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Tear-stained cheeks, my mascara was now an ugly smudge after being ruined with all the crying I had been doing for the past hour. I could not recognize myself as I looked through the mirror. The more I stared at myself the more the tears. I could hear them in the next room. Their moans enraged me and made me feel like throwing up. I retched but nothing came out. 

Disgust is what I felt.


My life had turned out to be a chaotic mess and I wondered what I had done to deserve all that. I was a good person or so I believed.

I smiled through the pain and thought to myself that everything was going to be okay. I did not believe that myself but I had to tell myself to keep going or I would be stuck in a loop with my past trying to set myself free...

DAWN.

They all stood up from their table and went the direction where Jade and Ella went . She was their friend and in that moment she needed them.

"Hey baby are you okay?"asked Ella as they reached where Ella was sitting.

With a face filled with tears she nodded her head signaling yes . Of course she was not okay and they could see that. Soffie sat by down next to her and hugged her tightly as she moved the hair from her face. She wanted to engulf her with hugs and cover her face with kisses and tell her that everything was going to be okay. The only thing that would make Ella happy was bringing back her sister and she could not give her that. She did not know the pain of loosing a loved one and she prayed everyday for her loved ones to be safe. She saw how her friends grieved and did not want to feel that kind of pain. She was already having a hard time grieving someone who was alive how could she grieve a dead person.

TRUST