Rumor
Alexis POV
I don't know what is going on with me lately and I'm a bit confused ever since I moved out which made my anxiety even worse same goes to my insomnia that keeps me having late night sleep and my daily routine is ruined.
I guess my life is a mess that no one will ever understand about my whole life story and even my past because they might hate me of what my past have been and only few people understand me at all.
So, I guess I'm not a perfect what other people expect me to be, and I never know how it feels to be enough when people keep degrading you for what you can do for all your life but can't seem to be as perfect as you are but just an ordinary person living her life that no one can ever take control of it.
Am I really a different person? It doesn't matter anymore because I'm already drowning myself in this ocean that keeps me wondering if I should continue living my life even, I'm already hopeless because I also everything now
"Alexis" I hear someone calling my name which I can't figure out who it was, and I don't know why I feel like it's bringing everything back "Alexis" please don't mess with me and stop calling me my name because this won't stop me at all, but I pull myself back into my senses
"Alexis" I look closely and why I do see myself to her? "Do you just easily give up when you're showing yourself the weak side you are even, I know you're not?"
"Who are you talk like that to me?"
"Did you all forget what your life taught you even you lose hope just because you lose someone in your life, but it doesn't mean you already lose everything?"
"You don't know anything and stop talking to me"
"I know you because I'm the one who taught you to be strong not to lose hope when you're having a tough situation and to fight back when people try to hurt you" I rubbed my eyes to see whom I talking to and my eyes are surprise when tears start to fall because I can't seem to move myself from the pain I caused to myself and my one and only twin who I love the most
"Alesha" I sob and all I did is to cry when she is too far away from me. I try to walk to approach her but why can't I seem to reach from her
"Why are you so far away from me?" I just walk and walk but she is too far when I badly want to hug her because I miss her
"Alexis, what just I taught when someone bully you?" she said
"I fight back and stay strong"
"So, what are you doing? Why do keep showing to yourself that you're too weak?" She keeps talking to formally and I don't know what to say. Doesn't she see me that I'm crying when I badly need her by my side? Trying to reach to her but a distance keeps making us part ways.
"Why are you talking to me like that Alesha? I thought you're going to protect me when I get bully?"
"I don't know you had to do that. Being weak in front of others and being called pig because you can defend yourself to them and let yourself can criticize. When will you learn to fight alone when no one is going to help you especially me? Will you just let yourself get hurt again and again?"
"I'm sorry Alesha for being weak in front of you but this is who I am when I can't act tough all the time just because I want to but sometimes, I end up making myself fool and look pathetic"
"Sorry won't make any changes at all but if you keep saying that people will mock you and look pity at you"
"Why do you keep saying all of these things to me? Why do you make me feel worthless?"
"If you think this is all worthless maybe I should stop protecting you until you realize how to protect yourself" she said and look away then started to walk away from me
"Please don't go Alesha and I'm really sorry" that's all I can say to her
"You need to face reality when you and yourself is the only one who can help you in times you're alone and no one can protect you any longer"
"I did"
"Then that's all good even If you don't see me anymore but I'm glad that you have friends that are willing to stay by your side and won't leave you no matter what happen. I'm so proud of you alexis and mom is also proud of you" she just smile at me while waving her hands like saying goodbye then she suddenly disappear in front of me and nowhere to be found
"ALESHA!"
"WHERE ARE YOU?!"
"PLEASE DON'T DO THIS"
"I'M SORRY"
"PLEASE COME BACK"
"IT'S ALL MY FAULT"
"PLEASE DON'T GO"
"I MISS YOU"
"YOU PROMISE ME THAT YOU'LL NEVER GOING TO LEAVE ME"
I look around and run just to look for her but I can't seem to find her at all. I really regret a lot of things and it's all my fault why she died which I couldn't do anything which I promise her to protect myself but why did I fail to do so? I broke the promise I made with her and I couldn't fight back because I'm afraid that people will judge or criticize me if that happens
"WHERE ARE YOU NOW? LEAVING ME ALL ALONE"
"ALESHA"
"ALESHA"
"PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU"
"PLEASE COME BACK AND I'M SORRY FOR BEING WEAK"
"ALESHA, PLEASE COME BACK"
"ALESHA!!!!" that suddenly woke me up and I can't seem to make myself move a bit because all I can feel is pain and crying right now.
I can't say anything because my mind is mess up and I keep looking around the room because this is not mine and I do feel like living to someone else house. I just see two persons in front of me and I don't know who it is.
