CH 12 || These feelings

[After a month and a half]

Our semester exams had finally ended for the session so I am on my two months break.

During all this time, Chris and I have gotten really closer than before. One of the things I like about him is that he doesn't lie or keep much secrets away from me.

Father was right when he said that he and his girlfriend's relationship is just an infatuation.

Imagine how she treats him and uses him but he's blinded by a meaningless love.

That lady has really hurt him many times but he still crawls back to her. Thank God I haven't fallen for him if not.....

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I was having a group chat with my departmental colleagues.

Since we are going for our third year, we really need new upgrades concerning almost everything in our department.

"Okay that's it for today, we'll talk later. Have a nice night guys.. " I said.

"You too. I'll give you guys a call soon" said our class representative.

I closed my system later, turning my eyes to the clock on the wall.

It's just 10pm already but I'm feeling so sleepy.

I walked to the bed and just had my body fall groggily on it. Without any blanket on my body, I still enjoyed the warmth of the bed as I let myself sleep bare.

Few seconds after I shut my eyes, a car honk sound outside. And I'm sure the sound was outside the gate.

I groaned, digging my face into the pillow. I didn't realize I slowly closed my eyes again.

The horn sounded even louder. I raised my head to look at the window. I slowly pulled myself by my elbows on the bed, rubbing my eyes thereafter to clear off sleep.

Then again came the horn with an even longer sound. This sudden sound caused me to jump to my feet, my eyes now cleared of sleep.

I looked out of the window to see darkness everywhere. I sighed angrily at the disturbance.

But I don't understand why I'm feeling scared.

I fearfully slipped on my slippers and moved outside.

On opening the door leading to the outside, a breeze just swept into the house.

The cold breeze immediately sucked my skin dry as I stepped outside, making me wrap my arms on my body as I moved towards the gate.

My eyes scanned the sky, sighting no moon. No wonder it's dark. The moon hid behind large nimbus that blanketed the entire sky.

It is probably going to rain sooner or later.

I pipped through the small glass hole made on the gate for security reasons.

A honk came again as I saw Chris inside his lit car.

What is Chris doing here this late?

Hastily, I opened the gate for him to drive in. As he drove in, I locked the gate.

When he had parked properly, I watched him open the door to his car. First was his left feet that came out to the outside, then he pulled himself out of the car.

A shudder came from me as he slammed the door hard.

I was instantly scared of his action.

Did I make him angry? I must have made him angry.

On seeing Chris' face, I knew something wasn't right. Blood caked on his lower lip and his right cheek looked a little swollen.

My eyes scrolled down in shock to his hands which were held in tight fists. Was he attacked?

He didn't move a muscle since he got out of his car, he just stood in one place staring at my direction.

He looked angry and depressed at the same time. His gaze was fixed on me which scared me even more.

I took slow uncertain steps towards him. He stood, staring at me move as if I would make it to him successfully without tripping over my own foot and landing on the ground unpredictably.

When I was in front of him, our eyes met. My hand shakily moved up towards his face, touching his wounded lip.

"C-Chris are you okay? " Damn, of course he's not.

"What happened to you? " I asked, really concerned. I don't like seeing him like this.

Tears glistening in his eyes caused me even more worry. He suddenly wrapped his arms around me, digging his face into my shoulder. My eyes widened with surprise and fear but I still responded to his pain as I hung my hands vertically up his shoulders.

I brought him inside, offering him a convenient seat at the center of the sitting room. Then afterwards had him take a cup of hot cocoa.

Tending to his wounds was what I did next. His hissing sounds while I gave him first-aid was painful to me. I don't know why but it was.

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[Chris' POV ]

I sat on the love seat, my body pushing outwards as my elbows rested on my knees while my fingers intersected.

My eyes were wet with tears. I guess she's the only woman other than my mother that has seen me cry.

I just feel free around her so much and I can't understand why.

The room was quiet, only the sound of my heavy breathing interfered with the silence.

How long have I been doing that?

Series of memories of what happened today caused my blood to boil and tears threatening to fall.

I rose my head in the opposite direction to see Eddy patiently staring at me. Her face was serene but it had worry written all over it.

