER LIE