Trying to calm myself but I can't because I feel so lonely where in fact, I lose myself again
"Alexis"
"Alexis" this is the only time I hear them calling me
"Are you alright?" lemuel asks and why is he with me? What just happened yesterday because I don't remember at all? All I remember is I'm playing dodge ball after a minute everything went black out then suddenly, I see myself in the sea which I end up looking down.
Don't tell me it happened again, and I swear that she didn't do anything stupid in front of other students, but I don't want to blame her because I know what lisa did to me and she is just doing it to scare her and protect me at all costs. Why do I sound stupid saying this?
"I'm fine and what just happen?" I ask because I want to know what Alesha did when I black out
"At least she's fine now and I'll just go downstairs to tell mom about it because she seems to be worried about her since last night when you brought her here and she's all wet" noreline said and went out of the room
"How did I get here?" I asked
"I was looking for you because you just storm out suddenly after the class of sir davis then I can't find you until I saw your friends talking which I didn't mean to eavesdrop on their conversation because I really want to ask them if they know where you are until I heard you sent them a text saying you don't want to get to be disturb and all you want is to be alone"
"Then lovely said you're on the beach which they don't where so I start looking for you and search all the beaches just to find you even it took me 4 hours to find the right beach and ask a lot of people around the beach until I saw someone is floating at the beach when I try reach out from it that's the only time I saw that it was you and made me rush to bring you to the hospital but you told me not to until you suddenly went black out so I just thought of bringing you at our house. I don't know what just happened to you but one thing for sure is that you want to kill yourself by drowning into the deep sea and thank God that I saved you which made me really worried" he explained everything which make me feel guilty because I made a person worried about me
But one thing is that the text message. Did Alesha say that? I hope Lemuel don't find me weird because I look different person yesterday and I don't know what to say then he just hugged me making me a bit of surprise because this is the first time a guy hug me
"I don't know about your past or your problems, but I hope this hug will ease your pain and comfort you somehow because I usually do this to my sister when everytime she feels down and crying because I might not be perfect brother, but I can protect her at all costs even it means of letting myself get hurt. As of now, I won't be asking you anything, but I just want you to feel that you're not alone, okay? Trust yourself than anyone else because you're the only who can save yourself from others" he told me all of this without me realize I'm actually just listening to him without saying anything which I find it comfortable
"Promise me that you won't do that again, and you'll get through it" he sounded sincere to me and I never thought that someone truly cares about me
"I think it's about time you should tell your friends because they been calling you for more than ten times because I know they're all worried about you and leave you messages for about 30 I think since I don't want to touch your phone for your privacy" he said and handed my phone. Oh shocks, 15 missed calls from michelle then 10 missed calls from Jamie while 20 missed calls from lovely. Maybe I should tell them what happened, but I don't know how because they might find me weird
"I think we should eat breakfast now since you didn't eat dinner last night and my mom wants to see you if you're already fine" Lemuel said, and I don't know what to say but I'm thankful that he saved me, and I owe him one this time. Imagine ruining my own life when I'm the only who can fix it because no one else can when I already lost two important person in life which I really regret in my entire life putting the life of twin sister in danger
I'm going to write this one in my diary and remember what happen to me in case I forget everything and one day, everything doesn't seem to go on what I expected to be that my life will really turn upside down that my friends will not recognize nor know me for who I am.
When time comes, I'll tell them everything and not expecting them to understand my situation I live in. Alesha, don't worry and I never let anyone hurt me which I always promise you.
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Jamie POV
We don't know where alexis is and I think something happen to her yesterday because I can really see it in her eyes that she is aggressive playing then all sudden walk away after the game is done which she picked her things up and didn't even look at us, but she ends up ignoring us like we don't even exist in her eyes at all. But how come the atmosphere between her and lisa is different. Lisa had gone mad when alexis just whispered something to her that made her crazy and she talks back at sir davis which everyone gossips about her.
Lovely just laugh on how lisa look when she got scared of alexis yesterday, but I didn't know that alexis can play like that, but she keeps talking to lisa like they know each other for a long time. Is alexis close to her? Or something happens between the two of them in the past because I hear some threats, accusation, and bully. Anyhow, the situation yesterday is not we expected but our teammates are seemed to be happy the entire game and she keeps talking as different person.
This is one question that really bothers until that day. Who is Alesha? Why do she keep mentioning her name? AJ is her only little sister and no one else. I think it's her bestfriend but it doesn't make any sense at all because she keep saying twin sister. It really makes me confused, and I don't understand it. Jamie looks what you got yourself into and you can't make any theory in your mind. I hate myself when I watch too much of Korean drama and Chinese drama then I blame myself for that.