If only Amarachi was like her but no, Amarachi can never be like her, never.

"Chris? " Her soothing voice called. "Why don't you tell me what happened to you? It'll hurt less if you tell someone how you feel, it jettisons your burden. Why not pour it out, it's not a crime to me." She said, putting on a smile.

I couldn't resist her smile. Her smile is one most precious asset.

I looked down, trying to disassemble my feelings but I couldn't.

"She did it, far worse than ever " My voice cracked.

"Did what? " She voice carried with it worry and curiosity.

I let out a small laugh, "What she does when she wants to get back at me for doing something against her will "

I shrugged, "She's always like that. "

Eddy didn't say anything, she just kept on listening meticulously to what I was saying.

"I was hanging out with my friends at Sammy's place when a call came in... "

[FLASHBACK]

"Hello, Amarachi " I said, excusing myself from the mist of my friends.

"Chris? "

I was shocked, her voice sounded like she was crying and that got me a little worried.

"Baby? Are you okay? " I asked, furrowing my eyebrows.

"Come home now..." she whimpered, hanging up.

"H-hello? Baby? " I took the phone off my ear, confused as never.

I went back to my friends, excusing them.

"Where are you going man? " asked Jason.

I gave them a sign with my eyebrows.

"Oh" they all nodded.

I left, getting into my car as I pushed the key into the ignition, twisting it to the right.

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The door smoothed its way as I pushed it open. I stepped inside the room.

Expecting to see a sad and crying girlfriend, I instead saw Amarachi on her phone close to the window, facing it with a huge smile on her face.

"Oh Chris, you're here" she hung up as she turned her body towards my direction, still smiling.

Confusion and anger ran through my mind as my eyes scrolled down her body.

Was she going for a video shoot or something? With the way she dressed I thought that she was.

And well, she dresses like this seldom for a reason.

She wore a really long and spiky black leather heel that reached up to her knees.

Over her tall frame hung a long furry coat which was as white as a sterile cotton ball.

I closed the door behind me as I stepped into the room. Her face is always over baked with makeup so I'm used to it.

I watched as she walked majestically slowly towards me. "Ama.."

"Shh" she pushed me against the wall as she drove her hands up my chest till she held the back of my neck.

Because she is now exactly at my height level, she found it easier to lick her way through my lips into my mouth.

Mostly because I was disinterested, I pulled away from her but she... she still tried.

"Baby.. Baby wait, " I said. "I'm sorry, maybe not today. I only came here because you sounded scared " My tone had a bit of anger in it.

She pushed angrily away from me, "It's now about her isn't it!" she screamed at me. "Oh I forgot, I shouldn't be playing with a married man "

"Don't bring Eddy into this, " I rasped.

She walked away from me towards the window again.

"I want you to meet someone " She turned her head over her shoulder.

I winced at her statement when someone turned on the door knob.

My heart gave a quick explosion when I saw who walked in.

This guy is heavy, I mean scary. He is really dark in complexion and has sweaty muscles.

Veins running down his hands like electricity interconnected like branches.

What is Amarachi planning?

The guy bounced into the room not taking his gaze off me as he walked past while I looked at him in askance.

"Meet your new friend, Blaze " I heard her say.

I wasn't really afraid though, but when I saw him take hold of something that looks like rope from the wardrobe, I knew I was in trouble.

Instinctively, I quietly moved to the door but on reaching it, the guy as fast as lightning stood in front of the door.

"Not so fast " His harsh voice rasped sarcastic words at me with that sickening smile that looked more like a grimace.

My mouth opened in defeat as my jaw moved side to side.

I licked on my lower lip, turning my gaze back to Amarachi.

"What's all this?! " I yelled.

The guy backed away as I felt her hands slide under my underarm up to my shoulder from behind.

She pulled me back until I sat on a hard wooden chair pressing against the wall.

Whatever his stupid name is, I don't care. That animal is way stronger than my imagination.

I can't believe that he tied me to the seat with the help of Amarachi and I wasn't able to defend myself.

A slap echoed through the room. My eyes gaped with disbelief as my face turned to the side.

"That's for rejecting me " she barked, jolting me back to reality.

