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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

"I stopped taking the pills",I say.

"What is wrong with you , you're totally dependant on them ",says Calleb.

"I could not feel anything all they just did was just make me numb when I do not take them I feel just fine",I say as I was my face.

"You will keep to have this episodes you know that and maybe I won't be there all the time to rescue you ,you have to go see a doctor",says Calleb.

"Ppttf save me , you did not save me someone else could have just done that without knowing what was going on",I say as I take my bag and leave the bathroom as I hear him grunting.

I make my way to the cafeteria and take my good and head to the table.

"Where did you go?"asks Ella.

SECRETS