"Don't you think lovely is overreacting again? Last night, she cried because of alexis didn't went home then she gone crazy talking to herself and blaming everything. Now, she is overthinking with the things that make her feel anxious. Don't you think that too much for her to think that way?" michelle ask me a lot of question and the only word I hear is cried. Well, that is true, she did and maybe lovely repent on what she did yesterday
"Can you tell lovely to sit down?" michelle told me but lovely is still walking around
"Lovely, would you please stop walking around? Because you're making me feel dizzy" michelle said
"What do you plan to do now?" I asked because she seem feel uneasy until now and she is blaming herself for what she did yesterday to alexis and now her guilt is hunting her down but the only thing she can do is apologize to alexis than argue again. We know how scary alexis can get like what happen yesterday
"I don't know either because alexis is really scary and you know what happened when she talks to us. I can see how mad she is, and one thing is that like she knows all about my cousin alice. Do you think something between is not good?"
"Why are you asking us when she is your cousin? You should ask her instead if she did something wrong to alexis" I said
Now she is back on walking around and being anxious all the time
"Did alexis call you?" lovely asked
"Before I answer that, could you please sit down? Because they're staring at you already and you're making yourself look pathetic"
"Can anyone of you tell me if I'm too rude towards alexis or I can't stop myself being attitude?"
"What words should I put it? What do you want to hear from us?"
"Just be honest michelle and I know because you like talking to a person straightforward than bailing to bushes on what you wanted to say to someone wherein you want to hit them into reality than to believe on something which might spoiled them" I didn't know lovely could come to her senses at this moment because she regrets it the most when something bad happened
"You're too immature by your age when you don't know when to stop and you're too rude because the way you speak can really hurt someone feelings without you realizing it until you come to your senses and the way you talk is sarcastic which it will really hit you hard because of the guilt you feel"
"When will you grow up lovely? You're already 21 and turning 22 in 2 months and act on your age not a spoiled brat as it is. If you think that way, you'll never matured enough and you're too childish. I want you to let yourself act as an adult not a three-year-old asking a candy with her mom. Then again, I can't change the fact about yourself but only you who can do that. One advice I can give you, be mature then everything around will act the same thing"
"Wow, all of the things you have said is still processing on my mind and the only thing I remember is mature" lovely is still shocked on what michelle said and I hope this won't hurt her but she at it again
My phone suddenly rings and lovely snatch it at my hand "Yah! Lovely!"
"I thought it was alexis calling and I'm so sorry about that" she said and return my phone quickly
"Couldn't you do better things lovely?"
"I'm just worried, okay?"
"I've been waiting for alexis to call us. So what time is it now? Don't you think she has been kidnapped by a terrorist? Or maybe went to another world?"
"Lovely"
"Do you think she run away? Or got lost?"
"Lovely"
"Maybe an evil spirit went to her body and control her"
"LOVELY CHUA! PLEASE SIT DOWN" that's the time michelle shouted and everyone turn around. This is so embarrassing right now and I don't like people staring at us.
Lovely just sit down and michelle try to calm herself down so the atmosphere won't get any awkward. I think she had watched too many Korean dramas.
"What?"
"Just calm down, okay? Alexis is fine and nothing is going to happen to her" michelle said
"How did you know that? Did she tell you?" lovely asked and we know alexis which maybe she probably went to a hotel to stay in than sleep in the beach. How can we even calm down lovely if she acts this way
"Well, no, but we shouldn't be worried because it makes us all anxious to think that way especially you, lovely chua. Don't make it obvious because you're becoming a lunatic when you overthink or overreact"
"One more thing, you're making the situation worst than I expected. People might figure out that alexis is gone missing and lisa would be happy. You know what happened between them yesterday and do you think lisa would just let it be when she got humiliated in front of all the students in the gym?"
"Oh sorry, my bad and I didn't think that one. I think that lisa won't go to class because of what happened to her yesterday" lovely said
"Are you talking about me bitch?"
Speaking of the witch, she's here and everyone is just talking about her but now they seem to be quiet
"Excuse me, I have a name not a witch like you. No wonder why you got yourself into trouble causing a humiliation to yourself" lovely said but lisa was about to approach her but michelle just interfere and stop this two
"I'm not done with you bitch" she is really a bully, and I can see that right now
"Girl, I just found out something"
"Come on, spill it now"
"Mico is in the hospital"
"What?"
"What happen?"
