Chapter 6

Chapter 6

Dani-

Brooke: ‘A little, just a little. I, regress, mentally. Sometimes it's for fun, but sometimes I can't help it, like earlier when I felt threatened, or scared. There's always a piece of me that's still big, but it can be really hard to hold onto. Like when you came in, part of me knew Robert was out of place, but that didn't mean I could just sit up and be big.’

I did my best to think before speaking, as it was clear it was a very sensitive topic.

‘Tell me more, I want to understand more. Is being a little why you're having trouble sleeping? Why you don't seem to handle a schedule very well on your own?’

Brooke: ‘It's not because I'm a little, but I guess it's related. Are you sure you want to know though? It's drama..’

‘I wouldn't ask if I didn't want to know.’

Brooke: ‘Dani it's really...’

‘I said I want to know. Please?’

Brooke: ‘Ok. When I was a freshman in college, I met my first Daddy. He owned a restaurant near campus, and I used to hang out there a lot, even after he would close. The more time we spent together, the more drawn to him I was. Basically we started hooking up, and after we became a real thing, he wanted me to stop school. He said he wanted his pretty little princess at home like the good girl I was, because Daddy was supposed to take care of her. Against my parents wishes, I dropped out eventually, I finished that semester and didn't register for the next. I could do certain chores, like he would buy groceries online, so I could pick them up and have them put away when he got home. I could clean, but he would cook, I could shop, but only on the budget he provided. It was a total power exchange relationship, he was completely, and entirely in control, I was absolutely dependent on him. We talked about the idea of me maybe having a sissy, bringing in another girl for us to share, but only if we both agreed on her. I would have a say in everything. Well, he got me a spa day one Saturday, but I wasn't feeling the best so I went home early. When I got home, he and another man were playing with a girl. He took me to our room and explained that he had met another Daddy who wanted to find a Daddy and girl, to share with.’

I squeezed her hand firmly noticing the tears in her eyes.

‘Oh sweetie, come here.’

She laid down and rested her head on my chest.

Brooke: ‘I didn't want another Daddy having his way with me, and I certainly didn't want my Daddy playing with another girl. He thought he could convince me, that him playing with her behind my back for months was ok, because he was Daddy. He swears it's not true, but I'm certain the girl took lots of my things, not just little stuff like toys, but really nice outfits from my closet. I couldn't tell my parents I quit school, or missed family dinners, because Daddy told me to, so they thought I was just lazy. When I had to move home, they were pissed, they said they wasted enough money on my school that I had thrown away, so if I wanted to go back, I had to work for a year. That's why I'm here, that's why I don't manage well on my own when it comes to eating and sleeping, I had a Daddy for two and a half years that was basically in charge of my entire life. So as silly as it sounds, I just don't know how to take care of myself, I never have.’