As Long as it LasT

1 month later

''can't believe ,a whole month has been passed ,since the accident'' I laid my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes .He softly stroked my locks, intertwining his fingers between them . I love when he slowly massaged my head like this ,with constant soft kisses on my forehead and sometimes my nose .Once I mentioned it to him that I hate my nose because its small and not as perfect as him ,perfectly shaped and pointed .And since that he made it as his ultimate goal to make me appreciate my physical features more ,by providing them equal attention.

The whole month proved to be a better month for all us ,Haris and I became quite close ,we no longer have that awkward silence hanging between us .He no longer whine about getting less time with me because he knows after Mahnoor's marriage ,my workload has increased more .

Yeah! she got married exactly after 1 week when he died .Aunt Suraya begged elders to take a decision soon on Mahnoor ,as now that his fiancé had died ,no one would accept a girl whose relation has been broken just before her marriage .Asar uncle reluctantly stood up and placed a red dupatta on Mahnoor and announced her to be his daughter in-Law .She married Zurain , the next day and this time she was so contented and satisfied that she was in love or something . I can bet watching her like this must have completely broken the heart of that shopkeeper son. I pity for the unnamed boy ,he never get to have his chance with her. Aunt Sitara left badarpur and shifted in the town ,The couple lives in a small hut besides cemetery to stay near their dead son. Father ended all relations with the family ,the reason was still unknown but no one questioned him.

''Don't think too much about it '' Haris said giving a small peck on my nose .I turned around and ran my hands over his hair ,He closed his eyes and sighed . He started working overtime nowadays ,due to the harvest season coming up .He goes to Badarpur in afternoon and gets back in evening .He then lock himself in his office, which even I haven't got a glimpse yet and continues to draw patterns for his new architectural program until midnight . I watched the man in front of me and couldn't help but feel a tiny bit of empathy for him ,He really didn't know how to relax .I looked up to meet his gaze but his eyes were closed ,I softly pressed my lips on his forehead and then pecked his nose .he leaned back with a quiet ,but deep exhale .I felt a pull towards him ,an intensity I have never felt before .slowly realization dawned upon me ,that was the thing I was ,missing upon .

My life was exactly like the white cloth I wear ,bare ,empty ,colorless without a man's touch .This touch can melt even the hardest metal on the earth ,gentle yet dominant ,scorching with passion yet soothing like wind .

I don't look myself in mirror anymore because It calls me selfish in numerous languages but his sincere look and warm eyes made me forget any guilt ,any remorse .If it is wrong ,then I can do this wrong a thousand times ,just for the sake of his touch .

Slowly I gripped his chin and softly brushed my lips on his .He didn't protested so I let my hands explore his body ,His arms just like I have thought were strong enough to hold me ,His Adam's apple bobbed up and down as I placed my hands on his chest ,They were so small comparing to him but still made me feel complete. I traced the place just above his heart with my Index finger and placed a soft kiss there . His jaw tightened and I cupped his face ,caressing his cheeks ever so slowly .Just when my lips were about to met his ,He jolted his eyes open ,His brown eyes held the look I dont wanna see anymore ,The same fierce and promising look I once saw at his eyes .HIM

I looked away ,I must not think about that deceiving person who was not even a man of his words ,He was responsible for all this ,all the deaths ,all the miseries .He left me nowhere .

''What happened?'' He gripped my chin and forced me to look at him .I peered up at him through my lashes and let myself fall deeper in his arms and connected our lips.

My soul thrashed in my body to stop doing the sin and return back ,but I requested her to

LET ME BE SELFISH AS LONG AS IT LAST. . .