"Poor thing, my baby is in the hospital"
"Not just that, all of them are in the hospital and I think someone did something bad to them"
"Like whom the hell did that to them? I'm going to kill that person"
"I told you, they got sick because of the community service"
"I guess so, but there is something wrong here"
"Don't you think since those four-transferee got here, mico always get into trouble because of them?"
Are they talking about us? Don't tell me they're blaming us on what happen to those four annoying boys who always bully us and now they feel worried when they are the one who started this. Why do they always see the worst thing we do than what those four boys did to us? As if it's always our fault
"Girls, gather around here now"
"What about it this time?"
I can't hear what they're talking about now because they just gathered in one corner and I'm too curious to know about it, but I just stay here until the professor come in. Lovely still talk too much because this is how she overreacts and thinks too many things.
"Wouldn't even wonder that they could do that to the boys?"
"Acting innocent won't make things change at all"
"It's obvious girls, you know who did it to them"
"Those bitches and they're going to pay for it"
"Shh, they might hear you"
"So what? I really want them to hear it and it's their fault because the boys are in the hospital right now"
"I think she's looking at you right now and we should turn around"
The door open then the professor enters the room and it's Ms. Lourie. One of the subjects I like the less and I don't know because I already know all the lesson about it even, I don't attend here in the class, but I don't have any other choice because I might get demerit if I have absences. I better listen now or else I'll get caught if I ignore her lesson today. Lovely just focus on the discussion while michelle is writing some notes. But all I can think right now is where alexis is.
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Lemuel POV
We're still at home but noreline attend the first class and message me quickly that Ms. Lourie will give us some tasks to report next week in her class. Now, she is calling me even the class is on-going, and I hope she won't get caught at all
"Hello, how's alexis?" – noreline
"Well, she's fine and don't worry about it. Let alexis tell her friends about what happen to her yesterday and I already told her"
"So, does alexis remember it?" – noreline
"I'm not sure about it, but I think she does, and she is still thinking and processing everything what I said to her" both are so worried of alexis but I just want her and mom to feel assure of it and no need to worry about something because this might let them think it all day and I can really see it to them.
"I find it weird last night when she keeps smiling then crying in her sleep either the dreams she has is something memorable or painful" – noreline
"Did you check on her last night?"
"Actually, I took care of her last night because I feel worried something might happen to her" – noreline
"She keeps mentioning her mom and twin sister" – noreline
"I didn't know she has a twin sister" – noreline
Noreline really talk too much which I can't even answer them all
"Noreline"
"I think she miss them" – noreline
"Noreline"
"Do you think she is living her life with pain? I mean, I never seen someone who cry while sleeping" – noreline
"You know what, her friends can't even focus on the class properly because they're worried about her" – noreline
"Noreline!"
"Ha? You scared me to death and the phone is just near at my ears" – noreline
"That almost caught me but at least my voice isn't that loud or else I'll get detention" – noreline
"I've been calling you and you're just talking too much" I said which make her stop for a bit
"Is that how you talk to your sister?" – noreline and now she's to it sounded like she's older than me
"I'm 3 months older than you, and is that how you listen to your brother?"
"Okay fine, I'm sorry" – noreline
"Is Ms. Lourie looking for us? Don't you think you're staying outside the room for so long and you're already cutting the class of Ms. Lourie" I just changed the topic
"Cutting classes? Are you out of your mind bro? It's just took only 35 minutes since I called you. But not really since she is busy discussing the topic today and I'm outside the room so that I could talk to you and know the condition of alexis. So don't worry, I won't get caught by her" - noreline
"Don't worry about it and she's totally fine now. Maybe she just needs to rest for a bit then we will go to the academy now"
"That's good to know at least her condition is good and tell me if you need anything. I'll just give my notes to you and alexis. Okay, bye and Ms. Lourie might look for me if I'm still outside the room" – noreline
"You should go ahead now noreline"
"Before I go inside the room, I want to ask you something" – noreline
I know what she is thinking right and don't bother asking me
"Why do you care so much about her?" – noreline
"Because she got hurt?"
