chapter 5

' wtf ' I whisper

' hey '.

' hey '

' um...you dropped your credit card at my house...--

' thanks '. he stretch toward the card and I collect it. ' come in '

' nah, I just wanted to drop your.... uh card thanks.'

' okay, bye.'

' bye '. with that I close the door turning back I found Remi just behind me.

' is that the you slept __'

' yes .... he stopped by to give me my card.' I show him d card in my hand.

' you gave him your address?'

' no,no. I never thought of that. I should have asked... and there goes the I don't believe you face. I'm serious ' he back off to sit back on the couch ' Remi! ... why can't you believe me why can't you for once.'

' look _ '

' and wats your problem any ways. it's not like I can't have men visit me anytime. it's not like you don't have girls you fuck_'

' enough . okay _ '

' no you listen to me it's obvious. there's nothing between us you don't kiss or touch or even think of making a pass at me you have no rig__'

' I'm trying. I'm trying my best and you know it.and Elle don't u ever blame me do you think it's easy uh. think it's easy when you are half naked in front of me. I'm trying and you fucking know that. I've been there for more than 19 year's of my life and you're this?? just give me a break.' he grabs his keys and walk out jamming the door.

And I know Remi so much. he could keep conflicts for days with me. he could make it's a year. he'd never call or bringe breakfast. oh God ugh and we're the same thing you don't call I don't call ugh I hate this.

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' Good Lord you're awake, I thought you were sick '

' I'm not.' I groan.

' then why you on couch and eyes are red. have you been crying? did you and Remi fight again? whatever. I know you're always the reason I dare not blame Remi .I know you too well. anyways you father called but you were asleep. he's coming home to check up on you or should I call him not to worry?'

'please don't. I want to see daddy he's the only one who understands me in this house'.