I turned glaring eyes to both of them. "What was that for? " I asked, trying to curb my temper.

"Something I've always wanted to do"

I wriggled on my seat, pushing my stuck arms upwards unsuccessfully.

She tied my mouth with a cloth, preventing me from talking any further.

I stopped moving and scowled at her.

"Good!" Is all she said.

My eyes followed hers as she lowered down to my eye level, placing her hands on the edge of the armrest.

"This is my revenge so you know who you joke with " she hissed.

Her eyes diverted to my shirt then back at me, "I want you to watch this, this will be the most unforgettable entertainment in your life" she drawled the last words as she stood up straight.

This is intractable. My mind felt disgusted at what was going on.

Blaze or whatever his name is sexually took off her coat, kissing her neck in the process.

The coat was flung on me as both of them smirked.

My anger grew watching my girlfriend sexually arouse another guy in my place.

She took the lead, kissing him from his shoulder to his groin. He let out a groan when she hit that spot.

I stared at him in severe anger as he smirked at me and giving me that contemptuous expression.

I shut my eyes, trying as much as possible to hold back my grieve.

Just listening to the most annoying grunts from him and moans from her are so painful.

Eventually, after waiting for this disgusting act to end, it ended. I waited to be freed.

"How dare you! "

Without letting a single breath, I smacked the guy directly on his face immediately he released me.

That blow made him fall on his knees, covering his face with his entire palms while groaning in pain.

"I wouldn't do that if I were you " I heard Amarachi say as she rested on the bed with one elbow.

Satisfied with what I did, now it's time to face my girlfriend.

I didn't even reach where she was when a hand grabbed me from behind. A strong blow landed on my face, sending me flying to the ground as I fell on my side.

"Agh, oh God " I tried to breathe.

Several blows landed on my face. I was weak, unable to move a muscle. I just closed my eyes, waiting for another blow but it didn't come instead a weight was lifted off my stomach.

"That's enough Blaze, put him in his car. He'll figure out how he'll get out soon enough " I heard Amarachi say.

[END OF FLASHBACK]

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My eyes glared angrily into space, trying as much as possible to hold back my tears as I explained everything to Eddy.

With the corner of my eyes, I saw her get up from her seat and walk towards me.

She sat beside me on the love seat. I felt a hand on my right shoulder and a slight press after.

"Hey, that's enough. You don't have to say anymore. "

I forced on a smile as I placed my left hand on her palm on my shoulder.

"I loved her, she shouldn't have done this....she... " I was about to say more but anger choked my words.

Arms wrapped around my neck from behind, giving me great surprise. Did Eddy just hug me from behind? She's never done that before.

"She doesn't deserve your tears if she was able to do that. You gotta be strong " She encouraged me and I swear I loved it.

She sat down back on the seat, staring at me.

I turned my face to her, my heart beating fast as she stared. "What? " I asked.

"You're stubborn. I told you to forget about what happened but here you are, still moody " She said, taking hold of the cushion on the seat.

I turned my face away, pushing myself back against the chair. "It's not that easy " I said, but the truth is I was fine now, just being close to her side.

She's a lot of comfort to me and I'm comfortable with her.

"Really? If you don't stop this then I'll sing to you and trust me you'll not like it "

I scoffed, what's there. I pretended that I was still moody so I could hear her sing.

"So you can't even put on a smile? "

I had to withhold the smile that threatened to show.

"Well, this is your punishment. It goes like this..... When I am down and oh, my soul so weary... " she sang.

She was right, I couldn't help but laugh to myself. Her voice sounded so much like a sick kid.

"..And I am still, I'm waiting here in the si..." she coughs severally.

I laughed, "Okay stop, I'm okay now"

"No it's your punishment... You raise me up.. "

"Stop.." I laughed hard.

In an attempt to cover her mouth to stop her from further straining her voice, we ended up facing each other.

We were a few inches apart with my hand over her mouth. She was leaning on the armrest while I was pressing against her body.

We stared into each other's eyes, obviously ignoring our exchange of breath.

I could feel the beating of Eddy's heart against her chest.

My hand gently slipped off her mouth as my eyes strolled down to her lips. I must admit, they are beautiful. They look soft too.