"Not that, I think there is something else behind that reason. I saw you a while ago hugging her and I thi…"
"Just shut up noreline, I'm just worried about her"
"Wushu, really? Why do you sound nervous? Tell me, do you like her?" – noreline
"Noreline"
"Do you have feelings for her?" – noreline
"Stop teasing me. Just go back to the room and listen to Ms. Lourie class"
"Is noreline still outside?" I can hear Ms. Lourie voice
"I need to go back now and she's looking for me. Talk to you later and I know you like her that is why you care so much of her. Bye and love u bro" – noreline
She just ended the call, and I went back at the house to check if alexis is doing fine. I prepare my things and change clothes since I'm still in my short and plain white shirt. I knocked at the door and entered
"Alexis, are you alright now?" No one answered and she's not here. I just got her things and went downstairs to look for her. Mom saw me and told me that alexis is in the garden then maybe I should go to her now. But mom just hold onto my hands and seems like she wants to talk about something
"Mom, do you have something to say?" I asked and she keep cleaning the kitchen without looking on what she is cleaning. She already spilled the dishwashing liquid on the floor without realizing it and I just point out the floor and mom saw on it
"Son, do you think she'll be fine?" mom asked, and I know she is worried too after what she saw last night because alexis is not in good condition because she caught a high fever, and all her clothes is wet. But alexis not insist on going to the hospital so I just let her sleep here
"Yes, why mom?" I said and I don't want her to think any other things that would only make it worst
"Ah nothing, I just saw her a while ago crying and keep staring at the glass" mom said, and I think she just miss someone deeply that she can't held back her tears. Either the pain memories she keeps holding on or something she can't really let go until now.
I don't know her, but I can really read her facial expression and how deeply hurt she is. I don't know but why do I feel like I want to stay by her side? Maybe time will come, she is ready to let everything go and forget what is holding her back. I don't have the right to ask her about anything right now, but I'll just listen until she is ready to open to me and tell me everything.
"Mom, she'll get through it and she's a strong woman. Don't worry about it, okay? Prioritize your health than anything else" I said to her and hold her hands just to make her feel ease. I went to the garden to check on alexis. She looks calm but I can see in her eyes that she's not in good condition
"Alexis" I called her with her face full of confused which she doesn't even know what's happening to her yesterday. I guess she is still not used of it, likely staying her until our next class is up so we still have 1 hour to go before the second subject will start because it's miss daisy class.
"Alexis" I approached her, but she is just staring at the flower, and I didn't know she likes flower too which she is same with my sister
"Alexis" she turns around and look at me for 30 seconds which make me my heart skip a beat
"Oh, you're here" then she just stares at the flower again
"Yes, I'm here. Oh, here are your things and I fixed everything in the room" I said even I sounded awkward
"Do you know the meaning of hyacinth?" she asked without looking at me and made me curious because I don't know anything about flowers
"No why?"
"It means letting go of the past, not bringing in the present then it tells you that keep looking forward and keep your path" she said
"Really? That is why my mom keeps this kind of flower in the garden which I didn't know about the meaning behind it" I said
"I guess, nothing will change even it is time for us to let go of the things that we should have even it's really hard in our part to let go" she said and I think she still has a lot of things to say and I'm ready to know about it than to tell my opinion first because she might not understand what I meant on it.
"One thing for sure in life that we should move forward to see what the future holds us not by counting all the opportunities but instead of trying everything even it means of having failure in life" she continued, and I just listen to whatever she says
"Do you miss someone?" I suddenly ask even I know I don't have the right to ask that now and I can see the sadness in her and I feel like she doesn't want to tell or talk about it because she will end up crying
"I certainly do. I know you really want to ask this question, but you don't know how to" she said and turn around. We're so close and I don't know what to feel right now. She has a clear skin and pointed nose then the color of her eyes is hazel. She has long eye lashes, and her lips are soft and pinkish.
"Lemuel?" I didn't know she could be this pretty when you're so close with her and I'm not sure, but why do my heartbeat fast? When I'm too close by just looking at her she doesn't seem to be happy deep inside, but her smile hides a thousand feelings and thoughts
She suddenly stands up and fix her clothes. Then she helps me out which I hand her things to her before I forget to do so, and she is wondering around the garden
"Do you have something on your mind today, alexis?"
"Huh?"
"I guess you're still not into yourself" I said
"Why are you staring at me like that?"
"Did I? Sorry about that, I'm just checking if you're fine"
"I'm thinking on how I could explain it to michelle what happen to me yesterday and I don't they would believe on what I am going to say" alexis said and she's reading all the messages on her phone
"Should we get going now?" I said and I prepare my motorbike then get the two helmets. Since noreline use my car and she didn't even ask my permission, but I just let her be and I can't even say no to her
"I'm sorry if I cause trouble last night and I want to say thank you for saving me" she said sincerely
"No worries, I hope that won't happen again" I said, and I just smile at her
"I'm sorry if I made you, noreline and your mom worried about me. I don't have any excuses to say but I just feel empty yesterday and it feels like it is torturing me every day by then living my whole life full of regrets that someday I won't have those and let it go without looking back"
I don't know how to respond but I want to comfort her, but I don't know in what way.
"Anyway, you don't know to say anything, and I just want someone to listen to my stories. By the way, is this the first time you saw a girl cry at her sleep?" she asked but I don't know what answer I should give her.
"Why do you care about me that much?" she asked nowhere and why does she has the same thing to say like noreline?
"Do you have feelings for me?"
"Do you like me?" That made me quiet for a while, but I really feel like I want to protect you to anyone who will hurt you and never wanted to leave your side
"I'm just kidding, you look quiet for a while" she said and laugh at me. I prefer seeing her like this than to cry like no more yesterday to her. I wish she could smile often and enjoy every moment she has with her friends. I hope she won't cry anymore, and I want to make her happy because smiles really suit her.
"Let's go now" I said and to feel not awkward. I hand her the helmet and she hold on tight. The only thing I could think right now is her and I wish I could spend more time with her. I still can't her question until then when I'm already sure of it, that is the time I'll tell her how I feel but at this moment I want to be friends with her.
I start to drive out way to school and drive carefully until we arrive.
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Lovely POV
When will this class ends? I'm really getting bored, and I can't even focus on the class because I feel bad for myself for making myself look pathetic which I can't stop feeling annoyed on what I did yesterday and end up arguing with Alexis even without realizing I'm becoming immature towards it.
"Everyone, we should about the history of the past events happened in different centuries. Each revolutions have important in people's lives, and this shaped the world history" how come these students keep listening to this kind of lesson when they don't even understand it. I mean, I get them, and they want to pass this subject but are they even listening? Like, do they understand the lesson at all.
Well, for me, I already know this subject like we studied it for almost 2 years. Maybe next time, I should change my course instead staying on what I don't like. Have you ever imagined yourself sitting in a class which you don't like just because of the course you choose? I mean, you'll end up regretting it and, in the end, you're going to shift to another course. Anyway, I don't need to do that because I can be fashion designer without taking up any lesson and I already learned that when I was a kid because my mom is a fashion designer itself.
"Let's do a warmup first and a bit of introduction of what you know about the different revolution" I thought she is already discussing the main part of the lesson and that was just something she want to share to us. Is that serious?
"When did French revolution started? On what year?" no one dare wants to answer it because all of them avoid eye contact with Ms. Lourie
"1789-1799" the three of us answered it
"What a show off"
"How about Russian revolution? What year it started? Does anyone know about it?"
"1917" noreline answered and the professor is surprised by us because she doesn't expect us to know the lesson in advance
"I'm impressed and I think I could let you girls discuss the lesson which is all about history on revolution"
I knew it and I hate answering some question given by the professor because they would let you report the entire lesson without them discussing it first
"So, they're 48 students, and form yourselves into five groups consisting of 16 members. Kindly choose your leader and form your own group. Discuss it in the class the choose topic you would like to report in the class. I'll give you 1 month to prepare for it, and I see that the class is incomplete" Ms. Lourie said, and everyone is looking at us except those who hates us
"Who are absent in my class?"
"Alexis, Lemuel, Mico, Charles, Benjamin, James, Alodia, Janneth, Joven, and Leslie" I said, and the vice president is not here
"Last time, those four boys are also absent on my class. Does anyone of you know what happen to them?" she asked, and I don't know what to say because I'm not sure if they're still in the hospital and I might slip my tongue because of one mistake. Then Ms. Lourie is looking at me and I don't know why
"Since you're the president of the class, please kindly update me about them and I want to know if they're fine. Send me a report and kindly tell the vice president to go to my office later because I want to discuss something on him, and you should go too" Ms. Lourie said and what is this all about? Why did I end up getting myself into trouble especially being the president of the class?
"Sure, Ms. Lourie. I will and I'll tell him later once he is here" I said and smile even it's fake because I don't want to do face palm in front of the professor which it's kind of rude
"Okay, goodbye class and see you next week" she left, and everyone went to do their own stuff. Then alexis and Lemuel just got in time before Ms. Daisy class start. But how come Alexis is with Lemuel? What's going on between them?
"Sorry girls, I'm super late this time and I didn't know I got lost on my way back, so I end up booking a hotel" she said, and I think she is lying
"Don't tell me you did something stupid yesterday?"
"Ah not really?"