I didn't realize our face got really closer and I was focusing on her lips. I could see we were debating whether to kiss or not because for seconds we've been hovering close to each other's lips but not touching.

What kind of feeling is this? What is happening to me? I've only felt this way during my first year with my girlfriend.

"Thank you " I withdrew, I didn't want to do something she'll regret. I don't think I would be able to take it if she's angry with me or herself.

She nodded shyly and I felt the same way too.

I watched her get up and walk to the bedroom quickly.

This feeling is killing me. It feels wrong but it also feels right. I'm scared of the effect she's having on me.

It started when we were at my parents place but I doubted it and now I'm certain what it is.

She came back with a pair of earphones and her phone. The seat sank a bit as she sat on it.

All I did was stare at her as she plugged the earphone to her phone. That sounds creepy but I enjoyed it, staring at her. That doesn't sound like me but I found myself doing it.

She looked up at me and smiled, plugging one of it in my ear.

A song started playing so I relaxed on the seat as she did the same. I scooted closer to her unknowingly.

I recognized the song immediately. 'All I need ' by Vanze, Balco and Fransis Derelle also featuring Brenton Mattheus.

The song was nice and I loved the lyrics too.

After that was 'Drag me down' by One Direction.

The song was cool......

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[Eddy's POV]

I watched his pain slowly fade away, leaving me a happy and satisfied person.

I just wonder what love can do to people, driving them insane.

If not it was late, I would have suggested he went back home but I couldn't. Not now he got hurt by a girl that doesn't deserve him.

I swear I was furious at his girlfriend. We just sat there with the music playing in our ears til Chris slept off on the chair.

There was nothing I could do other than cover him with a blanket and rest his head gently on a pillow.

My hand extended to touch his face but I was contemplating inside me. Chris had a serious effect on me and I can't decipher what it is.

What happened today was enough reason to tell that I am in trouble.

I switched off the dimmed lights and headed for my room.

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6:04am, I was already up and done with showering.

I went straight to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. I opened the kitchen cabinet and got out bread and a few ingredients.

Opening the refrigerator, I got out eggs, tomatoes and a tin of sardine. I was going to make sandwiches. I kept the sandwich maker on the counter close to an outlet.

"Good morning " A voice greeted, causing me shock.

"Good morning, you startled me Chris" I turned to see him approaching.

"Sorry I didn't mean to. I just came to get water. " He opened the refrigerator, taking out a bottle of water and a glass cup. "You are always up early. What are you cooking, smells good " He peeped into the bowl that I was whisking eggs in.

"Sandwich, you like those right? " I asked, still on my work while my eyes stared curiously at him.

"Sure, since I came down here I haven't had it. I can't cook " He said before gulping down water down his throat.

I chuckled, "Well you'll have it today so go get a bath"

"Yeah, in the guest room right? " he pointed towards the door.

I nodded.

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Breakfast was served hot which I love. I could tell Chris was enjoying the sandwiches from the way he ate.

"Wow Eddy, I haven't eaten a sandwich as good as this back home. They are delicious " he complimented.

"Thanks, "

"Why are you not eating? " He asked.

I looked down at the table then back up at him.

"I wanna workout, " I replied.

"You workout? " he asked, munching on his food.

"At times.... "

After taking the last bite of his breakfast, he drank his coffee.

"What? I forgot what today is? " Chris almost yelped as he looked at his wrist watch.

My eyebrows furrowed, but before I could ask what the matter was, Chris had already gotten up from his seat.

"Eddy I got to go. Thanks for everything " He thanked, kissing my cheek afterwards.

Warmth crawled to my cheeks at his action as I looked up at him.

"Bye " He smiled before leaving.

"Bye " I replied.

My fingers trailed where his kiss was planted.

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Praise to God no lectures so now I finally have time to hit the gym.

I put on a black hoodie and a pair of leggings. I slipped on a pair of black and white Nike trainers.

Needing a little distraction, I wore my headphones with cool music. I don't over perspire so I don't need a headband.

It's been long since I carried out a cardio workout. I locked the gate and exhaled the fresh morning air. I'm ready to hit the gym.