"What is going on with you? Yesterday, you were intense at playing in the game most likely you want to smack someone face then talking to lisa like you know each other for a long time. After the game ended, you just ignore us like we don't exist and you're too rude. Then you made us all worried and we don't know what to feel nor think since yesterday because the only thing we can do is to think of you, if you're fine or what" I said it now because I can't held it back anymore and I want to say it to her in person so that she would know how worried we are then I'm about to cry because I don't know what to do with her. I know I'm at fault but at least I should apologize to her before it's too late
"Don't you think you're too selfish? You only think about yourself when someone is worried about you then you didn't have time to send message nor answer the call. What's wrong with you alexis!?" I can't control myself on it and I end up blaming alexis for making as worried and sick all night
She just hugged and didn't say anything at all. I can't hold back my tears any longer and it fell. Now everyone is looking at me and I look pathetic which my make-up is all ruin. I'm way too emotional today and I hate embarrassing myself which see to it I'm going to regret this later or maybe tomorrow first thing in the morning
"Calm down, I'm all fine now and you girls no need to worry about it. At least I didn't sleep in the beach and I'm sorry for making you all worry about me, and I didn't bring my charger with me that is the reason why I didn't get to answer your calls nor reply on your messages" she explained, and she is just trying to calm me down now and I think we're fine now
"I'm sorry alexis for what I did yesterday and I'm too rude which it is not my intention to talk like that to you" why am I so nervous? When every time I apologize to someone, all my thoughts are gone then I don't know what to say next and I'm not used to do things like this, but I might learn from it.
You did a great job today lovely and you're finally doing it right
"What a loser"
"What a crybaby"
"She looks pathetic"
"Such an idiot, crying like three old"
Are they talking about me? Wah! What has gotten to these people in school? Is this how they teach their students to gossips other people than to mind their own business. I didn't transfer just to let myself be the center of attraction nor get bully to someone who's trying to kick us out here as if they own this academy.
My phone vibrates and I received an email from Miss Daisy
Daisy Quinn
Reminder for Section 4-A
Lovely Chua
From now, please transfer to the music room 505. We are not using the room for about 3 months since mostly the instrument are in the music room and we're going to take our class here. Please move on the music room and I will be waiting you here. Kindly tell the class, to volunteer on singing one song before we proceed in discussing the lesson. Thank you so much president and see you
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"Okay everyone, we should transfer now in the music room 505 since miss daisy just sent me an email today and she will be waiting for us there. Then at least one of us in the class should volunteer to sing one song before the lesson starts" I said, and everyone just ignore me. Then someone approach me and asking if the volunteer of singing is by partner or individual, but I just told them to be prepared or unless no one wants to volunteer then miss daisy would just call someone to do it. This is the reason why I don't want to be the president of the class because no one listen to whatever you say or announce to them
"Don't mind them lovely, maybe let just go to the music room instead of waiting for them to talk to you because they wouldn't even care of having a president here. But wait until you let Lemuel speak up" noreline said and I don't know what she means by that. Are they close?
"If you guys don't want to go to the music room 505 and ignore what the president said then don't bother unless you want to get a failing grade in the class of Miss Daisy. I'll tell her that and she won't think twice giving you zero in the entire semester." Everyone is quiet and noreline is just holding back is laugh so that the serious atmosphere won't be ruined by her. Now, they're paying their attention to him, and some are just listening. He suits as a president not as a vice president
"Do you think it's easy for us to handle the class and you always think the officers are just a joke to you especially the president and vice president? If you can't take this semester seriously, then go to another school wherein you can do anything you want, and no one will care about what you do than staying here" Lemuel said, and I don't know he can be that serious when it comes to his position as the vice president. They start to get their things and transfer to the music room 505 as like I said to them and great lemuel help me with this and I should at least thank him for that and now they're talking to me
"I told you, everyone is going to listen to Lemuel because he is the one who always talk to the professor and give fair treatment in the class" she is right and how does she know all of it?
"Are you close with the vice president? "
"Well yes, because he is my brother, and no one knows that. They thought he is my boyfriend" noreline said
"WHAT!!!" I shout and noreline is just laughing at me. That is why they're so close and no one even know that like seriously? Oh my gosh, and Lemuel is close with alexis
"We should go now and miss daisy is waiting for us in the music room 505" noreline said and she left
"Do you know this already alexis?" I asked her
"No, just today" she said
"Anyhow, alexis. I'm glad you're fine now and I promise not to be rude to you"
"She was crying because feeling worried and thinking of you all night" Jamie said and now she is going to expose me. Well, that's true and I don't know why I cried, and it made me look like a crybaby. We went out the room and straight to the music room 505. While walking, alexis is seemed to be quiet and I tried to hold her hands which she is smiling.
"I don't see the boys around and I hope they're fine"
"Don't you think something happen to them while doing community service?"
"Didn't you hear the rumor, that they got hospitalized?"
"What? Is that serious? What happen?"
"I don't know either"
"I think someone really wants them to get hurt"
They start to look at us and smirking like we done something wrong in this academy. I though we could study here peacefully but I guess we're wrong and michelle already told us about it yet we didn't listen to her. Someone trip me off and I fell
"Ouch"
"Lovely, are you alright?"
"Yes, I'm fine"
"What is your problem girl?" Jamie asked and they're just laughing at me. Would this day get any worse than I expected it to be? Are they insane? I didn't know that the students are such a disgrace
"Stay out of my sight, you slut!"
"Don't block the way"
"Don't ever come near to Benjamin, you bitch"
"You're such a spoiled brat"
"How can she wear dress in this daily morning? Does she host in a club or what?"
"You know what a slut does"
"For your information, I'm not interested with him, and you can have him all you want" I said
"Now she is talking back, what a shame!"
"Is this how your parents disciple you or teach you how to respect other people?" alexis said and banged them with her question
"Don't mind them, let's go now and don't waste your time to those kinds of people because they're not worth it of our time" michelle said and she help me stand up. I just want to have a peace of mind than arguing with these idiots. We still have five minutes left before miss daisy class starts and thanks to those annoying bully girls, we're going to be late
"Can we just transfer to another school? Because I don't want to stay here, and I didn't know there are still bullies" I said out of nowhere
"What are you thinking?"
"Don't be silly lovely" michelle said while looking at me and I don't know what to say to them. Its just that I hate the environment here and it's not same as the music academy because the students there are friendly and greet you everytime you passed by them but it's way to different studying here.
"Do you want to give up that easily? Knowing that those four boys would be happy if they hear this one" why stay here? When students literally gossip about you
Please don't look at me like that, I'm just tired of this kind of situation and getting into trouble even I didn't do anything wrong. Why didn't I just stay in the music academy than transferring here? Second of thought, I will fight back and let them know I'll never give up that easily just because of what these students doing to us here. We're finally here in the music room 505 and only four of us are late. But miss daisy is just busy looking at the book while waiting for the others
"Sorry we're late miss daisy" I said
"I think we're complete now and there are some students are absent maybe we just leave them first and start with our lesson. But I would like someone to volunteer for us to sing a song. Anyone would like to volunteer?" alexis just raised her hands
"Go on alexis" She starts playing the guitar and I know what song she is going to sing. One of her favorite Hollywood singers which is Taylor Swift
I'd never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
'Til you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings
But you came along, and you changed everything
"I really like alexis because she is multi-talented and knows how to play different instrument"
"That's true and I never hated her"
"I don't know why a lot of bashers say awful things to them"
"Well, there are jealous of them"
You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
Am lost in your eyes, you make me crazier, crazier, crazier
"Is she broken hearted?"
"I think she like someone"
I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue and I wanted to know
How that would feel and you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe
You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
"Have you heard that those four transferees are the reason why Mico, Charles, Benjamin and James are in the hospital right now?"
"Where did you hear that one?"
"From the other section"
"Rumors are not always true and don't let it bother you"
"Don't you think they're too much after what they did to them?" what are they talking about? Like as if they really know what happen. Therefore, I hate rumors because it starts to create misunderstanding
"I thought they're friendly, but I guess I'm wrong about them" I don't know why this students are really interested in rumors and like to believe it without them knowing which one is the truth
"I told you so"
"There is something that we don't know yet"
"Do you still remember what they said last time when they got into fight?"
"Oh yah, I remember that. They say they're going to kill them"
"I think they kill them"
"We're not sure about it and it's just a rumor"
"My poor baby"
"James, please get well soon"
"Benjamin, I hope you're fine"
"Don't you think that reason the boys are in the hospital right now because of this transferee?"
"They're too much and I hope they transfer to another school"
"Put your voice down or they might hear you. Unless you want to be alive in this academy"
"They're not princess or angel, they're war freak that we didn't know"
"What a shit of them"
"Messing with my boys, well they going to pay for it"
I glance at them, and they avoid eye contact with me. I know they're talking about us, and this is the effect of spreading rumor without any full evidence or what is the truth?
I don't wanna hide anymore
You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
Am lost in your eyes, you make me crazier, crazier, crazier
Crazier, crazier...
Alexis returned the guitar to its place and the class clap. Now, miss daisy is about to discuss the lesson and everyone now is ready to listen while I'm still bothered by this rumor, and they keep gossiping about us.